The model I'm trying to come up with is one that makes sense to
   me, one that I can explain easily enough (the double-loop
   learning, which I later found out was "feedback loops" and
   hysteresis .. or is it feed-forward... ugh I forget - anyway -
   that fit perfectly with how I perceive things. Then when I came
   across embodied cognition it kinda tied it together. That was
   the first time I came across a "hey, we're getting this figured
   out in a novel way" that I could stand behind. As much as I
   wanted to stand behind computational theory of mind and stand
   behind holographic mind and stand behind the
   ecosystem/environmentalist viewpoint... they were all missing
   'something', so I kept searching. I'm still looking but once I
   realized that what I needed to focus on was appropriate
   metaphors while recognizing their limitations and being to
   explain their limitations... that was key.