10 Sep 2025
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 I Thought I Saw Your Face Today

 This song is not in my playlist for a very long time already. I used to like
 listening to She & Him, especially this song.

 I like the melancholic feeling of the song but feel very little for the love
 theme of it. I searched online a long time ago to know that it is probably
 talking about lost love. That kind of make sense, but the lines that resonated
 with me were...
 
 
                           I somehow see what's beautiful
                            In things that are ephemeral
 
                             I'm my only friend of mine
                            Love is just a piece of time
                             In the world, in the world
 

 I don't really like "retro". That doesn't mean I hate it though. I think old,
 sometimes called "outdated", things fade away for a reason. The consensus of
 human simply decided that they have served long enough, even though there may
 be people who still love them.
 
 I hate to say this, but I think just like in the lyrics, we feel the nostalgia
 because things are ephemeral, or simply not living for as long as we are. The
 feeling of holding the fragile body of the existence, not knowing when it will
 completely go way, is the thing that gets us (or just me).

 When I started trying out CGI in Gopherspace, I was thinking "oh it is great,
 I wonder why there aren't more places that have dynamic contents in the
 Gopherspace". I started writing something, thought about how to deal with the
 simplicity of Gopher protocol, having no information about who is who, and the
 information in "header" that we now use extensively. I tried to think about
 the possible scenarios and how the CGI program should flow. I got to a point
 that I think it is probably not perfect but done, it is a waste of time (as in
 improving life) comparing to HTML, CSS, JavaScript, "modern technologies".

 I think it is a waste of time practically; I don't think it is a waste of my
 time. I feel a lot for how it faded away in the light of "newer" web tech. It
 got "obsolete" for a reason, despite how beautiful I think it is.

 It is easy for us to act up and "bring back the good old days", but on another
 side I imagine that the good old stuffs don't need revival, they only need
 our appreciation. Everything is just a piece of time in the world...