Three days before the next
festival. We're staying at Marc's
today. A friend I met while
partying here in the Okanagan
Valley. He's also separated a
year ago, starting to explore his
life as a single man. He seems
less picky about the type of
woman he dates. He's having a lot
of fun so it seems.

We drank together yesterday night
after a party for my friend
healing journey. We talked about
where we are in our single's
journey. It was refreshing to
talk openly about this. He is
simple and happy, he likes big
boobs and sex. We laugh a lot.

I decided a couple days ago that
I am not ready to be in a
relationship, he also said
that. Being married for over 10
years, it's not the time to be
locked down again. He spoke about
polyamorous and how a lot of
people are getting away from the
concept of being in a couple,
belonging to someone else.

Going against the traditional
coupling. It makes sense. Talking
to him gave me more confidence in
enjoying the next festival. I
realized that the last few time I
approached women, I was talking
to them about fairly boring
stuff. What was I trying to do?

I am not looking for a
relationship. Why would I bore
people with my life plans?
What could I be looking for?

I really liked to kissed Molly.
It was spontaneous, gentle and
very sweet. 

Can that be my goal? If I get
excited about someone, maybe I
ask for a kiss? Instead of
talking.

I find you very attractive.
I'd like to kiss you.

Or massage you, or tattoo
you... along these lines I
guess. I feel that a kiss might
be the simplest approach.

It's interesting to clarify what
I really want, and what is
possible to get to in a festival
itself.

I hope I can rest enough, clean
the car and get ready for the
festival. I need to do a bit of
work today and we'll see where it
all lands.