Seasons  of  Change

                                                 by  Joel  Lawrence

1.  Chapter



The train began slowing as it neared Westbury station.  Michael know
this was the name of the station because the conductor had passed
through the car and announced it, and around him other passengers were
heeding the suggestion that they check to ensure they had all their
belongings.  Michael gathered his books and the remnants of the snacks
he had bought on the train and watched out the window and the train
came closer to the station.

The scene had changed slightly from that which he had observed the last
two hours.  Rural surroundings had given way to the rundown environs of
this old New England manufacturing village.  He knew from experience
that just outside the town grand mansions and historic farms still
abounded.

Listening to the clack-clack of the rails wind down, he mused about the
purpose of this trip.  He had left St.  Andrews just this morning,
complying with his Mother's decision that he should spend this summer
with her old school chum (his "Aunt Jane") when she left on her tour of
Europe with Clifford Graves, her latest companion.  He presumed that
this decision was, in no small part, due to the straits he had gotten
himself into the last semester at St.  Andrew's.

It was clear that he was on very thin ice with the headmaster at St.
A's.  There had been the minor pranks, of course, but his involvement
in the panty raid at Eastmore, and, the worse, being caught at it.
During the extremely uncomfortable conference with the deans on
Tuesday, he and his Mother had been advised of the suspension.  He
would be carried on the rolls of the school throughout the summer and
Fall semesters, but would not be allowed to return until after the
Christmas holiday, and then only if the school received some
verification that satisfied them that his demeanor had changed.

His keen obsession his graduation from this highly regarded prep school
had, in no small part, motivated his Mother's decision to send him to
Westbury.  Aunt Jane, she had said, was a certified teacher, which
would satisfy state and school requirements that he be enrolled in
school.  Private tutoring, she had said to the headmaster.  To Michael
she had declared another motivation which he did not fully understand:
that Aunt Jane was imminently equipped to convey refinement and
discipline, a trait Mother had emphatically pointed out that he lacked.
She had made vague references to "English methods", an allusion which
escaped him, but which she said with a wry certainty that it was just
what he needed.

He wanted to get back into St.  Andrew's and this avenue seemed the
only one open to him.  But it was all of this uncertainty that weighed
on his mind as the train neared the station.  He knew nothing of "Aunt
Jane", except a vague remembrance that he had met her at the estate in
Connecticut one summer.  He was to spend at least the summer with her,
and, his Mother had said, dependent on Aunt Jane's sole judgement,
might have to stay on until Christmas.  The uncertainty of time, couple
with his ignorance of the allusions his Mother had made about the
particular "skills" this woman allegedly possessed, caused him some
apprehension.  More importantly, two other facts added anxiety; first
of all, his Mother had been emphatic he was to submit totally to Aunt
Jane's authority, and secondly that except for the small change he had
left in his pocket, all his discretionary money had been placed in this
other woman's control.  Once he disembarked from the train, his options
for self-determination would be minimal.

The train finally creaked to a stop, and he clasped his bag and headed
for the entrance.  The black porter had placed the portable footfall at
the base of the stairs, and he stepped down to the station platform.

He was recognized before he noticed the woman.  She called his name and
he looked up to see a vaguely familiar face.  She was an attractive
woman, in her early thirties, dressed fashionably and with an air of
superiority.  Indeed, his first impression was that she purposely hid a
softness about herself in the somewhat severe manner in which she wore
her auburn hair....drawn back in a French roll.  It was apparent that
she shopped at only the finest stores, and he was sure he had seen her
ensemble in one of his Mother's Bergdorf's catalogues just a month ago.

He was equally fascinated by the young girl he saw at her side, clearly
her companion, for she followed Jane as she advanced toward him.  The
girl was about his own 14 years of age, yet strangely dressed in a
style that seemed old-fashioned and oddly pubescent.  She was a
disarmingly pretty girl with long hair drawn back into a cascading
pony-tail which was capped by a straw boater bonnet with a blue bow.
She wore a patent shoes and a dress which was flounced out by
petticoats evident to a degree at the hem.  Her dress was a fancy one,
the kind that girls wear only to formal or festive affairs.  Her
comportment intrigued him most, for she seemed reserved and shy, and
clearly somewhat obsequious to the bidding of Jane.  He was introduced
to her and found her name was Beth.  She seemed ill at ease, starting
first to curtsy to him, then gingerly proffering her white gloved hand
to his own.

The greetings were stilted, though Jane was cloying yet authoritative
in her reception.  With an air of superiority, she pressed a red cap
into conveying his baggage and they set off through the terminal to the
expensive car she had imperiously parked in the "No Parking" zone at
the curb.  His bags loaded, he climbed into the back seat of the car
and his gaze alternated between the two females in the front seat and
the countryside they emerged into.  Jane's comments were few, though
she made reference to his trouble at St.  A's and the apparent
conversations she had had with his Mother about "finding some
'temperance' (as she put it) in one's behavior.  Jane concluded that,
with time, all problems could be solved.  He lapsed into silence and
the car moved down a smaller road into farm country.

In time, they arrived at Jane's home, a large white Victorian house
situate on many acres.  She parked the car near the door and bade him
gather his bags and follow her.  The girl was no help, though she did
hold the doors and steadied him as he struggled up the few stairs to
the porch and into the foyer.

Jane suggested (or was it more "directed") that Beth escort Michael
upstairs to his room to stow his overnight bag (his trunk was to
follow) and then for the two of them to return downstairs to the study.
Beth obediently complied, pausing at the foot of the stairs to await
him.  At the head of the stairs, she opened a white door and he
entered, passing the girl and not noticing the room itself.  It was
only after he was inside that the incongruency of the room hit him.

The room was all pastel blue, but that was not its alarming feature.
The four-poster bed was canopied, with a delicate flounce of sheer
tiered fabric.  Ruffles of eyelet and lace flounce cascaded from
beneath the mattress, the bed itself covered by a bedspread of matching
satin.  Dainty shams of a wispy material sheathed the profusion of
pillows at the headboard.  The furniture was white and gold French
provincial, chest of drawers and nightstands.  A petite vanity draped
with the same material sat beneath a large lighted mirror.  Another
three-sided mirror, like those in clothing stores, was implanted into
the wall.

He was sure that Beth had directed him to the wrong chamber, but when
he queried her about this, she diffidently assured him that there was
no mistake.  Appalled to be quartered in these dainty surrounding, he
nevertheless deposited his small bag and followed Beth downstairs to
where Jane waited.



2.  Chapter



Beth left Michael at the parlor door and he opened it and entered to
find Jane seated in an overstuffed chair leafing through what appeared
to be a sheaf of letters.  At his entrance, she peered at him over the
half-moons of her reading glasses.

"It is considered polite and refined, young man, to knock before
entering a closed room."

"I...I'm sorry.  I thought you had asked me to ..."

His words trailed off in response to the gesture of dismissal in the
wave of her hand.  "Never mind, we'll get to that later," she said,
"Sit down," signalling the straight-backed Shaker chair near her own.
He sat, chastened by the sharpness of her admonishment.

She continued to flip through the papers, pausing to read here and
there, flipping backwards and forwards as though to confirm or
recollect some point.  The room was silent, except for the rhythmic
sound of the clock pendulum and the rustling of the papers.

Finally she laid the papers in her lap and removed her glasses,
massaging the bridge of her nose with thumb and forefinger.  The sigh
that accompanied this action conveyed a sense of exasperation, he
thought, and he gelt unnerved at the continued stillness in the room.
While she still kneaded with her fingers, she broke the hush that
pervaded the parlor.

"I have been reading through the material your Mother sent me.  It is
clear that you have been less than exemplary in your first semester at
St.  Andrews, "she said, slipping the glasses back on and picking up
the papers.

"Dean Hartwick's letter to your Mother is quite specific and equally
condemnatory in detailing the circumstances of your suspension.  He
lists, by my count, some eight infractions in just three months."
Removing the glasses again, she gazed at him scornfully.

"Are you hell-bent in being thrown out of there?", she queried
reproachfully.

"Not at all, Jane.  In fact I want very much to graduate.  I can
explain..."

She interrupted this unavailing attempt at explanation as though it
were inconsequential to her.

"Well your deportment places the likelihood of your graduating
seriously in doubt, young man.  It says here that absent some
documentation of a substantial change in attitude, your access to an
Ivy school by way of St.  A's is improbable.  I know Dean Hartwick,
partly by reputation, and he is not one to overstate matters.  Perhaps
you'd do as well to consider a public high school and a state
university."

"Of course not," he protested, "I want to get back into St.  A's.  I
acted foolishly, but I..."

"Ahh, some progress;" she broke in, "accepting even token
responsibility is to be applauded.  But these acts of yours are
juvenile, Michael, and they convey a serious lack of self-discipline
and obedience to established rules.  Surely you can appreciate a school
as old and traditional as St.  Andrew's demands and enforces rules for
a purpose." She paused, examining the letters again.  "Look at
these...'absent from dormitory at 3:00 a.m.  and later detained by
township police'...'open participation in and encouragement of a
rebellious demonstration in the dining room'...." She peered over her
glasses at him again before she added " 'a "food fight!"'
...participation in an extended course of deliberate harassment of one
of the oldest and most distinguished members of this faculty....'  My
God, it goes on and on.

Doffing the glasses again and using them now as an accusatory pointer
directed at him she added "It is in no small measure that your late
father's generosity to his alma mater prompts their equally generous
offer of a second chance.  But I can assure you that the demands laid
down for achieving that second chance are not permissive in the least."

His ears burned perceptibly as he sat mutely through the litany and
then the commentary on his behavior.  Finding it difficult to persist
in returning her stare, he averted his eyes in chagrin as she went on.

"Tell me please, what prompted these childish acts?  Rebelliousness?
Pubescent childishness?  Were you attempting some feeble defiance of
the authority and the rules through some misguided act of independence?
Tell me, Michael, what prompted this asinine behavior?'

"They weren't my idea, Jane." I just went along with..."

Again she cut him off, haughtily and abruptly this time.  "Just went
along.  Good God, young man, it's indecent.  Those men at that school
are charged with imparting discipline to you young fools every bit as
much as they are to teaching you Latin.  I trust your Latin skills are
superior to your proficiency at self-control."

The comment was gratuitous and demeaning, and he gazed again at the
floor as she continued her harangue.  She stood above him now, having
moved from the chair to be a nearly overbearing presence before him.

"Self control is everything in a young man who aspires to success--true
success in this world.  Most young men your age seem to realize this in
spite of themselves.  You must develop a deep and profound respect for
the rules of the institution in which you find yourself.  Initiative is
one thing, but the performance outlined in those letters is moronic and
bizarre.  Open and willful neglect of convention and tradition will
never be tolerated in the circles you aspire to.  Do you understand
that?"

She glowered down at him and his return of her gaze was fleeting as he
meekly nodded assent.  She stood silently a moment and then returned to
her chair and settled herself gracefully yet seeming somehow
domineering at the same time.  Again she perused the documents.
Finally she laid them down, removed her glasses and spoke deliberately
and obdurately.

"I must take it then that your excuse for this insolent behavior is to
be excused because you yielded to the "macho" pressures of your crowd,
some of whom have been expelled.  Clearly you have let your distorted
sense of ego and identity get in the way of your common sense."

The lecture was beginning to wear him down.  Twice now he had resisted
the urge to rebut her insinuations, but he was restrained again by his
Mother's insistence that he accede to Jane's direction and possible
reproach.

"I suspect," she went on, interpreting his silence as agreement, "that
must be the case.  And if it is true, it is a trait you must disabuse
yourself of.  Blindly following the rabble out of a misguided sense of
male bonding is ridiculous.  More importantly, it is a repudiation of
convention that people of breeding hold important.  It is not any
individual action, but the pattern of them that makes me believe you
lack significant sensibilities." She referred again to the top sheet of
the Dean's letter and quoted " 'exhibits an insolent disregard of
refined behavior....'  Would you not agree with that assessment?"

I don't know," he relied feebly.

"You don't know!" she scoffed in return.  "Well I do, and my experience
with boys just like you compels ME to agree with the observation.  Now
if you are so intent on graduating from that school, what solution do
you propose for a modification of your attitude and conduct?"

He deemed the question rhetorical and knew his only answer would be
another lame "I don't know", so he simply shook his head.

"I ask that question," she continued "because I am something of an
unwitting player in your betterment.  Your Mother is an old friend, and
Dean Hartwick's concurrence in you're being sent here indicates he
places some importance on my reassurance to him in the Fall that you
have become civilized enough to return to classes."

There it was, he thought:  the commission for this woman to manage his
existence these next few months stemmed not only from the decision of
his Mother, but was further endorsed by the Dean.  He felt a sense of
dread, a feeling in no small part derived by his belief that all this
was leading up to something ominous.

"You see, young man, I have had experience with instilling gentility
and refinement in difficult children of both sexes.  I was, for many
years, a headmistress -- coincidentally at Eastmore, the very school
where you engaged in your midnight foray through the girls'
under-clothing.  I have had some small measure of success at
cultivating grace and polish.  And after meeting you, I believe I am
prepared to undertake this task, as a favor to your Mother."

Silence again, leaving him to his thoughts.  Her last words drew him
forbiddingly further from a retreat from whatever penitential blueprint
her mind was now devising.

"Let me put it this way," she said, as if a declaration of finality was
beginning to form in her mind.  "It is beyond dispute that you will not
be readmitted next year without my commendation, and I am not planning
to dispense that approval unless I see improvement.  Secondly, that
approval is not to be forthcoming unless you accede to whatever program
I devise and do it with cheerfulness and resignation.  Would you agree
with that assessment."

With absolutely no comprehension of what she had in mind, he
nevertheless surrendered to the inevitable and nodded assent.

"I'm still curious about this so-called "panty raid" at Eastmore.  So
sophomoric!  Did you find it fascinating to rifle through those
intimate garments?  I have always been curious as to just what is it
that prompts a young man to do that?"

His silence lingered and she went on.

"Probably more of 'being one of the boys', eh Michael?  Still, it does
give me an idea.  Maybe that's the key.  You know there is a practice
prevalent in England for curbing defiance.  The English call it
petticoat discipline.  Have you heard of it?"

He had not, and shook his head.  The literal implications eluded him,
and he surmised it merely meant submission to a feminine will.

