I miss you so much...

Just five words
to destroy my world
to create a new world

That's all
she needed to say
to shift my reality

How fragile is my reality
if it only takes five words
to uproot, to burn the past
and create a fantasy
of a new world

What does it mean?
What am I now?
How will I react
when meeting her again?
How will I change
my whole life
around this new fact?
Will I even survive
such a radical change?

It took me almost a week
to come back from these
five words...

I'm okay now
my reality didn't collapse
nothing really changed
apart from the perceived
fragility of my world

Five words that didn't
mean much after all
five words that might
be said, without depth
I can't blame her
for my reaction

If it only takes
a few words
to usurp my mind
to reprogram my world
can I do that too?

Reality is fragile
reality is subjective
I am the only one
to live in it
Although others could
approach understanding
of my personal reality
no one can really live it

We go around with our
fragile and subjective
realities
We meet and share, sometime
aligning our view of reality,
most of the time re-inforcing it
Different groups tries
to legitimize some more generalized
reality, giving it
weight and credibility
Medias, politics, religions...

But we are all
playing make-believe
in a sandbox
hoping our castle
get accepted by others
trying to convince
ourselves that it
all makes sense

And then she comes
tramples over
my sand castle
resetting my reality
bringing me
into the haze
into the void
I miss you so much...