METH GATOR SWAMP BOWL VIRUS BLUES **** A Rusty Pandemic remix of Bob Kaufman's "heavy water blues" & Wanda Coleman's "heavy daughter blues" **** For Amy, who created the title **** instagram is teaching my memories anesthesiology. i am in love with an unfuckable left swipe. my neighbors refuse to wear their faces & i speak bullshit. my isp is threatening to cut off my libido. the amazon subcontractors leave dogshit on my stoop. i smashed my mirror so i could hide, too tired, too fucked, too medicated for tears. i went to the kombucha bar disguised as a bearded hipster. i did not recognize myself. i dream i dream...eh maybe i'll just masturbate. put the bitcoin in the goodwill pile. trump's taken the white house, the stormtroopers shine their boots. i always misunderstand other people's afflications so i troll them. then we clash. when reading all those thick tomes on god it should be noted that heaven is a credit agency. the voice of the millennium is a muffled scream, a dead migrant whose silence fills every space like chlorine gas. now that machines finally have taken over can i retire? or will they strip me for parts? i have a one-way ticket to mars, promised to me by elon musk. i need to escape love. after riding the interstate in my toyota yaris i bought plastic knick-knacks at south of the border, blenheim's ginger ale on my breath. instagram is serving my memories absinthe. i am in love with a terrorist who's afraid of plastic explosives. the constant preoccupation of the addicted is checking their phone notifications. i meme the symbols. i burn thought. myth/my wife & me munch on ruffles all dressed chips as we stream the apocalypse