She stared out the window, seemingly deep in thought, while tapping the
stem of her glasses against her cheek.

"Yes," she announced with resolve, "that will be exactly it.  Michael,
I must exact from you a firm promise that you will unhesitatingly obey
every command I give you, no matter how unpleasant or disagreeable you
may find it to be.  It will be, at least a start, to see if we can
instill some self-restraint.  If at any time I detect resistance, I
will not hesitate to wash my hands of this endeavor and advise the Dean
and your Mother accordingly.  Is that agreed?"

It was an open pit, a solicitation of a promise to comply with her
carte blanche.  Later he would reflect that it had been his ignorance
of what was to come and implicit reliance on her conventions that
induced his promise to her.  As soon as he had agreed, and re-agreed
after a further restatement of her "rules", she told him to wait
outside in the foyer and to send Beth in to her.  He rose and crossed
to the door, finding Beth seated on the Parson's bench outside the
parlor.  After relaying the message, he, too, sat down and waited.



3.  Chapter



From where he sat, Michael took in the vast walnut panelled foyer and
the living room and dining room adjacent.  He could barely glimpse the
half open door to the huge, paneled library.  He looked around,
admiring the size and quality of the place.  The house, Michael
surmised, was really quite large.  It was also very old.  By standing
and glimpsing through the Tudor windows, he could glimpse a pool, what
appeared to be a riding stable, and a great deal of wooded property.
In the brisk New England winter, he thought, it might be possible to
practice cross country skiing in your own back yard.

Michael had been aware that Jane had worked for a time as a school
headmistress -- she had told him so -- but he also recalled that his
Mother had told him that she had worked as a business consultant before
moving to this area.  Somehow, Michael thought, she must have been a
hell of a consultant to afford to retire to such a big place.

He was lost in the myriad of his thoughts as another drama played
itself out in the adjacent parlor.

Jane looked up as Beth entered the parlor, politely curtsied and stood
waiting.

"I have given him the ultimatum, Beth, and we will start phase two now.
I realize it has been some time and you may have forgotten, but we need
time to have him think things over and set the stage for this
afternoon.  I trust you will be good enough to handle lunch for me.  It
has all been prepared."

"Yes, ma'am," Beth replied.  "Do you think he will be trouble?"

"I think not my dear.  In many ways he has more to lose than you did
when you came just six months ago." Turning a fond gaze at her ward,
Jane continued, "You can be assured that by supper-time our
intransigent young man will be accutely uncomfortable in his new
metier.  Anyway, see that lunch is set and then join us.  You will have
ample time to arrange things while he sleeps.  Remember to use the
colored sherry glasses.  Oh, and tell Marie she can begin to set things
up upstairs while we have lunch.  He should be asleep in about an hour
and she can finish things upstairs when he is."

Beth curtsied again and left the parlor to begin setting the luncheon
table.  As she passed Michael still seated on the parson's bench, a
sense of deja vu emerged as similar events of half a year before played
themselves out.  'How would THIS young man react to what the day held
in store for him?'  The thought intrigued Beth and an inward smile
materialized with the reflection on the feelings of terror and panic
that experience brought back to mind.  Michael would soon experience
those feelings, along with the accompanying sense of defeat and
humiliation.  In a way, he was to be pitied.

In just a moment after Beth emerged, Jane came out and impassively
announced it was time for lunch.  Still brooding from his earlier
encounter with her, he followed her into the spacious dining room and
sat at the only remaining place-setting after she had seated herself.
He felt mildly gratified that his momentary lapse of manners at failing
to assist her in sitting was not commented on.  Indeed, she seemed
oblivious of his being there.  He was mildly grateful that she did not
continue with her diatribe.

The door to the kitchen opened and Beth entered with a tea trolley
laden with small sandwiches and soup.  She placed one serving before
each of them and left the room.  The meal progressed in silence.

Throughout the meal, Beth came and went.  She poured the tea, served
the cake, cleared the table.  And she did all this wordlessly, as
though she was well trained in such things.  Strange training indeed,
thought Michael, for a school girl.  His hostess seemed to read his
mind, for she smiled and pointed to Beth.  "Now this girl, she gave her
parents quite a hard time.  Still, removed from a harsh urban
environment, Beth has turned out rather well in my opinion"

Beth seemed to look a little embarrassed by the sudden attention.  "
Thank you, Ma'am,..." she began to say.  Jane softly but firmly
interrupted, "Beth, I was speaking to our guest." Michael was surprised
as he saw the young girl quickly go silent.  He mumbled something
polite about what a nice girl Beth was."Ahhh, Yes!", Jane smiled
broadly.  "She certainly is.  Now.  Oh, but the trouble she gave her
parents over the years.  Well!  That much is over with at last.  We see
new improvement every day."

Beth returned with a tray of small glasses, one blue, the other bright
ruby.  The blue one she set down by Michael.

"It is my custom to have sherry at lunch.  I welcome you to my house,
Michael, and hope your stay is beneficial," she said, raising her glass
ever so slightly.

He sipped the warming liquid, not fully accustomed to the wine.

As Michael sipped the liqueur, tired from his long overnight trip, Jane
continued to talk, mainly embellishing the earlier conversation about
proper behavior and the need for gentility and manners.  Michael noted
an occasional reference to Beth, about her earlier demeanor and the
improvement she had shown.  The conversation was somewhat personal,and
he was glad the girl was out of earshot through most of it.  It was
also lulling, and,along with the wine, causing him to stifle an
occasional yawn.  Despite his fatigue, he did not object to a second
drink, served to him by Beth.

Jane was droning on.  "Yes, in time, all problems could be solved.
It's so important for young people to curb their destructive behavior.
In earlier days -- in Victorian England -- they had stricter standards
of behavior.  Young men and young ladies then knew their place.  And
they made out very well.  Yes, in those days, society avoided a whole
cache of social problems that plague us today."

She made a half gesture towards Beth.  "A fine young lady now, our Beth
is.  Aren't you, girl?"

This time, responding to a more direct question, Beth politely
responded," Yes,thanks you, ma'am."

He could no longer stifle the yawns which welled up, and he gave in to
a broad yawn which he quickly concealed.  He was suddenly incredibly
sleepy.

"But enough of this.  Michael, you seem tired.  You should rest.  Go up
to your room and lie down."

Michael peremptorily thanked his hostess and Beth, admitting that it
had been a long day for him.  He carefully did not admit, though Jane
could easily surmise, that the potent Madeira wine was also new to him.
He did venture to say that Beth seemed a very nice girl.Jane nodded
gravely as if confiding in him, after Beth had left.  "She WAS quite a
problem to her parents.  Raucous, disobedient, destructive.  A year
removed from her previous environment was just what she needed.  As I
said, Michael, the Victorians knew how to bring up girl's."

Michael simply nodded, trying to figure out what this obviously
eccentric statement meant to him or to anything, having difficulty
focusing on very much around him.

"Yes.", she continued, " I find that, nowadays, young people need much
more supervision.  Otherwise they become coarse and unmanageable."

Michael listened, only half understanding.  "Well, I guess they do, at
that.", he suggested,almost instantly regretting his response.
Curiously, the response seemed to greatly please Jane.

"Do you, now?" she asked.  "Do you indeed!  Well, my dear, I'm sure you
and I will get along just fine!  This is very good, indeed." Michael
was happy that his she seemed so pleased, so little of his existence
having done so that day.  It boded well for his stay, he reasoned.
And, it also seemed, it might indicate a short stay as well and her
good offices, as well, both of which suited him just fine.

'This may not be such a predicament, after all,' he mused.

With that, taking up the suggestion, Michael excused himself and headed
off to bed.

He climbed the stairs in rickety stance, having twice to steady his
progress with a hand on the great maple bannister.  He reached the
room, opened the door and entered.

The sheets of his bed were turned down, a bedside light was on.
Shedding his clothes in a disorderly pile on the chair near the bed, he
removed his shorts and slipped beneath the covers.  In moments he was
deep asleep.

Michael stirred from sleep, confused at first with the unfamiliar
surroundings.  He gazed upward, and in the dim light he saw first the
gauzy haze of the bed canopy, an eerie blue in the deepening afternoon
shadows.  He did not know it was late afternoon until he had glanced at
the luminous glowing letters of the clock-radio and mentally translated
the 4:30 into time.  It took some moments for his foggy brain to
rearrange the recollections of the day, then it fell into place and he
recalled falling into the bed and quickly asleep.  He had slept for
nearly 3 hours.

He surveyed again the delicate furnishings of the room.  It was so
bloody girlish, he felt alien in these surroundings.  He made a mental
note to gently request that perhaps some chamber less dainty might be
preferable.  He hoped Jane would understand.

As he shifted his legs, he became aware of the smoothness of the
sheets, and suspected they must be satin, and found another reason to
pronounce the room unsuitable.  But the silky touch imparted an
unfamiliar yet exotic feeling.  Childishly, he persisted in the slow
motion of his body enjoying the tactile sensation the cool, slippery
fabric provided.

His eyes now accustomed to the dim light, he surveyed the room yet
again.  His first internal alarm bell sounded when he could not see the
overnight bag on the bureau where he was sure he had left it.  He
mentally retraced his first movements when he had entered the room and
convinced himself that was where he had left it.  It was not there!

Though he had been very groggy when he came up to bed, he was fairly
sure that the had either dropped his shorts alongside the bed (as was
his habit) or flung them on some nearby surface.  Yet they were not on
the floor nor on the chair or table.  He sat up in apprehension and
astonishment, and carefully scanned every object and surface in the
chamber.  They were not there!  Neither, he noted, were any of his
clothes.  In near frenzy, he leapt from the bed to search beneath it,
and in doing so, he upset the lamp on the bedside table.  It crashed
nosily as he lifted the dust ruffles and both scrutinized and felt
beneath the bed.  There was no question; all of his clothes were
missing.

He was totally perplexed.  Where could they be?  Hazy as those moments
before he fell asleep were, he KNEW that he had come into the room
fully clothed and had undressed.  His single solution to the problem
was that, while he slept, someone had removed the clothes from the bed
chamber.  The logical next question was "Why?"

He sat on the edge of the bed, puzzled and distraught, and it was then
he noticed the gown laid neatly across its foot.  He grabbed it and
spread it out before him.  It was a peach colored satin robe, quilted
with a bib-like front that was edged in small lace trim; clearly a
girl's robe.  In a state reaching panic, he stood and began negotiating
the room, in hopes his own clothes were still there.  He held the gown
in one hand, as if it remained some feeble insurance against his
nudity.  He opened drawers and closets, but his search disclosed only
womanly attire and no trace of his own things.

The sound of footfalls and the knock at the door startled him, and he
eyed the distance to the safety of the bed and its covers.  Before he
could move, however, the door opened, and he was obliged to use the
robe as a shield to feebly cover his unclad body.  It was Jane, and as
she entered, she threw the switch lever which illuminated the room with
light from the table lamps.  Her first glance was at the bed, and
seeing it empty, her eyes quickly found him attempting to secrete
himself behind one of the closet doors, the gown still in his hand.

"You needn't hide behind that door, Michael.  Put something on and come
out."

He was dumbfounded by all this.  "My clothes are gone," he said
helplessly.

"Don't be ridiculous!  I can see you holding something perfectly
acceptable to put on.  Put it n!" she replied.

"You want me to put this on?  I can't wear this.  It's a girls robe."

"Of course you can wear it.  And you have precious little alternative.
I want you to come with me this moment, and you will either go in what
you have or nothing at all.  It is of no concern to me."

Her tone was indisputably definitive, and he was again bewildered by
what was happening to him.  She stood and glared at him, waiting.
Ridiculous as it seemed to him,he drew on the robe and fumbled with the
buttons.  They were 'backward" and he found it complicated to fasten
them.  Nevertheless, he did, and emerged from behind the door
timorously feeling foolish in this ruffled get-up.

"You look quite fetching" she remarked with some disdain.  "Come with
me."

His face reddened at her demeaning comment, but he followed her brisk
pace down the upstairs hall and through the door she opened.  He
glanced furtively from side to side, hoping against hope no other
member of the household would see him in this ridiculous outfit.  He
hoped he would soon be able to persuade Jane to return his own things.

The room he entered was a study adjacent to her own bedroom, he later
learned.  She made a peremptory gesture indicating he should sit, and
he did, facing her over the desk.

"It is time we began your lessons, my dear young man.  You have had
your rest and time to think about tour conversation this morning.  I
might add I found your behavior at lunch fairly boorish, but that
merely bolstered my earlier conclusions.  I am convinced we will have
it out of you by Friday..two days hence.  That is the last day I will
trifle with your conduct.  After that, it is, as I said, out of my
hands." He chafed again at this condemnation from this imperious woman.
Guilt and remorse about the events that brought him here surfaced
again.  Along with those regrets, he felt a developing apprehension
that was, in no small way, reinforced by his feeling of vulnerability
sitting there in this ridiculous gown.

"I am going to give you a brief overview of the routine, Michael, and
you will hear me out.  That promise of compliance I exacted this
afternoon is decisive and final.  After you have heard me you will
choose either to comply or we will be done with all this and you will
go home tonight."

Here it was, he thought.  This was where he would learn where this
absurdity was all going.

"First of all, that garment you are wearing; you didn't like putting it
on, did you?  "she asked.

"Frankly, no," he spat out.  "Where are my own clothes," he replied.

"Gone for some time, I must tell you.  Tell me, though, how does it
feel wearing that gown?  It feels nice, doesn't it?"

"I feel like a fool.  This is a girl's robe!"

"How discerning," she said sarcastically, "and now you come to the crux
of it.  While you are here, and until I deem otherwise, girl's clothes
are what you WILL wear!  Perhaps you may grow to like them, perhaps you
never will.  it is of no consequence to me either way.  What
insignificant to me is that in time, I assure you that you will be as
adorable and sweet as lovely Beth."

He felt a surge of outrage mixed with panic at her words.  Was this
what she had alluded to before?  How could she possibly believe he
would wear such things.  The objections to her suggestion flooded his
mind and then, abruptly, ran headlong into the threat she had
eloquently delivered that afternoon.

"Moreover," she went on, "we are going to begin in just a few minutes.
Within an hour, you will not recognize yourself as the impertinent
moron you have been...even so recently as at lunch.  Beth is at this
moment busy preparing things.  Your indoctrination begins in just
moments, Michael."

