Sometimes I think about life. And I start thinking
about my mortality and the possibility of endind
all alone. 

In a few years I will be 50 years old. I never   
married. I have no children. My parents are getting
old. My sister lives in another town, far from here.

Sitting on my couch sometimes I feel I should get
someone in my life. Like Cat Stevens - later Yusuf
Islam - used to sing "find a girl, settle down, if
you want you can marry". But I was never good at
dating and never found someone I felt like spending
the rest of my life with.                  

I rarely meet with my friends nowadays because my  
voluntary solitude (yes, I need my space and my 
alone time) is getting deeper. I'm not depressed
or sad. I was always like this. I guess it's just my
nature.

Finally, two days off. Tomorrow I will get on my 
Vespa and might travel to Aljustrel. A mining town
around 75Km from my city. I once played there with
a music ensemble, where each musician played a part
of their own style, all in an improvised manner.
Some played Rock. Some played folk. My part was harsh
noise.

I felt something in that town I can't explain. Like I
belonged there somehow, but I had never been there
before. Now I feel like visiting it again.

I will have to go well prepared because the weather is
still hot and when you start to get into the middle of
Alentejo, temperatures start to rise a whole lot.

Living by the sea sometimes has its perks.