Lol it's ok ?? now I know I'm glad I didn't start watching * as
   a boy, Sagan had that effect on me and I knew the big teddy bear
   would do the same. My project, going on 2 1/2 years now * is
   trying to discover what I already think and believe * and I've
   learned a lot about cognitive structures, limitations of fact
   and shared belief, The dangers of metaphor and excessive
   agreement among humans. Doing this has required me to strip away
   a lot of myself and much of it is been uncomfortable and
   continues to be. I've had to and continue to scrutinize all of
   my heroes * after first finding out who they were and are *
   discovering the fatal flaws while keeping what remains true
   enough. I don't have a guidebook for the process but I'm
   building it as I proceed. I don't know what it is and will be *
   or if it's even applicable to anybody else, but it's been quite
   engaging so far. Every time I talk to somebody it's a part of
   this discovery process * including this conversation * and every
   one. So, that's where I'm at.