He began to protest.  He would not be subjected to this nonsense.  He
could not be!

She cut him off.  "It was just this that you promised, young man!
Leave now if you want...dressed as you are.  I will not help you.  Call
someone..your Mother perhaps.  Dean Hartwick.  This punishment is my
choice for you and you will bow to this decision or face the
consequences."

He felt tears of rage and misery forming within him and beginning to
well in his eyes.  He did not want her to see these tears, and he
averted his face from her, feigning enraged disgust.  He felt both
outraged and helpless.  The prospect she described was repulsive and
detestable to him.  How could he possibly submit to such debasement and
the servile state she envisioned?

He wanted to run away from this place...flee before it went any
further.  But as quickly as that thought passed through his mind, he
realized its futility, the mental image of a boy in a girl's satin robe
hitch-hiking on the road outside was burlesque.

She left him undisturbed in his thoughts, letting the gravity of his
situation to sink in.  She could see and sense the discomfiture he was
experiencing and she smiled inwardly.  Thus was it all with all the
bold, brazen young men.  From experience, too, she knew that the
defiance would diminish in direct proportion to the feminization that
lay ahead.  With some degree of compassion, she walked to his side and
softly fondled his tear- stained cheek.  He stoically pulled away from
her touch, but remained silent.

"You will conform and submit, Michael.  You will come to know that it
will all be better for you that way."

She cupped his chin and turned his face up to meet her gaze.

"Come now.  Make it easy on yourself."

He closed his eyes tightly squeezing the accumulated tears to trickle
down his cheeks, then let his head fall as she released her hold.  He
felt drained and chagrined; his spirit and will incapacitated.

"Come, Michael...come with me."

He sat motionless for a moment then, with passive resignation, he
yielded to her exhortation, and followed her out of the room.

Her footsteps led him through his own bedroom and directed him through
the mirrored door which separated it from the spacious bathroom.
Clouds of steam filled the room as the bathtub was being filled.  He
glanced into the tub and saw billows of soap bubbles floating on the
rising water.  Marie, now dressed in a crisp white uniform, was
arranging towels on the vanity.  The pastel room, being prepared for
feminine pursuits, was like a dungeon, and he yearned to be out of this
place.  He felt servile and embarrassed.  He was genuinely fearful.

As he stood there, awkwardly, Marie turned off the flowing water, and
Jane's voice behind him ordered him to disrobe and enter the tub.  As
if anticipating his modesty, Marie turned around and busied herself at
the vanity.  Concealing his nakedness behind the robe, he slipped it
off and quickly sought refuge beneath the concealing blanket of lather
and sank into the warm water, burying his body to his neck.

Jane stood over him.

"I need not tell you how to scrub yourself, I presume," she said,
tossing a cloth into the tub, "but merely to tell you to do it
thoroughly.  Impeccable cleanliness at all times is the rule of this
house."

She turned to accept the articles Marie had gathered.  Holding up a
bottle of shampoo, she again advised him to use it, three times, she
said, leaving the lather on his head for at least three minutes,
showing him the clock on the wall.  She set the bottle down on the
ceramic edge of the tub.

It was the sight of the safety razor that startled him, for he knew
instinctively that she did not intend him to use it in the traditional
male fashion.  He was correct, for she was explicit in her directions
that every single hair on his legs and under his arms was to be
eliminated and that his failure would invite the penalty that it would
be done for him.  The razor was placed beside the decanter of shampoo.
Jane spoke brusquely as she issued her initial instructions.

"You have precisely 30 minutes.  When you are finished and completely
rinsed, there are towels there on the vanity, "she said gesturing.
"YOU will also find a pair of underpants you are to put on.  If you are
chilled, put the robe back on.  But be absolutely certain you are
wearing those panties.  There is shaving cream near the sink.  Every
facial whisker is to be gone, so make it a very close shave.  Come into
the bedroom when you are done.

Then both of them left him alone in the steamy bathroom.

"Remember, 30 minutes, or we come in and do it to you ourselves." Jane
had said as she closed the door.

He lay there a moment and felt a slight chill in spite of the warm
sudsy bath.  THe bottle was labelled "Miss Clairol", a brand name that
was vaguely familiar, though he could not recall any significance about
the product except that it was shampoo.

He felt very alone and depressed.  Yet he knew that the minimal time he
had been allotted was waning.  Gingerly he picked up the pink
disposable razor and gingerly applied its blade to the skin of his left
leg.


  Nearly a third of his appropriated interval was consumed by the
shaving.  He had some difficulty reaching the thigh areas, and he had
been obliged to stand up to execute the maneuver.  While standing he
also used the reflection of his upraised arms to guide the razor
through the thatch of underarm hair, feeling the stinging rasp as he
scraped the tender skin smooth.  The activity was novel, but not
dissimilar to shaving his face, something he had to do twice weekly.
Except for the uncertainty of events to come, the bath was a neutral
experience thus far.

Likewise the washing of his hair.  He poured some of the golden liquid
into his palm and massaged it into foam on his hair, rinsing and
repeated the shampoo three times as she had told him.  He quickly
rinsed off with the shower wand and opened the tub drain as he stepped
out onto the soft pile of the bath rug.  He towelled briskly off, then
hurriedly shaved his face, his eyes occasionally straying to the
diaphanous garment that sat prominently to his left.  He managed to
finish the shave without a nick, his beard being sparse to begin with.

The briefs, though made of satiny tricot and without a fly, were not
remarkably different than his own shorts, and it was thus not much of
an onus to slip them on.  He was, however, aware of their silkiness in
his groin, a thought that took him back to that moment he had awakened
just an hour before.  Notwithstanding their lack of frills or lace, he
was accutely aware that he was wearing girl's panties.  The thought
mortified him.

Though he was not cold in the still steamy room, his sense of timidity
about being so scantily clad in front of these women prompted him to
put the objectionable robe back on.  A glance at the clock told him he
had completed his tasks with two minutes to spare.

His legs tingled from the abrasive edge of the razor, but they were
smooth and bare of any trace of hair.  He hoped these efforts passed
muster, for he knew her threat to rectify any mistakes in his labors
was not an idle one.

With one last glance in the mirror, and a check that he had
satisfactorily rinsed out the tub and hung the towels, he reached for
the doorknob with a growing sense of dread.

In his absence, the bed had been remade, the shammed pillows leaning
against the headboard and a ridiculous stuffed animal lounged against
them, facing a delicately dressed doll on the blue satin coverlet.
Marie and Jane were both there, busy at the vanity.  The room was still
bathed in the pastel light that filtered through the dainty lampshades,
but a blaze of light streamed from the ring of small bulbs that ringed
the vanity mirror, and from the recessed florescent lights above the
full length mirror.

"Sit here, Michael," Jane said.  "We are about ready."

He sat in the chair she indicated, feeling not unlike a patient
awaiting some dread medical procedure.  All around him lay signs of the
female world that was rapidly taking control of him.  Even the chair he
perched on wore a skirt!  He wished he were a thousand miles away.

He could see them opening drawers and examining the contents.  Within
those drawers he could see mounds of wispy garments.  The top drawer of
the dresser was filled with panties.  Girl's underpants.  In an
unimaginable profusion.  There were dainty yellow cotton hip-huggers;
the waistband trimmed in tiny eyelets.  Much more substantial peach
briefs with lace side vents.  Ridiculous red and white stripped string
bikinis.  A waterfall of dainty, girlish pastels flowed before him.
Michael grabbed a handful of panties.  He smiled remembering the panty
raid at school that got him in such trouble.  A ruefulness hit him
again.

Jane turned around to him and said "Stand up Michael and let me see the
panties you have on." He stood and shamefully opened the robe to expose
the panties with their silver satin ribbon trim.

Jane said to Marie, "Yes, I thought they were white.  We'll go with the
white things this time."

She gathered up an article of feathery fabric and held it up.  It
looked like a t-shirt, in a way, though with thin shiny straps.  It had
a silky look, airy and loose.  It was definitely a "non-masculine"
garment.  The thin shoulder straps were fastened to the with
embroidered bows on the front.  Also, he hadn't noticed the delicate
lace inserts on each side.
  "This is called a camisole, Michael, and it is worn when a slip is
not worn.  Please pay attention and learn this, for I don't plan to
repeat it."

She set down the camisole and picked up an item which sent chills
through him, for he knew precisely what it was before she even began to
tell him.

"And this, of course, is a brassiere...a training bra, actually, for a
young lady with so little in front needs just the least bit of
foundation.  You will wear a bra at all times while you are here.  Even
at night until I say otherwise.  If you are caught without the proper
attire at any time, you will be dealt with, and I mean it.  Panties and
bra, regardless of whatever else you have on.  Do you understand?  Now
stand up and take off that robe."

He sighed, it help ease the queasiness in his stomach.  He stood on
rubbery legs and let the robe fall to the floor.  Marie advanced on him
bearing the shimmering band of satin which was to be his tribulation
and guided his arms through the straps, moving behind him to fasten the
back.  This activity took some moments, and it was later, when he toyed
with removing it, that he discovered that the hooks locked in a way
that they could only be released with another's help.  She then slipped
the camisole over his head, directing again the placement of his arms
so she could adjust the straps, and then she pulled and adjusted the
smooth, somewhat constricting garment down to his waist.

"You may be seated again, Michael.  What I have to show you now demands
some lengthy explanation."

At first he thought that the garment she held up in front of her was a
set of curtains.  As she unfolded it, he could see it was a skirt- like
affair, with delicate circles of soft lace and eyelet arranged around a
cone of silk, cotton, nylon.  It was long, soft and flowing, with a
ruffle hem and drawstring at the waist.

"This, young man, is a petticoat.  You heard me mention petticoat
discipline this afternoon, and it is from this garment that that term
derives.  I can think of few articles of lingerie that are more girlish
and juvenile.  This little item is the symbol of your station for some
time to come, and it gives me great delight to put you into it.  In
fact, you are going to be favored with four layers of these tonight."

He was more chagrined, not only at the flimsy skirt she held out to
Marie, but at the teasing and abasing words which she had spoken.  He
followed Marie's request to step into it, and his eyes met the gleeful
twinkle in Jane's as Marie pulled the band of the petticoat up to his
waist and tied the drawstrings.  Three others followed, these pulled
over his head, making a rustling sound as they settled into tiers of
frilly circumference around his mid-leg.  The crinolines flounced
outward as the bulk of each rested on the one before it.

He was thankful he could not see himself in this ludicrous predicament,
but it was as though Jane read his mind, for she summoned him over to
the lighted mirror and forced him not only to look, but to swirl the
skirts back and forth.  She was clearly not impressed with his manner
of swishing the skirts, for she made an off- handed but exasperated
comment to Marie about how much needed to be done.

Standing there, the brightly reflection looked back tauntingly at him,
mortified and humiliated.  He looked like a goddamned girl.  He felt
lower than he had ever felt.  True, there was a strange delight in the
touch of these fabrics, and, he had to force himself to admit, an odd
sensation of titillation in wearing clothes so obviously feminine.
Were it not for the proximity of the two women standing behind him, he
might have managed a slight smile of pleasure.  But, of course, they
were there, and their's was a demeaning presence.  Nevertheless, amid
this strange mixture of impressions, the overwhelming one was
indignity.

The chair he had earlier been seated in was now moved to the vanity and
he was directed there.  At this point Jane stood to leave.

"I leave you to Marie's expert talents, Michael.  You will mind her as
if I were still here.  When she is completely finished with you, you
will come back down to my study." With that she left.

Marie occupied herself arranging items -- some familiar, others foreign
to him -- on the dressing table.  A he stared at himself in the mirror,
he was quite certain that he was not going to like what was coming
next.

Marie began with a hair dryer, directing its warm flow over his hair,
using a small brush to first dry it and then coax it into a lightly
curled fullness.  He saw this through half-closed lids, the air flow
causing his eyes to water when it touched his eyes.  When he did clear
his eyes, and the warm air dried his hair, he was startled to see that
his hair was a lighter blond than it had been.  He could not readily
account for this, then concluded that it must have had something to do
with the shampoo.  And indeed it had, for just that afternoon Jane had
selected the proper shade of tint she wanted.  The color was now a more
golden color, not loud or garish, but a soft amber shade with gold
highlights.

Marie busied herself now behind him, at the back of his head.  He could
see that she was taken hair pins and placing them there.  What she was
in fact doing, was making a knot of hair in preparation of the next
step.  When she had done, she moved into the bathroom and returned with
what appeared to be a fleece, of a color remarkably...not exactly like
his own.  He would later learn that it was called a fall, and it had
been washed with the same shampoo that his own had been, and Marie had
curled and styled it while he had slept.

She inserted the comb of the fall into the knot she had fashioned at
the back of his scalp, bring a tear to his eye as it pulled his hair.
Some more pins anchored the artificial tresses to his own hair.  She
then returned to his own hair, and with a hot iron, drew ringlets of it
into soft curls.

When she was satisfied with the curls, both real and artificial, she
produced a large blue satin ribbon and, wrapping it around the juncture
of the fall and his own hair, tied it in a bow.

The image that reflected back to him was a peculiar mixture of familiar
and obscure.  He knew it to be him, the features were his own.  But the
cascade of curls which brushed against his bare shoulders, locks (for
they had to be so labelled, now), different in color from what they had
been that morning...all these cast an alien representation of his true
self.  Not having lost a bit of the chagrin he felt at his plight, he
was fascinated with what he saw, as though he were looking at a distaff
twin of himself.

His reverie was interrupted by Marie's voice, and he again assumed a
hang-dog look and manner befitting his feeling of distress.  She was
holding up a skirt (of tafetta, he was later to learn).  it was navy
blue, and though it had a sheen like satin, this luster was more muted.
Marie slipped this carefully over his head and her handiwork and
lowered it to settle atop the bollowing petticoats.  The skirt
fastened, Marie reached into the closet and brought forth a lighter
blue, pastel blue garment.  This one did have the luminous gloss of
satin, and as it was put on him, it fell loosely over the top of the
skirt, The cuffs were elastic, so that after Marie had adjusted the
sleeves, they blooused out at the wrist.  Michael had seen that the
collar which dropped down the back was piped with a contrasting color,
nautical style.  He stood immobile as Marie adjusted the middy blouse
and affixed at the neck a ribbon which matched the one in his hair.

