Full moon
I cry tenderly
on my ride back
from the ferry

It's over

my love story
has ended
before it
even started

Is it what
she said?
how she was?
I knew it
was coming
maybe I
created it?

Nothing happened
because there
was nothing
to start with

I just
fooled myself
running away
from reality

A world I created
burnt in an instant
and now, again
I am alone

Mother's day
marked the one year
since my separation

I've been alone
creating a fantasy
not to feel
not to be
alone

And now
even that story
is over
I question
my sanity

I've never been
so eager
for time to pass
for me to forget
to not hurt
to not feel
this self imposed
suffering

how can I
fool myself
into this?
why would I
do that to
myself?

I knew all along

There is
no one else
to blame
for my own
suffering

nothing to do
but to wait
nothing to do
but to heal
nothing to do
but to love
myself