Well, might as well put them up online somewhere. I'm still on
   the process of getting some stuff up. My problem I don't really
   like any of it. it's never "it". Even hearing it now, in my head
   I can hear what I *wanted it* to sound like as I was playing and
   what I'm hearing with my ears is.... well, "not it". I liked
   playing with a built-in music program on my "Tandy 1000 TL/2" -
   this from back in 1988 was trapped in an obsolete format that
   none of today's music programs can read.. but about a year ago I
   figured out how to untrap it - it was a pain the ass... and got
   to hear it again for the 1st time in 26 years, which was pretty
   cool to me. And yeah, never too late for piano lessons - but
   really you can make music with anything. Overdubbing gives you
   the power to turn anything into your own band or orchestra.
   https://soundcloud.com/kenneth-udut/creepy-tandy-deskmate-1988-digital-horror-music-lives-again-after-26-years
     == Might be. I was into horror movies a little (this was the
   80s) and 16 yrs old, so when I was composing it on the computer,
   it's likely some bach came up in there. I like arpeggios a lot
   so if arpeggios are bach-like then it's likely I have a bach-ish
   style. [I like classical but never studied it- I just know the
   songs I like] == I like repetitive. Same theme played 20
   different ways, different keys, minor, major, faster, slower,
   quieter louder, in different styles... and I'll use a single
   musical idea 'til it's exhausted if I have enough time. I murder
   a musical idea - and not in a good way either tongue emoticon ==
   I'll turn a sad song into a happy song, a happy sound into
   something that makes you want to kill something or me... it's a
   good thing I keep it to myself mostly, honestly. Favorite
   connection as a kid of 10 was combining the Funeral Dirge with
   the Wedding March - they fit together SO perfectly. == THE TAIL!
   It's me... but NO - it's not me! It CAN'T BE ME! Yet.. I feel
   the pain... but it's not my pain... it's another dog's pain....
   HOW CAN I FEEL THEIR PAIN? unless.. i'm using another dog's
   mouth... oh, the PARADOX == Indeed. It's why I never plunged in.
   I was supposed to go to Julliard as a kid. Didn't want to.
   Talked mom out of it. Even at 11, I knew it wasn't the life for
   me. The competition, the perfection... I could see it would suck
   the joy out of me. At 22, a buddy started "Union Records" - I
   was going to be his star. Dragged me around from church to
   church, anywhere there was a piano, and record my playing in
   different environments. He's an audiophile, made him happy.
   Anyway, I wasn't committed and after a lot of fun road trips
   (including getting to play the Bosendorfer with the extra octave
   at the bottom in NYC), I finally had to let him know. He was
   relieved too because he found being an agent was a LOT more work
   than he thought getting connections. So it worked out well
   'cause a musical career wasn't and isn't for me. == music is
   hard to share. So stupid 'cause music was one of the FIRST
   things ppl were sharing. But... $$$. Industry. Gotta make a
   video to even share your own stuff. Soundcloud works well but
   it's yet ANOTHER service to sign up for and learn. == SO many
   times ppl said that. ugh. I admired him as a person and his
   life. Worked my way through his biography... that is, before the
   AIDS thing anyway. But I never liked performing on stage, never
   liked editing, didn't care about admiration. I play because I
   enjoy it. If someone wants to make money off of me they can but
   I don't wanna go through hoops. == "Hey you play piano? Can you
   play [insert song]?" UGH, How does it go again? (I force them to
   hum it for me even when I know it just because I don't want to
   be ONLY one forced to perform something). I hear a warbly thing
   for a few seconds, "Ok, got it" and play the song they wanted.
   elementary, middle, high school, college, anywhere there was a
   piano and someone knew I played, I'd get that. I have thousands
   of songs in my head I can play but I don't want to play any of
   them. I *can* but I feel demeaned when I do it on command..
   stupid really but I just don't like it. == Awesome, I look
   forward to it like emoticon and yeah I guess that's how i look
   at it too. I gotta get it out of my system and move on..
   otherwise, I'm playing a set of Beatles songs again, or Billy
   Joel, or "that piece bugs bunny played in the cartoon"... I can
   fake classical well for ppl who don't know classical. I love
   distortion: I did a thing once where I hooked up a couple of
   mics to a piano, ran it through two distortion pedals (I think
   one was a wah-wah the other a distortion) and into a tape deck.
   - had them cranked up all the way. No idea what it sounded like
   'til I was done. Part of the fun. Played it back and I liked it.
   Nowadays, I use Audacity on the computer and wreck other ppls
   songs by over-distorting them. Makes me smile for some sadistic
   reason when I do.