it just means for a BRIEF moment you considered it and then
   quickly rejected it, probably less than 1/4 second later.

   The fact that it even crossed your mind as the REMOTEST
   possibility would be my "foot in the door". That's why I don't
   do it. I know too much unfortunately and its manipulative.

   There's a lot of ways you can get life-fulfillment without
   requiring a partner. But I think one thing that's hard to live
   without is not having someone else UNDERSTAND you... at least a
   part of you.

   If you can feel that someone else 'gets you'.. and is willing to
   put up with your crap - it's worth the world. It's ok; being
   lonely sucks. I get around it by amassing thousands of friends
   online. Real life is meh mostly - I own a house full of women,
   mother, inlaws, brother, nephew, nieces... and it's insanity. 12
   people in one house.

   So, I do the "cave thing" in a way and sit on the back screen
   porch and do what I'm doing right now: Make friends online, talk
   to them, get someone to "see with my eyes for a moment.

   For me, it's lots of little bits of fulfillment that I doubt I
   could get from a single person. Maybe I could. But I'm also
   weird. I'd never want to be a role model. Babies who aren't held
   after they're born, eventually die. So it seems that humans
   require a form of social contact to even be alive.

   If they don't have social contact, they talk to themselves - a
   society of one based on the people they knew from the past or
   imagine.

   So yeah, a bond is critical for life. We're doing it now; why
   else are we on facebook having this discussion? I guess when you
   have a single partner-for-life, it's a richer bond I suppose
   than just a few words tossed back and forth.

   I just didn't like the intensity of it. The whole "swept off my
   feet" thing was a bit much and I lost my head a few times and
   afterwards, sat there shaking my head saying, "WHAT HAPPENED!?"