The next item was one he could, and, indeed was directed to do himself.
He put on the long white stockings she gave him and pulled them to
their height to his knees.  Unfortunately, this deed was not done to
her satisfaction, and as she made him stand, he could watch in the
mirror as she folded down the tops of the stockings and let the lace
trim form a cuff just below his knees.

The shoes followed next.  By this point, Michael was resigned to foloow
the taciturn woman's insturctions blindly.  He slipped his feet into
the patent leather pumps and let her fasten the straps and buckles.

He was dressed.  he preseumed this was all of it and he could depart to
show tasha what she had wrought.  He was wrong.

Marie had him sit once more at the vanity and she brought forth a tray
of small jars.  Here again was an operation that filled him with
foreboding.  She was going to make him up.  he had been made up before,
for the stage in school plays.  But somehow, this occurrence imported
more than just dramatic requisites.  Nearly more than anything he had
experienced thus far, the prospect that she was about to paint his face
made him queasy.

She began with a thin brown pencil telling him to keep his eyelids as
still as possible as she traced a fine line beneath and just above each
eye.  Next, she took a small spong-like brush and brushed it over a
cake of light blue and trasferred the color to his closed eyelids in
long, delicate strokes.  Again he was bade to curb his fluttering
eyelids as she withdrew a bristled wand from a tube and daubed sienna
particles of mascara on his lashes, stroking synthetic length and body
into them.

When he looked in the mirror again, he was astonished at how the
cosmetics had softened his eyes and added to the feminine countenance
that stared back.

Marie dabbed spots of carmine rouge on his cheeks and then roughly
stroked them until they blended into a faint pinkish blush on his
cheeks.

The final significant moment of that queasy, menacing feeling he had
felt to a greater or lesser degree this last hour and half, came when
he saw the tube of lipstick being uncapped and the ruby shank rise from
it as she turned the base.  Long after this night, whenever he either
had lipstick applied to him or had to apply it to himself, he would
reflect on this moment.  It was as though it symbolized the finality of
the transition and the submission.

He felt a sadness as he mimicked the awkward contortion of the lips she
demonstrated, and the color was spread over his lips.

Now she sent him to Jane.  He glimpsed himself briefly in the mirror as
he left the room and felt like he inhabited another body.


  Michael closed the door to the bedroom as he entered the hallway.
Although he didn't realize it at the time, he was also closing the door
on his past life.  A new lifestyle, carefully crafted and controlled by
women, was opening for him.  In his present helpless condition, he was
unable to resist.  Gradually, events he was powerless to influence,
would shape him into a new, far more pliable young person.

Standing out in the hallway for the first time was a disorienting
experience for him.  At least, in the bedroom, he was more enclosed;
shut off from the outside world.  Here in the wide, ornate upstairs
hallway, with its rosewood end tables and Persian carpets, he felt
naked.  The light was much brighter, it seemed out here.  Also, inside
bedroom, he had been forced to don this costume.  At least, much as he
hated his petticoated predicament, he had an excuse; a means to
rationalize it, this isn't my fault.  Now, standing alone in the open
hall, what could he say if anyone met him.  Here I am, a 14 year old
boy, in petticoats, skirts, and a middy blouse.  It was terrifying.
Terrifying, but also, he hesitated to admit it, a little exhilarating.

Everything felt new.  For instance, he immediately noticed the feel of
his naked legs.  This must be how girls feel all the time when they're
wearing skirts, he thought.  As he walked, he was embarrassed by an
annoying itching on his freshly shaven thighs.  He stopped, placed a
hand on the wall to steady himself, and rubbed his legs together in an
attempt to sooth his itching thighs.  It was then that he noticed the
pleasing sensation of his smooth tricot panties, the playful tickle of
the ruffle hems of his petticoats; all four of them, and the smooth
silkiness of his chemise.  It was, he had to admit, a sexy sensation.
Surely if he wasn't being coerced into wearing these clothes, it might
even be fun- for a little while.  Alone, in the privacy of his bedroom,
with no chance of anyone finding out, it could have been quite
arousing.  But Jane had not given him any choice, that much was
certain.  And he didn't even know how long he would be humiliated in
this most feminine fashion.

With that thought, he remembered Jane, waiting for him in the
downstairs study.  After his tense, strictly timed experience in the
bathroom, he know he had better be prompt, much though he hated it.  He
left the wall, half cowering behind an endtable, and walked to the
stairs.  Almost immediately the sensation of the numerous petticoats
surprised him.  It was almost impossible to walk with these frilly
girlish undergarments tickling his thighs.  But far worse was the
sound!  In the silent hall, with its expensive carpet, polished brass
fixtures and heavy furniture, the sound of his own walking surprised
him.  It was awful!  The skirts!--he felt so utterly ashamed, actually
swished as he tried to walk.  He had never expected anything so
demeaning.  He was sure everyone in the house would be able to hear
him.  How could he ever enter a room with other people present dressed
like this.  With every step, the billowing female garments pulled and
bounced and swayed.  The sound of all this material pulling over itself
made an absolutely sensuous sound.  But not with me in it, he thought.
Not with me being forced to wear these clothes.  He paused and shook
his head in dismay.

Everything that had happened so far, he suddenly realized, was
contrived to bring him more and more under female control.  And each
step was far more degrading than the previous one.  He wasn't sure how
much more he could take.  If Jane ever actually wanted him to go
outside like this, he was sure he would panic.

He stood at the top of the stairs fidgeting nervously.  He squirmed his
shoulders uncomfortable in their new restraining garment.  To him, the
bra, a symbol of utter degradation, had dozens of tight, biting elastic
straps.  He pulled his arms and shrugged his shoulders trying to
relieve the bra straps awful bite.  He felt utterly powerless.  Still,
he reasoned, at this point, all resistance was useless.  He knew, with
fearful certainty, that he had better submit to Jane's cruel demands,
and right away, or face even worse, unimaginable punishments.

With that thought, he steeled his nerves for the awful walk down the
stairs.  He felt naked as he stepped, with unaccustomed daintiness,
onto the huge open stairway.  A wave of shameful humiliation washed
over his as the multiple layers of petticoats rustled and tickled him
with each step.  Now, a new embarrassment, as he descended the stairs,
his entire skirt actually "Bounced" on the floating petticoats.  He
wanted to close his eyes.  By the time Michael reached the first floor,
his cheeks had turned a deeper shade of red than Marie had initially
painted them.

He sashayed, shamefully, towards the study.  Besides his embarrassment,
Michael began to worry what other unpleasant surprises his "aunt" Jane
might have in store for him.  He felt tears begin to well up in his
eyes as he stood before the heavy wooden door of her study.  As the
tears flowed, he knew that he would have no choice buy to accept
whatever Jane demanded of him.  He would have to change his behavior,
or endure more of this unbearable, girlish torture.  Timidly, the panty
clad boy knocked on the door.  "I'll be with you in a minute," Jane
explained after opening the door.  "Now, show me that you're going to
behave yourself, dear.  Sit quietly on that bench until I'm ready."
With that, and not a word about his girlish appearance, Jane re-entered
the study and closed the door.

Michael surveyed the long, hardwood bench opposite the doorway.  It was
unusually plain, considering all the elaborate ornate furnishings Jane
had selected for her home.  The imagery of a young school boy (or,
shudder!  schoolgirl, for that matter) waiting outside the principal's
office was not lost on him.  With an unceremonious plop, he heaped
himself, and his billowing costume, on the hard wood bench.  Michael
sat, with his ankles crossed and knees spread wide, in a most
un-girlish fashion.  He still seemed, despite his lovely long tresses,
billowing petticoats and ruby lips, to be very much a boy in a skirt.
From the careless way he had seated himself, his lovely petticoats were
all bunched up beneath him.  The hem of his pretty flared skirt had
been creased.  Thus it was, seated in this way, with his arms spread
along the backrest of the bench, that Beth found him.

"Care for a jellybean?" she asked coyly.  The poor petticoated boy was
so startled by Beth, he nearly jumped off the bench.  In an instant, he
realized his plight.  He felt so mortified, so embarrassed, so utterly
ashamed, at being caught in a skirt, by a girl, his own age.  What
would she think of him?  He turned away from Beth, sliding roughly to
the opposite end of the bench.  Michael stared at the ground, unable to
stand the prospect of her inevitable teasing.  Beth remained silent as
she approached the shivering panty clad boy.  She walked to his side of
the bench, then turned, and with a practiced ladylike gesture, smoothed
her skirt beneath her as she sat on the bench.  The result was that her
petticoats fell evenly and her skirt remained unwrinkled.

"If its any help, I think it's a nasty thing she's doing to you" Beth
said with genuine tenderness.  Michael, his trepidation and shame so
great, could only gesture weakly.  "Really, I do.", Beth added.  "Most
of the time, Jane`s not so bad.  But sometimes, she can be so mean that
I can't stand her." Michael, slightly relieved that he was not being
further humiliated, was able to relax slightly.  Beth offered a tissue
and the skirted boy wiped his tear- stained cheeks.  Gradually, he
confided in Beth that he felt so utterly humiliated.  For her part,
Beth tried to be supportive, friendly and understanding.  "Did she give
you the speech about when SHE was the Head "Monstrous" of a private
school?" Beth asked giggling.  "Well, from what I've heard," She
continued, "She got Bounced out of there.  Seems she was too nasty for
most of the faculty to stand."

Michael smiled in spite of himself.  "How long," he asked Beth eagerly,
" do you think she'll keep me like this?" He was still so embarrassed
he could hardly look directly at her.  Beth tried to reassure him.
"She's only doing it to upset you, Michael.Just don't let it get to
you.  And above all, don't give her any reason to keep doing it."
Michael shivered in his skirts.  "But what does she want," he implored.
"Look, just behave yourself, she'll soon see this is ridiculous.  I'm
sure she'll lose interest.  I bet she's just afraid of you, Michael.
That must have been some heck of a report.

In this way, Beth gradually, skillfully drew Michael out of his shell.
"I guess I was pretty wild." he finally admitted.  "There, you see",
Beth responded.  "Jane's a just afraid you'll wreck her place.  Now, if
you just play it cool for a little while, I'm sure she'll stop this
nonsense." This last suggestion finally succeeded in gain Michael's
confidence, as it was calculated to do.

Jane had learned long ago, through many similar experiences, that
constant direct force and threats were an inefficient way to break the
spirit of a rebellious boy.  Even with prolonged petticoat punishment,
the final result was always uncertain and never the complete degree of
subjugation she desired.  Which was why, in Michael's case, Jane had
decided to subjugate him, not merely with petticoat discipline, but
also with a sort of good cop/ bad cop treatment.  Jane, of course, was
the bad guy.  She, with Marie's artful assistance, directly threatened
Michael.  It was Jane who forced the poor boy into panties and
petticoats and he knew it.  But Jane also planned to use Beth as the
"good cop" in Michael's transformation; at least for the present.  It
was Jane who would force him onto each successive stage of
feminization; but it was Beth's job to make him accept it.

Beth, for her part, played her role skillfully.  She knew well, from
personal experience, what Michael was going through.  Still, she didn't
let that knowledge mollify her manipulative actions.  Beth knew well
that her only chance for freedom lay in helping Jane completely
subjugate and transform Michael.  Besides, she recalled, she would only
have to play the role of the good guy with Michael for a little while
longer.  Beth suppressed an inner smile of vengeful anticipation.

Meanwhile, Michael was anxious to have an ally, a friend, anyone to
whom he could confide in.  "What does she want me to do?" he asked Beth
anxiously.  Now was Beth's turn to expand on the treatment which Jane
had so forcefully begun.  "Just try to cooperate, for a while." Beth
explained.  Michael just snorted with indignation.  Cooperate!  after
what she's done to me!  Ohhh!  What I'd like to do to her...", he
retorted.  "Well then," Beth sighed, "if that's your attitude, you
better get used to petticoats, I think you're gonna be wearing them for
quite a while.  Yes, indeed, my dear," she added, "at least through the
summer.  Maybe longer." Michael was aghast.  Petticoats, for the next
TWO months!  HE was mortified.  He was actually scared at the prospect.
It was too degrading to think about.  "Please," he was actively
pleading with Beth now, "what do I do?  I could never stand it!  HOW
can she be so mean?"

Beth explained to him that if his behavior improved, Jane might relent.
For example, she pointed out his unladylike manner of sitting.  Under
Beth's guidance, Michael uncrossed his ankles, placed his patent shoes
flat on the floor, and pressed his knees together.  He smoothed down
the lap of his billowing skirt and folded his hands in his lap.  "Much
better", Beth praised him.  "still, Jane can't like what you've done to
your outfit.  After all the trouble she went through to get you dressed
up, and there you go wrinkling everything." She then pointed out to the
petticoated boy his wrinkled clothing.  Beth had Michael stand and
helped smooth out his skirt.  "The best way to get out of trouble with
Jane," Beth explained, "is not to get into trouble in the first place.
This is one of the first things she'll check."

Michael stood before his seated companion as she continued to give him
pointers, subtle, girlish pointers, on how to behave around Jane if he
ever wanted to regain his freedom and his pants.  While Beth spoke, she
steadied Michael with her left hand while smoothing down the folds of
his skirt with her other hand.  Repeatedly she ran her hand,
delicately, gently, down the skirted boy's rear.  Stroking the back of
his skirt, ostensibly to smooth the wrinkles.  But as Michael stood
there, up straight, heels together, toes pointed out, hands folded in
front of himself, he was aware of a different effect.  The warmth of
Beth's hand on his thigh, the gentleness of her stroking, the teasing
folds and frills of his petticoats all combined to create a warm
pleasing stirring deep within his tricot panties.

"And another thing," Beth explained, "try to avoid getting your
petticoats all tangled up during the day.  It's just something that
happens as you walk around with all this lacy stuff." Michael said
nothing but to himself thought that was the one pleasant thing about
this situation.  The pleasant way the ruffle frilled petticoats worked
their way between his legs.  "Never, what ever you do, try to fix your
petti's by hand!" Beth admonished.  "That's all the excuse Jane would
need to punish you" As an alternative, Beth stood up and demonstrated a
"more acceptable" way to walk.  As Michael observed, Beth sashayed down
the hallway and back.  "We don't walk like this all the time, of
course.  But when you think Jane is watching you, or you want to
unbundle your petti's, this is the safest way to do it." Beth then told
Michael to try it.  Although he was initially reluctant, he quickly
conceded when Beth reminded him about Jane's strictness.  With self
conscious awkwardness,Michael tried to walk down the lush carpeted
hallway outside Jane's study as he had seen Beth do.  She made
suggestions and had him repeat his attempt several times, "to make sure
you can fool Jane." On his last attempt, as Michael walked with his
back to Beth, she allowed herself a smile at the sight.  Michael was
attempting to walk as Beth instructed him; swaying his hips to the left
and then the right with each step.  Also, she emphasized the importance
of taking only little mincing steps.  The result was a young boy, a
training bra, petticoats, and a skirt, promenading down the hall.  She
had to admit, he already had an acceptable mince!

