The universe is capable, at its tiniest capacity -- mere electrons in an atom
-- of giving form at light speed. Yet, it delights in taking months to grow
a simple carrot. When we encounter situations in our life where we're
frustrated by the time it takes to get what we want, we can receive calm in
the knowing that the universe chooses to unfold things in the perfect time.
Sometimes events and gifts are seemingly instant, and yet other times they
are emergent. When we can truly accept that things are conspiring in our
favor, we can modulate our experience, and -- even if for only a moment --
share the universe's delight in creation.

This is just a small thought I had today and felt it would be good to post on
Gopher. I get upset and frustrated sometimes when I can't see the people I
want to see on a regular basis. This past weekend I'd really been feeling
upset because my friend hadn't been coming over as often as I'd wanted him
to, and it really upset me more when I realized we had only actually hung out
twice this entire month. But this spiral of thinking was only bringing me out
of the present moment, and I had to accept that the past two or three weeks
of January doesn't have to be a definition of a pattern from this moment. From
this moment, he could very well suddenly start coming over every single day!
Or every few days! Or whatever! Whatever it might be, I didn't need to let my
frustration make me feel like exactly what I needed wasn't still always
available and always provided at the right time. Sometimes that feels instant;
sometimes it feels like it takes forever. But being stuck in a "waiting state"
is nothing short of miserable, and learning to use what tools I have to
overcome that while remaining in my own set of tasks (i.e. my friend coming
over is not my task, and it is not a task which I can complete in his place)
is important for my own growth. (If you have no idea what I'm talking about
when it comes to tasks, The Courage to be Disliked is an incredibly good
[audio]book).

Anyhow, yeah, both my Gopher posts this year have been a bit
mystic/spiritual/philosophical lol. I think these things are perhaps of more
value than my feelings about the current American brouhaha -- which I do
certainly have a LOT of feelings about, but I think I could write a six hour
video essay and still not be done. Maybe at least I'd be more entertaining
than the news! Ha! (Not a high bar)

I think I'm not ready to share all my current life updates yet, but I feel
like I am at least finally losing some weight and regrowing some hair, so
that's good! Perhaps I'll have a whole new list of goals by 2025 if I finally
check those off! lol. I need to start setting the time aside to listen to my
favorite aNONradio shows again and catch up with my SDF friends. It's been a
long while, but I think it would be nice to have some good time spent in COM.
After all, everybody needs to use the COMMODE at least every once in a while!

(If an SDFer doesn't use COM for a while, is that constipation?)

Anyhow, that's all for now! I need to sleep!

~jebug29 :3