date: Fri 10 Apr 2026 09:44:30 PM PDT
subj: angles here from time to time. 
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Just the other day, moment by moment it felt like every minute
was a race to get everything done. I woke up laid there for a
minute or two, looked at my watch, it shows a half hour before
my alarm should go off. I get out of bed, start the process of
doing everything needed to get things ready for the day. Splash
my face with water, wet my hair, brush it, then my teeth. I put
yesterday yesterday's clothes on, put the baby gates up, go to
the fridge, get out the bottle put them on the counter top, get
my breakfast out take it down to the basement where my
workstation is, rush backup upstairs, look at my phone for the
first meeting time, rush to the front door to unlock it encase
the babysitter arrives when I'm changing one of my babies or
when I'm feeding them. On the way back from the front door, stop
in the restroom to flush the toilet so its not disgusting for
the babysitter. Then to my babies room, I see my son there just
laying looking up, he sees me and just continues to lay there. I
wonder if he notices me, he is so relaxed unlike most mornings
he is standing up in his crib. I turn to check on my daughter,
she rolls over and says hi in her own way. I open the shades,
and say good morning babies! Lets get some sun light in here,
then proceed one at a time putting the babes on the changing
table to get their diapers "fixed". Then I start feeding them,
the babysitter knocks on the front door and comes in. I say
hello! As I'm feeding the babies. I hear her taking off her
shoes, and making her way to the kitchen situating her food and
other things for the day. She then comes in the bedroom and
helps with the babes. I leave, look at my phone and call into my
first meeting to tell the team what I did the day before (i
barely remember), and what I'm going to work on today.

During my workday in the basement I work on computing stuff,
until lunch, then I start my fitness, I do a HIIT work out on
my bike the best I can. Not easy sometimes I can't get my heart
rate low enough after I'm at 80/90%. I hurry to return to my
work, but rush to grab some leftovers for lunch from the fridge,
so I can get back to work. I work until the end of my work day,
and rush upstairs to relieve the babysitter for the day.

I say hi to my babies, then start making dinner, rushing as well
as I can, between segments I entertain my babies, until my wife
comes home. I do was much as I can to help her and make the
food. When the food is done, my wife and I feed our babies by
sharing our meal with them until they are full, then we try to
enjoy eating food for a moment, then its time to get them ready
for bed. I wonder are they going to have a massive tantrum, or
well they be calm. My wife works at getting them ready, I help,
and luckily tonight nobody is having a major melt down. I feed
my daughter, while my wife feeds our son, and then she lays him
to bed in his crib, and my daughter lays in my lap for a bit
with her bottle, then she seems ready, I put her to bed. I leave
their bedroom back to the kitchen where my wife is doing dishes,
and preparing coffee. I feed that cat, then  rush to the
bathroom to prepare myself for bed. 

I brush my teeth, and do all that stuff so I don't bother my
wife when she is trying to settle down, then I return to the
kitchen to prepare breakfast for her, and myself. Overnight oats
again, with frozen fruit. She gets mixed berries, and I get
blueberries. I prep breakfast then return to the bedroom. I
forgot the compost needs to go outside, so I rush to find the
flash light so I don't step in deer crap in the yard, put shoes
on, head out to the trashcan to dump the compost, the back
inside. I'm already late for my wife to go to bed. I give her a
kiss good night, then open my laptop hoping I have some energy
left to write about my babes, but I don't so I try to mess with
LLMs and shtuff decide I'm tired and shut the laptop computer. 

This is how it goes day after day, rush all dang day, not a
minute is left to anything but efficiency. I don't really talk to
anyone, nobody talks to me... after a week of this I'm pretty
much on edge, same with my wife. Every moment is about
working, none of it about joy or fun. All my thoughts are on the
next moment for what I'll do. Tonight is different. Today was
different. 

Today was different, I didn't go to work today, I spent the
entire day with my babies, I vacuumed the house, baked some
bread, fed the babies. My wife returned from work early, we went
on a walk to the library. I read the babies a book "look at my
new bike!" We walked some more, talked to some neighbors we've
never met before, Cathy and Craig and saw their dog Charley. No
rush feeling, no rush to go to sleep, or learn about AI and LLM
crap. Even though today was busy, giving babies baths, cooking
dinner, feeding babes, putting them to bed, getting myself ready
for bed so I don't bother my tired wife, it all feels better
inside of me. I went out to the kitchen/family room and saw my
wife asleep on the couch, with the cat, the game on the TV. I
thought there is my sleeping angel. I got my phone out and took
a picture of her with the game on. She loves the games, she was
their on the couch like the days before babes, with the cat. She
still looks like a sleeping angel to me. I love her.

If only I could make those other busy days feel less busy, less
work like.  I don't known why it was less stressful today, maybe
just because I don't have work tomorrow.