26 May 2026
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I started something, sort of, data fasting again. My dabbling into
LLMs, using the modern web more and more and losing myself - again
- in completely worthless social media battles with people i don't
know, will never know and don't care about is getting out of hand...
again. I know that i was at this point easily a dozen times and i
know it has to stop. I don't know why i always slip into this toxic
dommscrolling / fighting behavior but it is frustrating to find
myself always returning to this habit as soon as i let myself use
more modern tech too much.

Well, now as my project at work is largely finished and my tasks
are now mostly training my coworkers, writing manuals and so on i
set myself the goal to do most of that stuff on my salvaged single
core laptop using traditional Unix tools and absent from touching
a modern browser besides of the absolutely necessary minimum to
complete the tasks. At home things are more easy... there is no
modern computer (besides the one from my wife which i dare not to
touch).

I think i need at least a month again to get rid of that craving...

Well, to talk a bit more about positive things: We are seemingly
not saturated with beach exposures, so we did a short trip to the
Twiste lake nearby at Sunday. At first junior didn't want to go
and was somewhat in a bad mood, as we arrived i sat with him in
the shades and asked him if everything is ok and he answered,
shaking his head, "No". I asked if he wanted to go to the playground
nearby..  "no". I asked if he wanted to go home..."no". After a
few seconds i asked him what he wanted and, out of the blue there
it was: "Pommes!!" (french fries) and frantically pointing towards
a kiosk nearby. After that little meal his mood switched to the
complete opposite, the whole afternoon he ran around, splashed into
the water and even made some semi successful attempts to swim. We
all really had fun and it was a afternoon to remember.

Lesson learned from this trip: Sometimes little things can lead to
big positive changes.