Indeed. Adjusting reasoning is a painful process. Every once in
   a while - and not too often because it's grueling... I ask
   myself the question: "What am I avoiding right now?" I start
   writing it out. The writing gets slower and slower, and more
   painful to put into words the deeper I go because I start
   hitting into areas of fears and uncertainties that I _much
   prefer_ to keep locked away in nice little boxes, tucked away
   into dark corners, like monsters tucked away in the basement of
   my mental castle. Introspection is a marvelous lifelong habit
   for me, although I don't think it's for everybody honestly.
   After all, once you've been deconstructed, who is there to pick
   up the pieces?