He looked so funny, she had to bite her lip to avoid laughing out loud.
The time for that, she recalled, would come soon enough.  Surely Jane
would be pleased with her when she reviewed Michael's progress.  And
the tape recorder hidden under the hardwood bench would confirm Beth's
sincerity and commitment to Jane.  Surely Jane would at long last
favorably consider Beth's own desire for freedom.  But she was afraid
of hoping for too much too soon.

When Jane opened the door to her study a few moments later, she was
indeed pleased by what she saw.  Instead of the disobedient young man
she had to endure that morning, she saw the facsimile of a lovely young
lady.  True, much of that effect was due to her own, and Marie's
skillful efforts.  But the deportment of the young man in question was
also quite improved.  This certainly wasn't the way a rebellious 14
year old boy would sit.  Michael's hands were neatly folded in his lap,
he sat up straight, (showing off the minimal padding of his training
bra), his knees and heels were together and his shoes flat on the
floor.  Beth had done her job well, Jane mused.  She admitted the
petticoated prisoner.  Michael, eager to please, and avoid prolonged
humiliation, stood up and sashayed as instructed.  He lifted his rear
and swayed left and right, taking the little mincing steps he thought
would lead to his freedom.  How foolish.  How little he realized the
each step only brought him closer to complete feminized subjugation.

Jane seated herself in a leather bound wing back chair.  "Come here,
please." she ordered Michael.  The bra-clad boy stood before her,
trying to win his freedom by enhancing his subjugation.  Michael stood
with his heels together, toes pointing apart, and back straight.  He
looked up, pushed his shoulders back (trying not to cringe as the tight
elastic of his training bra pulled at his flesh).  Finally, as Beth had
suggested, he clasped his hands behind his back; palms together,
fingers pointing down.  Michael felt fearful and degraded by this
behavior.  He knew how pathetic and ridiculous he must look.  But
somehow, he hoped, this would be sufficient to assuage this domineering
woman.

Realizing exactly what her captive must be thinking, Jane made sure she
rewarded the behavior she wished to promote.  She complimented him and
expressed satisfaction with his appearance.  "But remember", she warned
sternly, "you must continue this much improved behavior through Friday,
or I shall immediately dismiss you." She spent some time reviewing her
litany of complaints against him, but she held out the promise that he
could be reformed.  This greatly encouraged Michael, who assumed this
indicated a release from his petticoat discipline.  But Jane did not
elaborate, preferring to allow Michael to deceive himself.  After a
short while, he was dismissed and sent to the dining room to await
dinner.



4.  Chapter



Michael walked into the dining room to find that the table had been
splendidly set and the smells of cooking drifted in from the kitchen.
Beth was already there, standing demurely behind her chair.  She
advised him that it was a rule of the house that neither of them was to
sit until Jane entered the room and was herself seated.  He stood
timorously behind the tall-backed chair, imitating Beth's diffident
carriage and pose.  Jane entered the room despotically, and sat and
placed her napkin in her lap.  Following Beth's every lead, Michael
seated himself and copied each movement, constantly fearful of
committing some error of manner which would incur Jane's wrath.  Dinner
passed slowly,it seemed,yet he knew when the clock sounded seven times
it had not been that long.

Conversation was succinct, most of it limited to Jane's continuing
lectures on deportment and good breeding.  Michael was grateful that
precious little reference was made to him, for he had expected some
attention to be focussed on him.  He stole an occasional conspiratorial
glance at Beth, and smiled gratefully at the girl's apparent concern at
his plight.

Supper ended and over the demitasse, Jane finally centered her
deliberations on him.

"I think we shall make an early night of this.," she said, glancing at
the grandfather clock.  "It will take a while for you to be prepared
for bed, Michael.  You have not done too badly today, after you and I
had our little talk.  I expect even better conduct tomorrow,for we have
a lot of lessons to cover."

"Now say goodnight to Beth, and go upstairs.  Marie is waiting for
you." With that the was dismissed.  He folded his napkin, and flashed a
shy smile of thankfulness in Beth's direction as he bid her goodnight.
Standing, he painstakingly walked from the room,remembering Beth's
exhortation about his bearing and posture.  As he passed through the
foyer and up the stairs, he was again cognizant of the ruffle of the
dainty petticoats and the taffeta skirt with each step.  He hoped to
himself that Beth's assurance that giving in to Jane's whims was the
surest way out of this contemptible dilemma.  He entered the forbidding
bedroom that had become so symbolic of his exploitation.

AND SO TO BED...

Marie told him to undress, and she watched sternly as he followed her
instructions to correctly hang the skirt and blouse and align the shoes
neatly alongside the others on the shoe rack.  Each petticoat was
removed, and with the camisole, neatly folded and meticulously
consigned to its appropriate place in the drawers.  Marie directed him
to the bathroom, handing him a soft powder blue nightgown of sheer
material.  He was to remove the panties, but to retain the bra and slip
this new garment on.  The ballet- length gown was adorned with lacy
trim and petite ribbon trim and its ruffled-edge flounce fell just
below his was knees.  He deposited the panties in the clothes hamper as
she had told him and returned to the bedroom to find her again busy at
the vanity.  She left the room only briefly to fill two small bowls
with water which she carried back in and set on the table.  One had a
thin froth of foam atop it, and she brusquely plopped his right hand in
it.

She sat along side him and examined his face.  Picking up a pair of
tweezers, she located some errant eyebrows and plucked them.  The yank
of the instrument extricating the tiny hairs smarted, but she was
oblivious to his complaints.  She continued the process,shaping the
brow into a more graceful arch.  In addition to the misery this
operation dealt him, he felt worry that this particular routine
imparted more of a permanence than the cosmetics or other indignities
he had suffered.

Next she extricated his wet hand, replacing his other hand in the
water.  With an array of surgical-like gadgets, she manicured each
nail.  She then took a small bottle of nail polish, and stroked a layer
of high gloss enamel on each nail, cautioning him to remain still until
the varnish had dried.

As the enamel dried on his fingers, a tingling effect as it hardened
tightening against the nails, Marie silently busied herself with
removing the wiglet from the back of his head and the hairpins that had
held it there, She brushed out the tangles, and then, with a comb, drew
out a small strand of his hair, holding it in one hand while she
dampened the strand with her other hand.  With no waste of motion, she
picked up a brush roller and began winding the hair around it, pulling
it almost painfully tight against his scalp and securing it with a pin.
She worked proficiently,repeating the process scores of times as she
covered his head with the small cylinders.

He sat mutely, watching this new indignity being imposed in another
purposeful belittlement of his virility.  When she had completed her
chore, she moistened each rod with a liquid that she dispensed from the
nozzle of an aerosol container.  She explained to him that the solution
set the curls, as she told him he would see more clearly in the
morning.  In the light from the mirror he could glance down at his
hands and see the sparkled that each fingernail gave off.

Almost as if on cue, Jane entered the room as Marie was tidying up the
table.  She examined her new protege, and smiled approvingly.

"All ready for bed, I see.  Well, I want you to get a goodnight's rest,
for we have a full agenda tomorrow." Placing her hand on his shoulder
and caressing his skin through the silkiness of the nightdress, she
went on.  "Normally, you would remove your makeup before retiring, but
I want you to be very aware that you have it on as you fall asleep
tonight.  Keep a mental image of that softly painted face you see.
That's to be you for the future.  Sweet, feminine, pretty little
Michael."

Her words and the smile mocked him, and she could see the self-
conscious blush spread over his face.  She persisted.

"In fact," she said, taking up a lipstick tube, "Let's see you how well
you have learned to put this on tonight."

Again he saw the tube rotate in her hands and a column of crimson
emerge as she handed the cylinder of paint to him.  He hesitated, how
he hated this derisive abuse that she seemed to so enjoy.  With a sense
of disgust and near self-loathing, he took the tube and felt ridiculous
again as he daubed the red stain on his lips.He accepted the tissue she
proffered and blotted the color as she instructed.

"You're making some progress," she said.  "In a while you may even
become proficient.  Indeed, we'll spend a lot of time tomorrow learning
how we make ourselves pretty."

The choice of words irked him.  Jane, apparently unsatisfied with his
appearance had opened a compact of blush and with a camel hair brush,
daubed added color over his face.

"Mind you, there will always be times when you are submitted to Marie's
governance and mine.  Part of your training it to feel the distress at
being subdued by a woman's hand, feminizing and softening that rough
exterior, making you appreciate the importance of having that coarse
masculinity of yours suppressed under the guidance of a gentlewoman.

She seemed to emphasize each of these points with another whisk of the
scarlet powder on his features.

"Such is your fate for the time being, Michael.  To be an adorable,
winsome little boy in skirts.  I shall see you in my study for coffee
and rolls at 8:30 sharp."

With that she directed him into bed, waiting at the door after Marie
had departed, Once he had settled his head on the pillow and drawn the
coverlet up over him, she smiled again and turned off the light and
closed the door.

It had just gone 8:15.

Michael awoke and was immediately conscious of the barbs of the curlers
again.  As it had been the previous afternoon, it took a second or two
to become familiar with his whereabouts.  Then the realization settled
on him and the remembrance of the preceding day began to play itself
out like a film in his mind's eye.

He glanced at the clock and was glad to see he had not overslept.  Jane
had been emphatic the night before that he was to be before her by
8:30.  He sat up in bed and picked up the detestable peignoir that
matched this gown he wore.  His feet slid into the satin slippers
beside the bed, and he stood as he drew the second gown over him.  The
reflection in the mirror of the surrogate maid that he had become
watched him as it aped his every move.

As he stood there and contemplated the "girl" in the mirror, he felt a
recurrence of a feeling he had experienced more than once the preceding
evening.  The figure that stared back at him was not he, yet was.  THIS
was an appealing lass, he thought, an opinion that made him wince at
what he was acknowledging!

Still, this odd sensation of coalescence with that figure in the mirror
tantalized him.  He was grateful he was engrossed in this inspection
and these sentiments in private, for the dread of being seen like this
still terrified him.

He had been peripherally aware of another sensation, which,as he now
focussed on it, excited him in a more customary and familiar manner.
He had woken with the usual daybreak erection,and the feathery touch of
these wispy garments against his glans caused an electrifying
stimulation there.  Indeed, every part of his skin was being stimulated
by the soft luxury of the material.  He swirled the gown in an
abbreviated pirouette, feeling self-conscious, but not caring.  In
spite of his own emotional aversion to all this, he felt both a flush
of sensual tingle and an irrational envy of girls who experienced this
pleasurable luxury all the time.

Michael entered Jane's study now filled with the more instinctive sense
of despondency and embarrassment which was engendered by his costume
and countenance.

He sat in the chair before her desk and accepted the strong coffee she
offered him.

"This morning will be devoted to some practice with clothes and makeup,
Michael," Jane announced.  "Your face is a mess!"

He had noticed the dark circles under his eyes while he was cavorting
with his mirror image in the bedroom.

"The reason we usually remove our makeup before bed.  Though I told you
otherwise last night, remember that in future."

She sipped thoughtfully at her cup.

"On the other hand, I don't like my boys and girls running around the
house without at least a little color...even in the morning.  So plain
and ordinary!  Therefore, after you wash up in the morning,a touch of
color is expected.  You will learn how."


   He was mentally recording these instructions, for she had said at
dinner he was to learn all these arts and would be punished if he
deviated from the routine of the household.

"Now, about this morning.  As you must be aware by now, this whole
process is designed both to subject you to alien and unconventional
lessons in attempt to inhibit what I have perceived to be a
recalcitrant attitude.  It is part of the English method I told you
about.  But there is more to it than that."

She paused, sipping at the cup and letting this sink in.

"My experience," she continued "(and this is the true essence of the
'English method'),she said parenthetically, "is that boys subjected to
the regimen of petticoat discipline gain an insight into the feminine
side of themselves, and of the world around them.  I personally think
that this is a valuable insight, for this world is filled with men who
are totally insensitive to feminine things and disdainful of the
elevated role of woman.  So that is another component of your
training."

"But enough of that.  Think of it as just another bonus to your
education.  We shall talk again throughout the coming days about what
it takes to be like a young girl of your age."

The colloquy was getting a little ahead of him, and he was attempting
to sort it all out.  He knew that the underlying theme forecast things
that he would not like, but he was in an inferior position to object.
She continued.

"So we come to this morning's program.  When girls are young,they spend
hours practicing with clothes and with makeup.  Now while I don't
expect you to display that same enthusiasm for the activity, it is a
skill that believe to be important to your development.  So this
morning you are going to practice getting yourself dolled up and
darling and precious."

God, he hated her choice of words.  This tribulation never seemed to
end, nor did it subside with the passage of time.  New indignities
seemed to spawn from her inventiveness.  He speculated in vain about
what she had in mind.

"Marie is now laying out your first ensemble.  She will attend to your
hair, which, I will warn you, is apt to be quite curly this first time.
She will also guide you through this first session.  She is going to
supervise your training this morning and I am going to appraise your
progress.  I think the first phase will take about an hour.  Pay close
attention to what Marie shows you, for it will be important to you
later."

She stood and refilled the coffee cups, proffering the plate of
croissants to him.  He selected one and bit into it.

"After she has done with you -- and you will be doing a good bit of it
yourself -- you will come back here for my inspection.  Looking lovely
and proper, I presume.  Is that clear."

She noted the subdued nod of his head as agreement, but would not let
that affront pass.

"Michael, when I say something or ask a question, I expect a polite and
audible 'Yes ma'am' in response Both good little boys and good little
girls are expected to display that politeness."

