The first day of using castor oil
turned into a full fledged detox.

I'm now on day 2

It all started with a feeling
bloated and uncomfortable.
I took a table spoon of
castor oil, a lot of water,
and ate chia seed and blueberry
for breakfast. I then didn't
want to each too much as the
castor oil was doing its job.

So I decided to make a
cauliflower curry. Very
simple:

CAULIFLOWER CURRY

 - 1 onion
 - 1 head of cauliflower
 - 1 can of coco milk
 - 1 table spoon of green curry
 - 1 cup of broth (I had elk broth)
 - Butter, oil, salt, pepper

Chop the onion, for a curry
it doesn't need to be minced.
With olive oil and butter
melted in the pan, I brown the
onions slowly. This is what
will give a lot of the flavor
so it needs to be done nicely.

Cutting the onion in small
pieces that are all the same
size really matter when you
want to cook them perfectly.
If there are small bits they
will burn, while the bigger
piece won't cook as much.

Once the opinion as a prefect
golden color, the sweetness
comes out. I put the chopped
cauliflower in there, to roast
them a bit.

Then I pour the elk broth on
top, for the sweetness of the
onion, and the taste of the
broth to combine and infuse
the cauliflower. I let this
boil for a bit, then I finally
add the coco milk, then the
curry. I add a bit of sweetener
sometime.

...

I was reading about using
castor oil and they suggested
not to eat raw, or hard to
digest food, or too spicy
of a food.

I still went with the curry.
I learned a bit later
why this wasn't a good idea. 

In the evening, I drank
some Yerba Buena tea, a
wild plant a friend of mine
brought over. I realize how
that could be the start of
a cleanse.

I got excited about it and thought
about all the things I could
do during that time.

A Pancha Karma is normally
5 days or longer. Since I
started on Thursday, I could
do 4 days at least.

SMUDGING

I decided to smudge the house
to get started:

 - Dried tobacco leaves
 - Copal in powder
 - Palo Santo

I used a charcoal brick to
hold the mix, and smudge
the whole house. It was
quite needed after all the
last month happenings.

Smudging helps change the
energy of a place. It changes
the smell, which change our
relationship to an environment.
It's also a practice of being
aware for a moment, and having
the intention of changing the
energy of a room or a house.

The awareness and intention
alone changes my own interaction
with my surrounding. I take
care of my home, so that my
home takes care of me in return.

...

CEDAR BATH

Then for my body, I decided
on a cedar bath. I went to
ask a tree for a few branches,
I made a fire in the wood stove
and boiled cedar for a few
hours. I added that to a warm
bath.

Cedar oil, coming out of the
branches have a strong effect
on my body. It also cleanse the
air in the room as the boiling
fill the house.

I was taught to use cedar bath
anytime you do a ceremony, to
cleanse the mind and body before
and after. 

...

I wanted all these other thing,
like Epson salt, some other food,
as well as incense and other
substances. But that would require
me to leave the house, and I
though it would be better to
stay home, partly because
I also had to run to the
toilet on a regular basis.
(that's the effect of castor
oil if you didn't know) 

So I wanted to use only
what I have at home. Although
I don't have a lot of veggies,
I do have a lot of beans,
frozen blueberries, chia seeds.

My diet consist of:

 - A lot of water (with a pinch of salt)
 - Some apple cider vinegar
 - Table spoon of castor oil
 - Green tea
 - Match tea (not yet open)
 - Split pea
 - Broth
 - Lentil, white beans...

The practices I decided to do:

 - Self Massage
 - Yoga
 - Reflection
 - Meditation
 - Music

I even tried to watch some
YouTube but I wasn't interested.
The detox mode made me want to
do other thing, drawing, playing
music or writing.

The self massage has been quite
helpful in feeling bloated. I
use the same castor oil for massage
with stones. The stone helps
pressing deeper in my stomach
area, as well as cooling.

PLANT MEDICINE

This is a perfect setup for
moving from the cleanse to
a small ceremony. I have a
few medicinal plant with me,
coca, amanita, hongos, huachuma.

I might have a tea tonight and
see what the medicine brings
to me. I am not sure yet. 

SPLIT PEA SOUP

 - 1 onion
 - 1 cup of split peas
 - 1/4 cup of broth

This is as simple as it gets.
It's really easy to digest
and takes about 1.5 hours to
cook, and it takes pretty good!

Prepare the onions like in
the curry. Again this will be
foundational to the task of the
soup. I then cook the split
peas with the onions for a bit,
before I put the broth in.

Since the peas needs 1.5 hours
to cook, I added water a few
times.

During the detox, a lot of the
toxin comes out of the mouth,
it's important to clean

PULLING

Using some coco butter, the
solidified oil of coconut, a
table spoon in my mouth, I swish
this around for about 20 minutes.
(While the pea soup is cooking!)

Once this is done, I spit it out,
and then clean my tongue with a
spoon. A lot of the toxin seems
to come out of the tongue as well.

I make sure to rinse well my mouth.

YOGA

I don't do intense yoga practice
as my energy is quite low. I
focus on twist which helps my
bowel movement.

Twists are also good to remove
the toxins from the internal
organs.

I also focus on movement
that drain my lymphatic system,
which goes like this:

Back of the knees
Groin area
Arm pits
Neck and Jaws

SLEEP

As the body is pushed into
an imbalance, it's important
to rest well, sleep well
and take a few bath or shower
to keep the body heat. Since
the food I eat is very minimal,
and my body is purging, I have
very little energy.

I've had crazy dream all
night. One of which I had
sex with my ex wife. It's
the first time I dream of
her since the separation.

Although I find it weird
that I dreamt of that, I
notice that the dream wasn't
filled with emotions, anger,
or even desire. This seems
to indicate a new phase in
my relationship. I don't desire
nor despise her.