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Stardate: 20240906.1450
Location: Central Library
Input Device: Steam Deck with folding BT keyboard + FMD
Audio: aNONradio - The Third Ear w/ tyn
Visual: FMD + CRT + nano + transparent background of libraryspace
Energy: 70%
Mental: 80%
Emotional: A'ight, cooling down.
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Man, it's still friggin' hawt outside. It's 114F right now so I ha
to take refuge over at the library. Hope I don't get sick from goi
in and out of A/C and being around the unhoused, who also take
refuge up in har.
Both child processes are away ingesting some higher education away
from home. I am now an "empty nester." I do miss them, but so far
it is ok. Unfortunately, my SO is having a harder time, so my job
now is to be m0ar supportive and available. I'm still not so used
doing those kinds of things since I have my loner tendencies and ju
take care of myself most of the time, but having a family and
dependents have given me much practice in not being so caught up in
self.
Lately, I have found myself watching Fear the Walking Dead and
playing 7 Days To Die (a zombie survival craft game) during my
downtime. It seems to be what I've been gravitating to for some ki
of strange comfort...that whole survival theme. Before that, it wa
other video games and media, Rust, The Forest, Green Hell,
Walking Dead (the show and visual novel), etc....and these were
usually consumed during hard times. Maybe I go there when my
analogue, meatspace life is going through
transistions/challenges...and the media helps me process and cope.
Whatever it is, I am made aware of that pattern right now. There
doesn't seem to be anything I need to do with that knowledge at the
moment.
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