I'm a cliche of myself... most of the time. LB I really like
   this. Can you elaborate? Well, it was the first thing to come to
   mind. What you see isn't fully me. The me I show to myself,
   isn't really me. Yet, it's "based on" me. Even though I think,
   have emotions and respond, a good portion of it all is very
   nearly automatic. I can sit here and produce sentence after
   sentence, unraveling the nugget of whatever thought prompted it
   until my fingers get tired. But... am I revealing me? Well, yes
   I am. But it's a cliche of myself. The deeper me that isn't a
   cliche and feeds all of the cliches is barely approachable. It
   can't come out at once in its raw form. I don't know what it
   would be like, who I would be like, what everything it would
   encompass. The deeper me would be unmanageable because there's
   no "controller" present at that point. Can't have that. At the
   same time, I can work to make the cliche of me be as authentic
   as possible. I can mimic and imitate the real me better and
   better with practice and reaching deeply within. But all at
   once? I don't think that can be.   === ^ role playing ^ yup. So
   much time spent on that. I try to minimize the roles I don't
   like and maximize the ones I don't mind. My favorite is "deep
   thoughts dude". I like being that guy. Wizard is great too as I
   like blowing someone's socks off with mad fast technical skillz.
   But deep thoughts dude is easier 'cause I'm good at messing
   around with words. Clown sometimes too. I love making faces and
   stupid puns. == I hate when someone wants me to be "Dependable
   On Time Guy". I fight that one by procrastinating until they
   stop giving me that stupid part. == I think the nature of
   experience/being itself is precisely at the crossover of
   paradox. You're the paradox. I'm the paradox. Uncertainty the
   norm and certainty is the fantasy. Here's an odd thing - how I
   got this would take a long story of a self-understanding project
   I'm on, but I discovered that "be" and "experience" are antonyms
   of each other. I pondered this the other day. I still am. To Be
   and To Experience are opposites. The resolution is indeed
   strange when you try to figure out how to resolve the paradox by
   making them simultaneous: "Being Experience" "Experiencing
   Being" Even with that, one seems to take primacy over the other,
   depending how you do it. I'm still turning it over in my head
   when I get a moment or two during the day. ==