I am in bed with one of my ex. 
In the same bed, a friend, with
whom that ex cheated on me with. 

It seems like I'm invited to have
sex with her, or them, it's unclear,
but I know he will satisfy her more
than what I could offer. 

I leave the room, and I see another
of my ex. She also want my friend,
not me. This strange sensation of 
not feeling enough. I go to the 
bathroom. I am at my grand mother. 
I enjoy this bathroom, because the
mirror in front of the sink can
all close in a triangular prism,
where I can poke my head in, 
and live in the land of the 
infinite mirror. 

We all go to China town. It's 
an uncomfortable situation that
I would like to leave. But I would
like to leave as a statement, as 
a way to express my feelings. 
I'm looking in the store, I 
want to buy some small Shinto
figurine, I am not sure which 
one to choose from... 

___ reflection

I don't feel really good about
myself right now. I'm definitely
not feeling safe to go in a relationship
with another woman. I'd rather be 
alone than maybe getting hurt. 

The two previous long relationship
before the one that just ended, 
also ended up quite dramatically. 

Thinking about it, I had many 
dramatic relationship... 
And this sensation, that I want
to leave to express my sadness.
That's an old pattern, I remember
in my youth feeling like that. 
Yeah, leaving has been quite a
coping mechanism. 

This dream was filled with discomfort,
with old, deeply seated unresolved
emotions. It's also a reason why 
I don't want to jump into a relationship,
I want to deal with that old crap. 

___ action

I want to be on the lookout for 
old patterns from the past. I am 
going to a meeting at the Ashram, 
I haven't been in one of these for
many years. I think it might bring 
up stuff from the past. There might 
also be some interaction with 
other women there. I find women there
often quite attractive as most of 
them have a solid spiritual 
practice. 

I am not too sure what to make
of the sexual character of this
dream. My sexuality is quite low
and uncultivated at this point...