07-10-2026
So much has changed.  Since last August, my wife has been asking me to leave.
Truthfully, I don't really understand.  She'd go from being the best ever,
holding hands, being kind, to being just the worst, most horrible person.  But,
I just don't feel like thinking about it.  Finally, April 14th, I said - fine,
I'll go.  It took some time to find a place, but by mid May, I had a one year
lease.  I signed a lease because I don't see any chance of reconciliation.  I
had really tried to "be" what she wanted, losing myself, but she not only made
no efforts, she actively made it clear that she wasn't making efforts, nor was
ever going to.  It's a certain arrogance that comes from her French culture, her
millenial age, and hormonal issues.  I think the pandemic, and all the woke
stuff around that time, coupled with these things, the stress of being a mom,
big promotions at work, taking ozempic and becoming "hot" just completely
changed her from the sweet, cute girl I married, into well...a bitch.  And yeah,
at times I just couldn't take it and I'd explode myself.

I experienced fear, sadness, anger, frustration, peace, sadness again,
happiness, and I feel I will never really reconcile or understand, but I know it
was just bad for me and I am glad that I left.  I supposed I am scared that she
would really try to change, and I'd be tempted to return.  I don't see her doing
it though.  She has never uttered the words, "I'm sorry".  And she has never
showed an ability to reflect and show any possibility that she could ever make
any kind of mistake.  I know it is false of her, but it shows how large her ego
is and that is very difficult for many people to ever overcome.