I couldn't go back. Ppl go up north to visit friends. Ask me why
   I don't. I got no reason. Broke my friendships gently (this is
   years before facebook and online was still for nerds-only like
   me) - and off I went. I was on Lorazpam on occasion and daily
   meditation/prayer - like, throughout the entire day. Linked it
   up to my every breath just to cope with the stress. It helps a
   lot. But getting away from people is better. I was into Eastern
   Orthodoxy at the time so it was the Jesus Prayer. In breath:
   "Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God" and out breath, "Have mercy on
   me, a sinner". Perfectly timed to 6 seconds each way. It went
   with the tradition and I used it. I could've used anything
   linked up to the breath and it would've worked but I was in
   convertitis mode and REALLY used every bit of the mystical stuff
   that could help. Now I'd probably pick a different phrase but
   use the same technique. Works good. 6 second inhale, 6 second
   exhale, stick some words to it that are easy to remember.