"Yes, ma'am" he muttered"

"A little better; we will work on that.  Now, by my reckoning,it should
take someone about half-an-hour to get dressed and made-up.  So after I
have inspected you, you will return to your room and do it all over
again.  it may be a whole change of costume, or merely a correction of
some shortcoming I discover.  But in each case, you will cleanse away
all traces of the makeup you have on and redo it from scratch.  New
colors, new cosmetics...whatever Marie decides.  Is that also clear?"
She knew the time she was allotting to the procedures was scant, but
that was part of the indoctrination.

"Yes, ma'am," he articulated this time, equally without enthusiasm.

She glanced at the clock.

"We will be having lunch at 12:30 today.  By my reckoning, that will
permit you at least four practice sessions.  Perhaps you will be
developing a little art and proficiency by the end of the morning."

She sat on the edge of the desk, directly above him, and went on, "Now,
if you are late, or if you are not properly put together each time, you
will be punished.  I believe this exercise to be a very meaningful part
of your education.  Unless I see some cooperation and progress by noon,
you may be repeating the lessons well into the night."

As he finished the bun and coffee, ruminating, no doubt on her words,
she, too, deliberated on this whole plan.  The timed drill she had
derived from her brother's reminiscences from his military days,and it
was pure harassment.  "An inspection every thirty minutes in a totally
new uniform" was a way in which drill instructors taught not only
uniform assembly but instilled discipline.  The frustration that
Michael would be augmented by the repetition of the acts she knew he
found to be abhorrent.  Friday was but one day away and she was certain
she was winning the war of wills in this struggle for compliance.

She also knew that her threat of prolonging this enterprise into the
evening was an idle threat.  Whatever level of competence had been
achieved by 11:00 or 11:30 would suffice for today.  The finesse of
feminine arts and skill would take weeks, not hours.  No, before noon
she had another devilish scheme in mind.

Whatever measure of competence Michael had achieved by 10:30 would no
longer be implemented on himself.  Her thoughts had earlier strayed to
Beth and the events of the previous evening.  After Michael had left,
Beth began whining again about having done as Jane had instructed and
snivelling about be able to leave here now.  In the brief tiff that had
ensued, Beth had exhibited a degree of surliness and insolence that
warranted some firm correction.  Moreover, she could not suspend Beth's
management while concentrating on her new protege.  She smiled inwardly
at her own shrewdness.  Beth would know that defiance meant reversion
to more childish fashions and appearance, and was probably anticipating
at least an hour of that punishment.  What Beth could not foresee was
that Jane would place Beth at the hands of Marie to effect the
transfiguration of Beth into a more infantile appearance.  The Shirley
Temple outfits, Jane decided.  Two little petticoated goldilocks at
lunch!  Beth of course would be devastated, not only by the
retrogression into those clothes, but by the shame at having it done so
that Michael would see the humiliation of it.  It was delicious!

Lunch would suffice for the punitive period, and afterwards they would
be allowed to change -- sundresses perhaps -- for Beth was to take
Michael on a tour of the grounds this afternoon.  Michael's first
outing in ruffles, with the inevitable meeting of the groundskeepers,
Hal and old Tom.  Jane enjoyed another warm inner smile which spread to
her lips as she contemplated the poor young man before her.

Michael had finished now, and Jane noted the time.  It was just going
9:00 a.m.

"Get started now, Michael, my dear.  Marie is waiting.  I'll expect you
back here at 10:00."

Michael entered the bedroom and found Marie had laid out clothing on
the now-remade bed.

"Miss Jane had me lay these things out for you.  But the other times I
am to give you just a list and you must do everything yourself.  Please
do it well, for she gets very upset.  Now come here and I will start on
your hair."

He sat on the now familiar skirted stool before the mirror and she
began extricating the pins and pulling the tight rollers from his hair.
He felt a sense of relief to be rid of their prickly barbs.  As she
pulled each rod away, the tight coils of hair sprang back to his head
and remained a taut ringlet.  When she had removed all the curling
wands, she began combing, teasing and pinning the tresses, fashioning a
petite hair style that was, in essence a wreath of golden ringlets
about his head.

He was cognizant of the time ebbing as she finished.  She showed him
the panties and satiny garter belt, showing him how it fit around his
waist (outside the panties, Miss Jane insisted).  The cami he was
conversant with from the previous day, and the half-slip was, in
essence a single shimmering petticoat.  Marie was, however, most
explicit in the manner in which he was to put on the gauzy nylon hose,
and, after he had donned the other garments, she coached his rolling
them up and letting them glide up his smooth legs.  He was sensitive to
the silky constriction with which they bound his legs and an odd
coolness they imparted.

He felt ill at ease as he stood up and Marie's hands fumbled beneath
the skirts while she demonstrated how to fasten the garters to the top
of the hose.  Marie emphasized the constant need to always inspect the
whole effect in the mirror, turning this way and that to ensure
everything was in place.

He sat at the makeup table and followed her coaching as he attempted to
duplicate her expertise with eyeliner, shadow and mascara.  He had a
little better luck with the rouge and he had already gained some
mastery of the lipstick.  The eyes did not look right, but the clock
was rapidly approaching 10:00.  He still needed to dress.

He put on the blouse he handed him, a white cotton blouse with a petite
peter pan collar.  AS with the robe the previous afternoon, again he
found the buttons to be backward, and he fumbled his way through them.
Next he slipped the plaid pleated jumper over his head, careful not to
disturb his hair, and slid his feet into the pumps on the floor.  He
had scarcely half a minute to negotiate the hallway to Jane's study.
He smoothed the skirt of the dress and knocked discretely on her
door.[Comments and critique, Jane?]

He raced back to the bedroom for the next change.  As he burst in,
already pulling the jumper over his head, again, trying not to mess the
curls, he glanced at the second list.  It required he removed the
garters and hose, and he did this in the bathroom, dropping them in a
heap on the hamper.  He spread the cold cream over his face as Marie
had told him, rubbed it in and cleansed all traces of the cosmetics
from his face.  He washed quickly with a soapy cloth, dried and
returned to the bedroom.

The second costume called for petti-pants and anklets.  Apparently he
could keep the slip and cami on, so he must find the lacy petti-pants.
He opened several drawers, amazed at the profusion of dainty things
laid out in them, then finally found the dainty sateen bloomers slipped
into them, experiencing again the thrill of the soft material on his
bare legs and against his groin.  He pulled the sox on and busied
himself again before the mirror.  He was more carefully this time
sketching the lines below and above his eyes, and he found that the
brown mascara wand had a shape which made application easier.  A paler
rouge this time, then the blush and the ubiquitous lipstick, this one a
more peach shade.  Marie offered the occasional instruction, and he
made what correction she could as she admonished him.  In the rush of
meeting the deadline, he did not have much time to reflect on the
distress of playing the sissy to Jane, though he was not unaware of the
unmanly pursuits he was being forced to engage in.

The dress took some time to find, a lacy and very ornate party dress
amid the profusion of such frocks in the spacious closet.  It had a
peach satin sash,and it took a precious four minutes to affix it
properly.  Mary Janes this time, with the further delay that their tiny
straps and buckles consumed.  He rummaged through the drawers to find
the short white gloves and raced out the door with some five minutes to
spare.  He ambled more slowly down the hall this time, again keenly
mindful of the swish that whispered from the rustling brush of ruffles
beneath the skirt and the whirring note that the rubbing nylons made
against each thigh.[More analysis/tutoring?]

He repeated this drill twice more.  The second costume was not unlike
the first.  A pinafore (he had to ask Marie for help in locating it,
the term being totally alien), hip-huggers, two petticoats this time
and he had to squirm back into the garters and gingerly draw the
delicate hose back on.  The makeup took a little less time, though he
was more meticulous about it after Jane's last tongue-lashing.  In
fact, he felt a sense of achievement as he finished the blush and
applied the lipstick in an even margin within his lip line.

It was the shoes that gave him trouble this time.  Instead of the flats
he was used to, these had a 1" heel, and his pace down the hall was
more unsteady this time.  Moreover, the pace of the changes had
dislodged some of the curls, and despite the neat appearance he thought
he presented and the more careful application of the paint, she was
less than complimentary about his efforts.  Amid the feelings of
silliness that pervaded this appearance, he felt strangely disheartened
that he had not met her expectations.

And so it was that she directed Marie herself to conduct the last
change of apparel, repair the makeup and the coiffure.  He resignedly
returned to the now-disheveled room and stripped off everything he had
on.

The last outfit was a true indignity.  The more anrogynous underpants
were replaced now by very ruffled, little girl's panties.  Three layers
of petticoats shorter than those he wore last night were draped over
these; starched, stiff crinolines which stuck out far from his legs.
The anklets returned, embroidered with small roses.  Mary Janes again,
which Marie charitably fastened.  The dress itself was another party
dress, this time a princess party frock with a short skirt that allowed
the crinolines to peek out from the fringe,and an enormous satin sashed
bow that Marie lavishly fashioned in a large bow in back.

She then painstakingly corrected the mass of curls using her combs
brushes and the curling iron.  Then she added a touch of fresh color to
his cheeks, eyes and lips.  As he stood before the full-length mirror,
watching her affix the large bow in his hair, he observed that the
outfit was obsequious not only in its femininity, but in its
childishness.  He looked like a teenager masquerading as an eight-year
old.  More importantly, he was accutely aware that he was a teenage boy
masquerading as a pretty seven-year old girl.  He almost wished he were
back in one of the more grown-up styles he had worn earlier.  With a
profound sense of chagrin, he clacked down the hallway in his patent
shoes, petticoats bobbing, and went to lunch.



5.  Chapter



When Michael entered the dining room he saw Beth wearing the same
preposterous attire as he.  Beth's was a pink princess dress with a
gauzy apron and the shoes were matching pink Mary Janes.  Like his own
dress, the hem of the skirt floated on an overabundance of stiff
petticoats.  Though the dress was as immature and childish as his own,
it did not seem that outlandish on a girl, and he was more than
thankful that he was not clad in pink.  Ludicrous as he felt, the
turquoise satin was far preferable to pink!  Beth did not speak to him,
and the downcast eyes betrayed to him a sense of shame.  He surmised
that this was some form of punishment, and he wondered what had
happened to prompt Jane to impose this indignity on Beth.  Before he
could ask, Jane swept into the room, sat down and motioned them to do
likewise.

Jane smiled to herself as she watched the two be-ribboned moppets
struggle to sit in their juvenile frills, perched on their chairs atop
billows of ruffled petticoats.

Michael sat quietly and despondently through the meal, clearly ill at
ease, while Beth was practically sullen.  Michael's discomfort was
evident by his constantly shifting positions; he was positively awkward
with the layers of satiny slips beneath the short dress and was further
troubled by the need for constant concentration on emulating the
mannerisms and demeanor that Jane had demanded and about which Beth had
coached him the night before.  Dressed as he was, though he was nearly
loathe to admit it, he almost longed for the more mature ensembles he
had worn that morning.

That sentiment was intensified by having to endure Jane's gratuitous
comments about how adorable they looked both and how sweet the dresses
were.  She lavished what he thought were totally unnecessary
compliments about everything from the flounce of the undergarments to
the curls and ribbons in their hair.

"Michael," she had said at one point, I have seen few young boys in
life that looked as pretty as you do dressed as a girl.  Those lashes
of yours...some girls would envy them; long and full.  I think I like
your hair that shade, and it's a pity it isn't quite long enough yet
for you to have your own lovely curls."

To Beth she remarked, "It's been a while since I've seen you in that
cute dress, Beth.  Pink is really your color, you know.  I think you
should wear pink more often.  And those bouncy crinolines!  Such a
lovely little doll."

It was appallingly humiliating to Michael, a teasing, taunting
degradation, and he silently endured the hour long lunch in near
silence, except for quietly acknowledging one of her "compliments".
Jane had made a remark about his peaches and cream complexion and how
wonderfully the make-up made his face soft and feminine.  When he
remained sullen, she angrily harshly scolded him for being impolite in
not thanking her for the liberal she was showering on him.)  His face
reddened as he mumbled a "thank you", but he remained taciturn for most
of the meal.

Jane guessed that Beth's brooding disposition stemmed largely from
being forced to revert to this immature state.  In fact, that was true,
but Beth's reticence was not solely due to this reprimand imposed by
the domineering grand dame opposite her at the table.  In fact, Beth
felt an odd mixture of emotions about Michael as well; pitied his
condition and knew well how he must feel being disgraced in this
manner.  Having experienced the early stages of this harassment, it was
easy to sympathize with the hapless lad.  Beth acceded to a small
degree of resentment directed at Michael as well, for it was precisely
as a result of her obedience to Jane's order to tutor Michael (on the
belief that it would hasten the end of Beth's own discipline) that she
had rebelled last night.  It was not rational to blame Michael, still
it was easier for Beth to direct a degree of anger at him than it was
to rebel against Jane.  After all, though she had not got into trouble
BECAUSE of Michael, she had been chastised over her role in his being
here.

When lunch was over, Jane lectured them both on the importance of
obedience and that punishments such as these were the automatic
consequence of defiance.  She asked them each in turn if they had
learned their lessons about obedience and respect and if they wished to
get out of these darling outfits.  Without much pause, they both
emphatically agreed.

"Fine," she said, "then you should both change into something
spring-like.  I think this would be nice day for you to show Michael
the grounds, Beth.  "Marie is upstairs waiting for you, Michael," Jane
said, "and I had her put out an outfit which is an special favorite of
mine.  Run along now and see to changing at once."

The prospect of going outdoors did not appeal to Michael at all, but if
the trip were limited to the grounds of the estate, he felt less fear
about it.  At least he would not look like Shirley Temple out there.
He followed her command to take his leave while Beth remained behind at
Jane's behest.

Michael felt a mixture of relief and anger as he left the dining room,
conscious of his gait and carriage so as to avoid further disaffection
by Jane.  As he passed through the foyer and began climbing the stairs,
he was conscious of the rustle of the skirts again and the reflection
in the mirror at the lower landing.  He paused at the mirror, glancing
around to see that no one was looking, and looked closey at his face.
Turning his head this way and that, he examined the lashes she had
praised.  With the ginger-hued mascara on them, they did seem longer
and curlier than before.  He had been teased about his eyelashes
before, in words very like those Jane had used.  Each time he heard
that insipid remark about girl's being jealous of boys with such long,
abundant lashes, he winced.

