FEMALE INTERESTS

I've succeeded fairly well with cutting down how much time I waste 
writing posts for here, though it still seems like I never get 
things done. More time to spend getting nowhere in other ways. 
Partly by idly thinking about women all the time. It's an endless 
dilemma, most people busy themselves with all sorts of silly 
behaviours I don't really want to try and understand, and the few 
general topics/activities I do enjoy aren't things women are 
interested in. But then do any couples I know (heavily skewed to 
people over fifty, mainly relatives) have real shared interests 
anyway? Real, I mean, as in not effectively faked in order to 
attract the other. Cases like my grandmother (who died last year), 
adopting an interest in military history from/for my grandfather, 
with her own twist of army nursing history. Or was it always a 
mutual interest, not adopted as part of her general role as a loyal 
wife? Others go to classes for topics of whatever whim they choose, 
meet a partner, then afterwards both people seem to drop the topic 
entirely. Are most couples actually compatible at all on an 
intellectual level? Is at least one of them just obliged to fake a 
shared interest at least up until the point they start having sex?

Besides that, on my rare trips on public transport I watch and 
listen to other people (train trips at night are great - you can 
stare at people in the reflections off the windows and they don't 
notice). Couples talk about banal topics - did that guy really say 
he'd been buying a new pair of sneakers every week? Some men 
actively discuss other people's relationships with women - I never 
figured out how such topics can be sustained for more than a couple 
of sentences - except that's what I'm talking about now, but those 
discussions never go anything like this.

What I'm really wondering is whether I should myself pursue some 
faked interest to try and meet women. Certainly electronics, 
computers, and car mechanics aren't gonna do it for me. Photography 
maybe, but the local club where my father's a member seems full of 
people his age or older. The closest I might get without completely 
faking an interest in something female-compatible would be music. 
I'm not a good fit for the role of picking up chicks at music 
concerts, but besides women I am always thinking up tunes in my 
head, and I can sort-of sing. With enough work I could probably put 
together some sort of musical act, probably with some offbeat 
electronic music invention ideas of my own that I've never pursued. 
Actually I did start building a Theremin while I was in secondary 
school, with an idea I'd try busking, but before it was finished I 
realised that really wasn't going to work for making a living. I 
don't know how people get started with getting booked for venues, 
but maybe girls would want to talk after the act? At least failing 
that it would be a way to make money myself while travelling 
around, which is another challenge I've often wondered about (a 
truck filled with portable campsite services: like a 
mini-laundromat, satellite internet, photo printing, and basic 
food/camping supplies, was another one, but I think regulations 
would kill it).

But then I end up with women who go to music gigs, and I'm not 
really into that, and I never really have followed popular music 
(which doesn't bode well for my chances of getting gigs myself in 
the first place), so I'd just be trying to bullshit my way into bed 
the whole time. Maybe I could do that convincingly, I'm sort of 
good at soft deception, but I think it'd get frustrating pretty 
quick.

So back to just sticking it out alone and horny, rethinking these 
things over and over, at least until I go and have a wank. Same 
questions, no answers, no women. But since I'm very satisfied in 
most other respects, this is probably as good as it gets for me 
anyway. Then again I've had a lot of other topics to write about 
here, more intellectual or in line with my interests, yet this is 
what I felt compelled to write about instead because it's what I've 
really been thinking about the most. What a trial it is to be a 
sexual being...

Also, to further confuse things, this week I actually got an email 
reply after years of silence from the one girl I do still know (or 
whatever you call that). I do talk to her OK without much attempt 
at faking topics of mutual interest, or maybe that's why she only 
replys every few years... Well I mentioned this topic to her, so 
maybe in a year or two I'll get to hear a woman's thoughts on 
cross-gender interests.

 - The Free Thinker