I'm looking
for love
in the wrong
places

I'm lost
and hope
for someone
to save me

I don't know
how to love
anymore
and expect
someone
to teach me

Who could
that be?
Who could
love someone
that doesn't
love

I'm sad
and alone
but can't find
my way out

Is it there?
As I walk
in a bush
of roses
thrones gripping
my heart
making me
bleed
once more

Can she
sees that
I'm hurting
Why would she?

My fantasy
is painful
my creation
is destructive

In this
sadness
I'm liberated
I am done

Is liberation
always sad?
I'm breaking up
with my make belief
I'm breaking up
with nothing

In this void
I wonder
what is next?
I rejoice
that it's over

I was entertained
for a while
in disbelief
that I was
even there
but shameless
and ready
to move on

What happened?
What changed?
what made me mad
and sad

Nothing changed
only my perception
yet sadness
took hold of me

Would I go back?

To be blind
yet excited
Or to see
and be sad

The past
seems unreal
In disdain
I move forward