ometimes I wasn't sure if I was just full of hot-air, just
   talking and not knowing if I really understood what I was
   talking about.* I spent the last... gosh, since April 2013 now,
   staying up 'til 5am on Wikipedia, watching videos, taking
   thousands of notes... and trying to see if I missed something -
   if maybe I was wrong. After all that, diving down rabbit holes
   and doing an Alice in Wonderland trip, I'm coming back to
   realizing that I hadn't changed my thinking; I just gave it
   fancier words and I can explain it to any over-educated white
   guy who wanders around and hold my own in an online battle of
   words just fine and I can usually get anybody to like me in the
   end. I have no idea why that's important to me.* Anyway, yes,
   Those were awesome times.* I'm still in the rabbit holes,
   travelling down tunnels, but hopefully I'll come up for air and
   be more "live" soon :P