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Stardate: 20200218.0836
Location: SBUX
Input Device: Gemini PDA
Audio: Brainwave app set to Morning Meditation
Visual: Shared SBUX table, baristas, fellow coffee consumers
Energy: 60%
Mental: 50% +getting there with morning coffee
Emotional: meh, need moar downtime
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I decided to level up my self-care and take a mental health day to
chill the fuck out. I would have preferred to have slept in but I
still had to transport the child processes to their centers of
learning and conditioning. Oh well. Perhaps I will take a nap later
or do some meditation to reclaim some mind space.
It puzzles me how at this point in my life, time seems to have warped
or distorted...well, at least my perception of it. There seems to be
too much going on and not enough time to process it all. With the
way I spend my time exposing myself to different things, consuming
various distactions, being bombarded by so much information even un-
intentionally, it is no wonder why I have gotten to this point.
Wouldn't it be interesting if humans could have some kind of
distributed mental resource sharing, kind of like how the nodes
on a cluster share resources to process the data? Become moar human
than human...become ubermensch. A collective mind. A hive
mentality. Sounds like the Borg. OK, I don't think I need that.
It would be fun to interface with Seven of Nine, though.
Well, I think I just need to take a more active role in my exposure
to things. Lately, I have just been going along for the ride and
taking things as they come, just being swept up in the currents of
life. I think I need to go ashore, fix up my boat, recalibrate the
navigation system, and change course to calmer waters.
There is a pattern developing here. I think I saw this before when
I started spending more time in gopherspace. When things were
getting a bit much and I needed to throttle my downloads. When
life was becoming unmanageable. There is not too much unmanageabi-
lity these days, as far as meatspace goes, but my wetware desires
for moar signal, less noise...and moar buffer and moar time for
processing.
So I am taking today to regroup. Cut the fat and refocus. Refine
my modus operandi and discard the non-essentials. More importantly,
I need to get it out of my head and put it on paper. I seem to work
better when my thoughts are not free-floating in the wetware. I am
tasking myself with 15 minutes of analog mind mapping and see where
it goes from there. I know that with me, I just need to make a
small, simple start to get this going. Oh, and I will also just sit.
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