Hi hi Gopher gopher! I'm back again for another phost!

Stuff still isn't really resolved between my friend and I, and I'm 
hoping that maybe it will be soon, but for now Snowdusk has told me that 
I've gotta keep my mind off of it and focus on me. And he's right. Demi 
Brown keeps telling me that too (he's the 43-year old gay guy that's the 
Dean of Intercultural Affairs (I think) and is over this situation. He's 
great and has been a big help).

So I'm trying to focus on me and get better. It's difficult, but I know 
that I can do it. It's just going to take time.

In the past day I've been trying to get myself organized for finals and 
also to get my schedule and major planned out. Here's what I've decided 
on so far:

1. Work hard as frick to satisfy the remaining requirements for me to 
have a B.S. in Creative Writing with a minor in English literature. 
Basically I just need the rest of the English stuff, senior seminar, and 
two business classes.
2. Use my senior year to gain my "major experience" and foreign language 
requirements by studying abroad at Akita International University in 
Japan. Since the rest of my classes will be free game, I'm going to take 
whatever courses appeal to me (notably some Computer Science courses, 
which my school doesn't have).
3. Graduate from Millsaps College.

Right now I'm also trying to find some way during the summer to make 
money, as I'm in pretty desparate need of it. One of my professors may 
be offering me a position to help create a website for some project he 
has going on, although that's tenative (and last time I worked on a 
tenative website project, it fell through and I never saw a dime, which 
kind of peeved me off. That's *still* tenative, and I'm probably 
going to raise the prices on the guy for the trouble I went through last 
summer with it). I'm probably just going to have to find a *real* job, 
although that's something that I just really despise. I'm not a great 
member of society lol. I'd also like to start working again on Subject 
X31 (a webcomic I was doing previously), but I'm not positive how that's 
going to work out. We'll see. Heck though if I'm going to major in 
creative writing, I may as well actually do it.

All the stuff I have to do for finals week is written down and 
sticky-noted to my dresser. It's not a lot; I just have to get it done. 
And anxiety keeps telling me that it's too much, even though that's a 
lie. Somehow, though, I'll do it.

Now let's just hope my teachers excuse all my absences...