flying chihuahuas
june 24th, 2000

i'm falling in love with my daughter again. i've spent the entire evening 
from the time i returned from matthew's until now doing nothing but 
watching and playing with my daughter - children seem to achieve these 
different milestones where everything clicks inside of them. lights are 
shed on different sections of their brain, and they aquire mass amounts of 
knowledge all at once. it's amazing. she understands and can communicate 
to a degree now, and that is entirely fascinating. she'll open books and 
blabber in baby talk pretending to read them. i told her "no" when she 
went to pull on the keyboard and she listened. she spent two hours playing 
a game where she would have us throw this stuffed chihuahua across the 
room and she would retrieve it and bring it back to us...(i knew you could 
teach dogs to fetch, but to teach children to fetch dogs?) it's just been 
an amazing night. icing on the cake of an amazing day spent playing 
outside in the grass with my daughter and the mattyboy. among other 
things.

it's been a pretty wonderful week. a week of shedding fears and being 
spontaneous and seeing people i have missed a great deal, a week of work 
and accomplishment and revelation. and as much as i would like to share my 
adventures with you, my daughter i believe is finally deciding to call it 
a night, so i need to go get her ready for bed. motherhood is one of those 
magical treasures about being a woman that i am infinitely grateful i was 
blessed with.