He had to admit to himself, however grudgingly, that the clothes and
other adornments did make for a pretty girl.  He ventured to himself
that any girl who wanted those lashes and that complexion could have
them and good riddance.  He had no need of those girlish attributes.

The perceptions gave rise to that strange wave of dread mixed with
delight that he had experienced more than once since yesterday:  the
enigma of being so dressed and the peculiar thrill that it gave him.
His aversion to this image of himself preempted his thoughts, and the
"pleasant" part of the feeling passed.  He focussed on just the
despondent uneasiness he felt.

Tomorrow was Friday, a deadline Jane had mentioned to him yesterday.
Perhaps he had read too much into her statement, but he hoped against
hope that the vague promise of respite from this ordeal would come
true.  He did not know how much longer he could endure this inanity.
He knew it was imprtant to go along with her to get a favorable report
to the school.  He only hoped that he could be rid of these skirts.

As he moped across the upstairs hallway and toward the doorway of the
bedroom, his anxiety increased.  Behind that closed portal lay the
pastel torture chamber he had been forced to endure for nearly
thirty-six hours.  Beyond the door, he knew, waited Marie, a woman
whose faithful execution of her mistress' directions resulted in his
continued exposure to silks and satins and colorful pigments that
transformed his features into a mockery of his real gender.

The cold lump of frustrated resignation curdled the lunch in his
stomach as he turned the knob.

Beth, too, was lost in thought as she mounted the stairs moments later.
Jane's last lecture had indicated that the transgressions of last
evening had been partly assuaged by the humiliating costume at lunch,
but that Beth's management of the afternoon's activities would
determine the final disposition.

Beth remembered first coming here six months before as Brian.  It
seemed odd to think of that name in this context.  Just days after he
came through the walnut doors dressed in trousers and a blazer last
December, Jane had rechristened the crinoline-clad youth as Beth, and
so it had been in this house since.  Soon Michael would learn he was to
stay indefinitely and he, too, would assume a new name just as swiftly
as he had been put into skirts.  Henceforth Michael would be Michelle
or somesuch.  Indeed, sad to say, Jane had bestowed on Beth the
ultimate task of choosing a name, for Jane's instructions for the tour
of the estate emphatically included the condition that their walk
include the stables, where Beth was to ensure a meeting took place with
the two hired men.  A new name for Michael's introduction was needed,
and Beth was to make the choice for the new "girl".  Beth cringed,
recalling her first meeting with them, when, as Brian, the men had been
encountered on the lower road, and Brian had turned to jelly inside,
praying that nothing would betray to them the true gender of this
skirt-clad boy who was not the "girl" they perceived him to be.  The
men had graciously greeted this new girl and the secret had been
preserved until now.  Soon it would be Michael's turn, and Beth felt a
compassionate pang of sympathy for him.

As the word "him" formed in her mind, Beth paused again.  The words
"him" and "he" as they applied to Michael would be thrust into limbo
this afternoon and hereafter.  Janes system of feminization had a
profound affect on even simple pronouns.  From now on, the choice of
"he" and "she" would depend not only on the surroundings, circumstances
or persons present, but also upon the diabolic vagaries of Jane's
disciplinary schemes.  At varying times, the application of either
masculine or feminine pronouns could be derisive to her "pupils."
Michael might be "she" sometimes, a reference that would further assail
his manhood.  On the other hand, the masculine pronoun applied to a boy
in dresses and ribbons carried with it the unmistakable connotation of
sissy, and that was a word Jane was not hesitant to apply with a
mocking vengeance.

Tonight or tomorrow, Michael would likely also receive the cruel news
that Friday was not to be a parole for him.  He would learn that he was
to embark on a journey that would challenge his very essence and be an
assault on his masculinity until Jane broke all resistance and reduced
him to the meek and submissive subject she desired.  If he were lucky,
he would learn to accommodate the life he was to lead with the boy that
he was inside, and learn also to balance his masculine and feminine
sides.  Only when Jane was satisfied that the lesson had been learned
would she be likely to release him from this dainty reformatory.

Such an adjustment was possible, Brian/Beth knew, and one to be hoped
for for Michael.  It became easier when one yielded.  It was never
fully comfortable for a normal boy to relish swishing in skirts or
engaging in the diversions that girls of his age found so exciting.  On
the other hand, if one did yield a bit of his inner masculinity, Beth
knew that there was some delight to be experienced in pretty clothes
and soft textiles, and a mischievous thrill in conveying a winsome
pretense of a real girl to the world.  This last effect, Beth knew,
grew out of an initial sense of survival:  to master techniques of
femininity to avoid discovery.  Though Brian never fully overcame his
underlying abhorrence and mortification at being made to dress as a
girl, there were times when it was like play-acting.

So she sympathized with Michael, hoping it would not be too painful for
him.  Perhaps it was last night when Beth had encountered Michael in
his first dress outside Jane's study that Beth first felt stirrings of
comradeship for this boy who was just started the journey.  Brian/Beth
recalled the strange emotion he felt during that meeting, himself a boy
teaching another boy how to maintain the bearing and carriage of a
girl.  That, of course, was the Jane's inevitable goal:  to force the
surrender of the yin to the yan, to achieve a state of perfection in
the boys she taught to look and act like girls.  That moment last night
may have been the consummation of these months of conflict that
Brian/Beth had endured.  Jane probably knew that already, Beth thought,
recalling the conversation that had just ensued.  Perhaps unwittingly,
by the careful tutoring of Michael, Beth was moving closer to
resurrection as Brian; a new Brian, to be sure, but a boy once again
nevertheless.  When Michael was ready, Brian knew that jane would allow
him to leave.

As he stood outside the pink-trimmed bedroom, Brian reflected that the
way he felt at this moment, with the prospect of release coming closer,
must be the way prisoners about to be released must feel:  a new
anxiety about returning to a world so long removed and distant.  it was
puzzling and unsettling.

Brian opened the door and went in to change.


   Within an hour, both boys were seated quietly on the love seats in
the parlor, looking radiant in their latest outfits.  Michael had come
down first, and Jane could see that Marie had once again worked her
magic.  He wore a pinafore-style dress of blue-on-white dotted swiss,
with puffed cap sleeves and just the right amount of underslip.  The
straps of the training bra were not visible on his bare shoulders, and
Jane correctly assumed Marie had substituted a strapless version, a
fact she confirmed when she saw the creases of the corselet through the
fabric of the dress.  A wise choice to provide some pubescent curves
while ensuring that Michael's lack of a bosom would not have a halter
bra slipping down inside the dress.  Marie had coiffed his hair in a
caplet of golden curls which framed the lightly painted face.  Jane was
pleased that he had entered after a polite knock on the door and had
moved across the room with painstaking steps and daintily seated
himself with the correct smoothing of his skirts.  He say upright with
feet firmly on the polished floor and with hands folded neatly in his
lap, looked fetching.

As she was complimenting him on all of this, Beth entered, in a pale
yellow sundress and matching pumps.  She had taken pains to fashion her
hair in a French roll, her neck elegant in contrast.  Jane noted with
some glee that Beth had unquestionably selected the new bras she had
put in Beth's dresser, the larger cups accentuating a more mature
girlish figure.  That this choce of attire had been volitional by the
boy who only an hour ago had appeared to be a rebellious waif in
juvenile crinolines gratified the mentor of these two, and Jane again
accepted the fact that Beth's tutelage was bearing fruit and soon Brian
would reemerge to leave the estate.  The seeds of his femininity had
been sown and nurtured, and Jane was sure that he would be a better man
for the recognition and acceptance of his feminine side.  There was
some reward from this work.

But Beth could not leave until Michael...soon to be Michelle...was
further along in his training.  Things would begin progressing more
rapidly these next few days, and Jane estimated it would be two or
three weeks an she might consider releasing Beth.  Meanwhile, she bade
the two goodbye and watched as they crossed the veranda and began a
slow amble down the path.

The two were gone for about an hour when Jane saw them returning.  Even
from the house, Jane could see that Michael was visibly upset as he
stormed toward the house, Beth struggling to keep up in the heeled
shoes she wore.  Michael burst through the door and plopped down on the
Parson's bench inside the door.  Beth appeared a moment later.  Michael
was flushed and traces of tears filled his eyes.  It was the turbulence
of bruised masculinity, Jane thought, and she suspected its cause.
Rarely did the first expedition outdoors fail to evoke indignation in a
new beginner.

"Exactly what is the problem here?" she asked.

Michael fumed with arms folded, not responding.  Beth replied that
while they were strolling near the stables, they had met Tom and Hal
and Beth had introduced Michael to them.

Michael interrupted at this point:  "She called me Michelle to those
guys.  A god-damned girl's name she used.  It's bad enough to be
embarrassed meeting two guys while I'm in these frigging skirts, but
why in hell did she call me that?"

The outburst was not unexpected, but Jane certainly could not let it go
unnoticed.  She assumed her best scornful expression and let the
silence continue as she let her sense of outrage filter across to the
angry boy.

"I WILL NOT TOLERATE THAT KIND OF LANGUAGE OR THAT ATTITUDE!", she
announced loudly.  "You will apologize both to me and to Beth at once."

"Like hell I will.  This shit has gone too far." Michael was visibly
angered and he stood up and began roughly yanking off the dress in his
haste to rid himself of the hated garment.  As a result, the buttons
broke and the bodice hung ridiculously from one shoulder, exposing the
lacy corselet.  "I'm out of here."

Jane stepped resolutely forward and stung his cheek with a resounding
slap.  The action and its pain shocked him and he stopped in
mid-sentence, giving way to his frustration and sinking onto the bench,
the tears silently flowing.  He felt lost.

"That is, I hope, the last time I will ever have to do that, young man.
I will brook neither your temper nor your foul language.  I made myself
clear to you yesterday:  that I alone will decide how to direct your
life until you develop some manners.  If you have forgotten the deal,
Michael, then feel free to leave.  I will call your Mother and Dean
Hartwick at once." She glared at him, and his impudence began to
dissipate.

"Do you understand me?" she queried.  He nodded and she repeated her
question more imperiously, this time evoking a meek "Yes ma'am."

Michael was devastated.  At the moment he saw the two men near the
stables he had felt an immediate urge to flee, but Beth had caught his
arm and led him, unwilling, over to them.  Both men doffed their hats
at the approaching of the girls, and Beth had greeted them and then
introduced her friend "Michelle" who was to be a visitor to the house
for a while.  At the sound of the word "Michelle", panic erupted inside
him.  He mumbled something in response to their "Glad to meet you, Miss
Michele", and as soon as Beth said goodbye and began to move away,
Michael made a beeline for the house.

Beth had called after him to no avail.  Michael was angry and
humiliated, and he had had enough of this.  He would find a way to get
the hell out of here today.

His rage overcame reason and he let the fury boil over in the words he
shouted.  The frilly clothes were a curse, and he tugged and flayed to
be rid of them.  The slap across his cheek burned, and the tears welled
in his eyes involuntarily.  The blow startled him, and quenched his
temper at once.  Brought back to reality so abruptly, and seeing the
infuriated woman who had done it brought him back to that reality.  He
kew that he had blown it.  He might as well kiss St.  Andrews goodbye.
After this, he thought, she's booting me out of here.

"Now you will apologize clearly and correctly."

He struggled with his feelings, a turmoil within of anger and
subjection.  At last he stammered "I....I'm sorry."

"No," she corrected, " 'I am very sorry to have lost control and
offended you both and I beg your forgiveness for my insolence.'  "

He meekly parroted her words, staring at the floor in shame.  He could
never remember feeling so low in his life.

"Now, go into the parlor and wait for me." He obeyed and shuffled into
the sitting room, leaving Jane to further quiz Beth about what had
happened.  In a moment or two Jane came into the room and slammed the
door behind her.  She was still obviously provoked by the scene that
had happened outside in the foyer.

"So this petticoat punishment rankles you, does it Michael?  You chafe
under those skirts and that pretty facade we've given you.  Well that
is hardly surprising.  It was not meant to thrill you.  The operative
word, young man, is 'discipline'.  All this would have no effect, no
meaning if you LIKED it.  You might GROW to like it, but for now it is
supposed to be degrading and humbling and embarrassing!" She was in
high dudgeon now.

"But that scene your just played out there comes close to being the
last straw.  I'm very close to simply washing my hands of you."

He had no response to this, and sat dumbly.  She was going to eject
him.  'There it goes.'  he thought to himself.

"I thought you had some intelligence, Michael!  I told you yesterday
that based on what changes you would make by Friday we would take a new
look at this.  Well, my little smart-mouth, I can well see after that
last outburst just what the authorities at that school put up with.  I
can't see how you can possibly think I could give you an endorsement."

She folded her arms with an exasperrated sigh and stared out the
window.

"Don't like the ruffles and bows, is that it?  Wish you could be back
wearing rough and tumble boyswear.  Well, maybe we can arrange that, my
pretty little fellow."

He was heartened by this statement, yet perplexed by the sarcasm that
permeated the way she had said it.

"Yes indeed.  maybe we can find something around here more to your
liking.  But not before you make up for tearing that dress and shouting
profanities at me.  I will also tell you that that dress you have
ruined was quite expensive and you will pay for it one way or another.
Look at yourself, you are a mess!

He sulked under her mocking gaze and tried to hold the torn bodice over
the exposed lingerie beneath.  It was, he was aware, an extremely
feminine pose, and it annoyed him.

The ceaseless clicking of the clock pendulum permeated the stillness of
the room as Jane continued her private deliberations.

"Michael," she finally uttered with a faint sigh, "what are we going to
do with you?  Your mother has been my friend for over twenty years.  I
am fond of her.  You saddened her deeply when you were suspended.  It
was as a friend that she turned to me for help.  I am deeply concerned
about helping her, and that is why I took this on.  I care about you,
as well.  But you won't cooperate.  I've resorted to this approach
because I think it works.  As I said, you aren't meant to like it.  But
you ARE meant to submit to it.  There are benefits to be derived that
you are not even vaguely aware of right now."

The reference to his mother gave him some pause.  He did not want to
hurt her.  But surely even she would not tolerate this abuse that her
"friend" was subjecting him to.  He wished he knew how to call her, to
talk to her.  But she had, for her own reasons, left all information on
reaching her in Europe with Jane, and Michael thought it unlikely Jane
would allow him to call her.

