date: Sat 12 Jul 2025 11:31:23 PM PDT
subj: regular joe not that interesting not worth listening
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At one point I found out that I'm really not that interesting. I
go about my day to day and for the most port nothing out of the
ordinary (in my opinion). I think once I got to a certain age I
discovered from some of the people I interact with I'm not very
interesting, and certainly not captivating. I have to admit this
fact. The difficult part is knowing this, but also being
concerned about it (bummed out). 

I can listen to people talking to me to the point where I give
them my attention. I can speak back to them about what they say.
I enjoy this type of interaction. I was sort of raised to be
this way. I think a lot of us were raised to be this way. 

When I do speak to people I get this idea that other things are
far more interesting than what I may say or do. Like something
on the TV can catch their attention in the middle of what I'm
saying. The interruption appears, and a new conversation
nothing related to what I was saying starts. I get thrown off by
this type of interaction in a way it seems like the attention
was lost and there is no real reason to continue saying
anything. When such things happen the feedback to me is
negative. 

Getting negative feedback is bothersome. Some people are good at
saying they don't give a rats ass about interactions that happen
like that. Interactions to them become more about jokes than
anything else. I think that is great but I suck making
everything a joke. I guess I have a few more things to learn.
Make everything I say not matter at all. For if I'm not
interesting now, why would anything I say or care about saying
matter to anyone else, so less saying, and if said make it not
matter at all, because there is no difference.  

When your young and attractive everything you say matters. That
is the wonderful part of being young. 

Typing text to yourself and publishing to yourself is exactly
the same as not that interesting, and doesn't matter. But there
is this, I get to practice and typing shit that doesn't matter.
:) :) 


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