Be brave, Beau. You can do this. It's the right thing. It's the hard thing. Nothing will shelter you from all of the feelings that you are feeling right now. You have to go through this journey down into the netherlands and back up again. It's a process. You're already going through the first steps of the process now. Deciding whether to sit back and watch or take action and watch - either way the feelings you experience will be painful. You cannot allievate your own suffering whatever choice you make, but you can allieviate his suffering. "