I wanted to be authentic to my tradition, which was
   Christianity, and the deepest I could find was Orthodoxy. Ended
   up teaching myself a bit of Russian and Greek along the way. I
   suppose I was (and am) "feeling my way" to authenticity - and
   still even now. Yet to find a tradition to embrace. Even
   agnostic is but a stepping stone but it's a place I can rest for
   a while. "I don't know", I discovered, is the ultimate, most
   stable resting spot for anything I've come across. It's
   personal, not Universal, acknowledges all the unknowns in the
   Universe which are greater than the knowns, so I get the freedom
   to explore without rejection. Can't say it's for everybody but
   so far, ,it works well for me. I think it was always my
   position; certainty for me is fleeting moment to moment and
   mostly for the sake of others. == Never saw the Osho Tarot Card
   deck or heard of it - just 7-8 books I greedily bought in
   1999/2000, although in my mind, it was as a teenager and not in
   my late 20s. I was kinda shocked that I hadn't always carried
   his ideas with me - they resonate really well overall. ==