Jane went on.  "Well, I'll tell you this:  I am not giving up until
tomorrow.  We will see by then what is to come of this.  In the
meantime, you will remain as you are, skirts, curls and all.  Now if I
am willing to give it another another chance.  I will allow you to put
on a new dress and clean yourself up.  I will expect you to behave.
Your eyes are a mess.  Go take off that gown and clean your face and
come back down here.  I want to give you some time alone this afternoon
to think about all this.  Now get out of my sight until you look
presentable."

The dismissal was unmistakable and he quickly left the room, feeling
really blue.  He ran up the stairs and slammed the bedroom door,
falling onto the bed and crying tears of defeat.

Beth came into the parlor.

"Well, Beth," Jane said, "that went about as expected, though I hardly
anticipated the degree of his outburst.  I think young Mr.  Nash has
just sealed his fate for the next few months."

Beth made no reply.  She knew how Michael felt and sympathized with
him.  At the same time, being familiar with Jane's techniques by now,
Beth knew that there was truth in the conclusion.

"He wants out of dresses and petticoats; I think we might give him his
wish.  " Jane went on.  "I had intended to delay the first trip to town
until we could get up to Kingston.  I have appointments for you both
next week at Carolyn's"

Carolyn, of course, referred to Carolyn Beale who was the co- owner of
Marisha Chalet, a posh Kingston beauty salon that was situate in Jane's
village of choice for shopping and hairstyling for her wards.  In fact,
Carolyn and Sandra, the other owner, were both cognizant of Jane's
activities and both knew that the pretty young things that came in for
adornment were, in truth, young men.  Carolyn was quite enthusiastic
about her role in these activities, for it just happened that she was
married to one of Jane's former proteges and she had often told Jane
what a gem he was.  Carolyn was a true believer in the results of this
method Jane employed and thus was more than willing to go along.  Her
partner, Sandra, Beth thought, had a streak of disdain for men in her,
and relished subjecting boys to the delicate rituals of her craft.
Thus, though the motivations were different, Jane had devoted allies at
Marisha Chalet.

Though the salon catered to the more elegant style for women, it was
unisex in clientele.  Beth recalled the anxious feeling of sitting in
those chairs before the mirrors, with both male and female customers in
attendance, trepidatious that either Carolyn or Sandra might find it a
"lark" to let the victim's true identity slip out.  That fear, coupled
with submitting to the elaborate beauty treatments visible in the
reflection was a sublime torture.

Jane went on as she searched for something in the desk.  "Michael wants
to be out of skirts, Beth, back into something less feminine.  And I
think we will indulge him a little.  Did I ever tell you about David?"

Jane had, in fact, recounted numerous anecdotes about the boys she had
taught over the years, but Beth was not certain which tale she had
referred to.  Jane's question was, of course, only a rhetorical prelude
to the new story she would surely narrate.

"David was here about three years ago.  He was very rebellious, in much
the same way as Michael.  He once pulled the same stunt you just saw,
so I gave him his wish and let him wear something less frilly.  I want
you to go up to the attic storage closet and bring down a pair of grey
slacks and a tailored white blouse you'll find there.  They may not be
quite what Michael envisions, but they will suit our purpose.  Anyway
that is what he will wear if he wants to.  I have to pick up a few
things in Hampton, and I think it advisable that you both come along
too."

Beth nodded acknowledgement.

"He is in for a big surprise, our intransigent guest.  I have the
feeling that he will be even more malleable when we return.  Our time
is a little limited, Beth, so we have to move more quickly with
Michael.  Normally I would prefer to wait until next week, but I cannot
afford to have him find out I lied about possibly releasing him
tomorrow....and you must NEVER tell him.  I need to gain his trust if
this is to be successful."

Beth assured Jane she would be discrete, hating the deception she was
being made part of, but more interested in her own well- being.

Jane finally found what she had been rummaging for and pulled out what
looked like a lipstick, an eyeliner pencil and a compact of eyeshadows.

"You have never seen these before, Beth.  I had no reason to use them
with you.  They are specially formulated cosmetics.  They are far more
long-lasting than regular makeup and even thorough cleansing leaves
faint traces of color.  Despite all his efforts to scrub this off,
there will be a hint remaining.  With those darling curls and dainty
eyebrows and a nice glow, our macho friend may find he passes better as
a girl than as an effeminate boy."

Beth shuddered imperceptibly at the diabolical twist that Jane was
planning.  'Cripes,' she thought, 'I'd die if that happened to me.
Michael will be devastated if someone notices.'

"So our rebel will remember the day he ventured out as an obvious
sissy.  I think he will be fairly begging to be back in petti's after
he sees how impossible his situation is."
  Micahel, meanwhile, had stopped his pitiful sobbing and removed the
torn dress.  He chose a white blouse and plaid jumper to replace it.
He removed the tear-blotched makeup to comply with Jane's command.  The
curls in his hair still remained fairly neat and he managed, somewhat
ineptly, to coax the few wayward strands back into place.  He was
basically presentable and he returned downstairs.

Knocking softly at the door of the parlor, he was permitted entry and
Jane assessed his outfit without comment.  Then she said, "Come over
here.  You look fairly presentable.  Why no makeup, Michael?,
scrutinizing his fair face.

"I...I wasn't sure..."

She interrupted, "Never mind.  You look like you've been crying.  Come
here and I will fix it and make you pretty again."

He hated when she said things like this.  He was keenly aware of Beth's
presence as he submitted to this indignity once again.  Jane very
carefully drew the fine line of light sable pencil inside the lashes of
both the upper and lower lid of each eye, then creamed the pale blue
shadow on the lids themselves.  She used the lipstick as a rouge,
daubing spots of carmine and then blending it into his cheeks with her
fingertips.  Next came the inevitable application of lipstick to his
lips.  Jane applied the red wand liberally.

"There now," she said, handing him the blotting tissue.  "You look
adorable.  Try to behave."

Jane left the room with the announcement she would see them both at
dinner.  Beth excused herself shortly.  leaving Michael alone.  He
paced the room for a while and, out of sheer boredom and the need to
divert his thoughts, hunted for a magazine or something.
Unfortunately, this room., like every bloody room in the house had only
outdated copies of Mademoiselle and Seventeen and other insipid girls
magazines.  Their covers announced articles that must keep young girls
occupied for hours, trying "Ten-minute makeovers" and "The 50 hottest
new hairstyles." God!  What trash.

He picked one up out of tedium and tried to divert his depressing
thoughts.  But as he turned the pages, all he saw was pages adorned
with adolescent girls enjoying the obsessive recreation of clothes and
makeup.  Outwardly he resembled them in his present condition, but he
felt little kinship or joy in any of it.  He read therough the
magazine, glancing at the illustrated articles of before and after
pictures of girls being redone by professionals, then, dusgustedly,
tossed the magazine away and retreated into the cavern of self-pity.



6.  Chapter



Jane had entered the parlor just as Michael pitched the magazine aside.
She smiled inwardly knowing that his distress continued to bother him.
She had thought about the situation and decided that she would not wait
until Friday to issue the final ultimatum.  She would increase the
pressure in the waning hours of this very afternoon, and Michael had
given her the means to achieve her end.

"You mentioned that wanted to wear something less feminine a while ago,
right, Michael.  Well I have decided to let you.  How does that sound?"

"Fine," he readily agreed.  "I'd like that."

"Mind you," she went on, "our supply of male attire here is quite
limited.  Your trunk is coming express and I sent your travelling
clothes out to the cleaners.  But Beth is looking for something now."

She went on.  "I have to run some errands in town and I want you to
come with me.  I suspect you'd like a change of scene.  We'll leave
right in about half an hour.  Alright?  That will give us time to get
back for supper at seven.  I have a dear old friend coming for supper
and she will be here by then."

He pondered this offer of hers with some skepticism, but the prospect
of getting back into male attire was a welcome change, and he readily
agreed, thankful that she had offered this alternative.

"I had Beth find something and put it in your room, so you are free to
go and change.  Please don't dilly-dally, because we have a lot of
errands to do.  I will expect you back here in half an hour."

He stood to leave, then pause.

"What about this hair.  I mean it....well, you know."

"It is curly.  When you have something to say, just say it, don't mince
words." She approached him and inspected his locks.  They were indeed
curly, with glimmering golden highlights.  Imagining him dressed as a
boy, with these curls and the sculpted arch of his brows, she concluded
that he would look very fragile; cherubic, perhaps.

"I can see to that when you come down.  Hurry up, now, we'll be late.
Mind you, I am simply letting you change because we are going out.  I
have not yet decided about tomorrow.  Now hurry up."

The prospect of getting away from the house and wearing boys attire
elated him.  He bounded up the steps and found the clothes on his bed.

They were not quite what he had hoped, but they were more or less more
masculine than the clothes he had on.  The tailored shirt was made of a
soft fabric and the buttons were, like always, damnably backward.  No
one would notice the buttons, and he convinced himself that the light
fabric would likewise go unobserved.

No underwear was provided but he logically removed the despicable
brassier and cast it into the corner.  He kept the panties on and
slipped into the shirt.  He longed for a broadcloth shirt as he
buttoned the blouse.  He wondered if he'd been had, then resigned
himself to what she had provided.  The sleeves seemed a little full at
the wrist, but passable.  The slacks were soft grey flannel, and the
tailoring of both seemed curiously different.  He searched through the
dresser for some sox, hoping at least the knee-high white ones from
yesterday were there, but they had been consigned to the laundry, and
he was forced to choose a pair of anklets with lace trim.  he surmised
that as long as the pants cuffs covered them, they, too, would pass
detection.  He slipped his feet into the cordovan loafers.  They were a
style he had always hated as being a little effete:  the kind some
fools put pennies in.  But they were all he had.

Glancing in the mirror he again saw a problem with the makeup.  He
creamed and tissued his face, but the remnants lingered.  He scrubbed
again and still wasn't sure if he'd got it all off.  He finally
convinced himself that it was his imagination from seeing his painted
visage these last two days, and that his face was clean or at least
nothing would be noticed.  If he rubbed any harder, he would simply
further redden the eyes, cheeks and lips.  He searched for the traces
of color; they were faint and he concluded that whatever was there was
not that noticeable.  His hair was a problem, but Jane had agreed to
fix it.

As he was rushing to finish, he heard the car horn.  He had to get
going.  Only as he reached the door did he think about his nails, and
holding his hands up to the light saw the shimmer of the polish.  He
had no time to take it off, and didn't even know how to.  He would have
to keep his hands hidden.  He went downstairs.  He caught one glance in
the full-length mirror and thought he looked so much better than he
had.  All of this was, to be sure, a rationalization.  He was so
grateful about the contrast that this appearance made over that of just
a few minutes before that he accepted a self-delusion about how he
looked.

Jane of course noted the synthetic appearance, finding him to look
quite effeminate.  He fussed with his hair, and though she pretended to
minimize its curliness, she had, in fact, amplified it.  She hustled
him out of the house before he could get a good view in the mirror.
They got into the BMW, with Beth driving, and went downtown.

Beth and Jane were absorbed in conversation about some people he did
not know, and Jane occasionally gave the young girl a gentle admonition
about her driving.  In less than half an hour they entered a village
named Hampton and proceeded to a mid-sized shopping mall.  Beth parked
the car, and Jane bade him follow them into the mall.

It was moderately crowded for a Thursday afternoon.  Like every mall he
had ever seen, it was comprised of open interiors and side-by-side
stores of all types.  Their first stop was a 1 Hour photo developing
outlet where Jane left some film and was assured it would be done in
sixty minutes.  From there they went down the corridor, stopping here
and there to look at displays of apparel modeled by expressionless
mannequins.  Jane was the more animated of the two women, asking Beth's
comments here and there about dresses, shoes and other attire.  Michael
thought it vaguely odd that Beth, though a girl much like those in the
magazines he had looked at that afternoon, was not all that intrigued
by any of this and certainly did not gush over it.  Perhaps the
"magazine girls" were the figment of some merchandisers zeal.

Passing through the mall corridor, Michael was vaguely conscious that
his eye would from time to time catch another eye staring.  When visual
contact was made, it was quickly averted.  But from the corner of his
eye he saw the gaze return.  This happened more than once.  They were
quizzical eyes, and they made him uncomfortable.  More than once he had
caught someone sizing him up from head to toe.  Not that they were
hostile, for one woman had smiled amicably.  But he was acutely aware
that his presence was commanding more attention than he cared for.  As
if to seek refuge, he followed Jane and Beth into a place called
Nicole's.  Stretching from the full windows in the front to the very
back of the store were racks of all sorts of feminine apparel.  There
were fewer people in here, and they seemed not to pay much attention.
Jane and Beth's meanderings took them finally to the Lingerie section,
and Michael saw myriads of those odious garments on display.  Jane and
Beth were making a few selections, he saw Jane glance his way more than
once.  He distanced himself from the pair, feigning disinterest and
boredom and these most intimate garments.

He was startled then by the voice of a salesgirl who said "Are you
being helped." He spun around and felt his face redden as he mumbled
that he was simply waiting for someone.  The girl's gaze grew more
intent, scanning his face and seemingly finding something there that
was enigmatic to her.  She fixed her eyes on his hair, and cocked her
head as if she were trying to assess what she saw and draw some
conclusion.  Painfully conscious of her scrutiny, Michael turned and
sped out of the shop to wait for Jane and Beth in the hallway.

The shop was teeming with mirrors and he saw his reflection with a
sense of dread.  Even ten yards away he radiated the look of an
effeminate teenage boy.  On closer inspection, the countenance was
worse.  Whatever misconception he had about how he looked before was
deflated by what he now saw, in the wake of the curious stares.  He
wished her were a thousand miles away!

Soon Jane and Beth emerged with packages and after just two more stops,
where he tried to camouflage his presence from the intruding stares,
Jane announced they were about done.  The compounding pressure of all
this, of being scrutinized and wondering what the minds behind the eyes
were seeing and concluding, Michael was relieved to be out of here and
back to the safety of the car.

It was while he waited for Beth outside Spencers and Jane was getting
the car that the trouble began.  He had tried to ignore the stares of
the patrons and salesclerks in the stores.  Nothing had been said to
him, but he was self-conscious that his appearance was provoking the
quizzical glances.  He felt acutely uncomfortable.

As he stood there, wishing Jane would hurry, he was aware of the gaggle
of boys and girls in the small circle a few yards away.  He ignored the
stares, glancing furtively at the store entrance and the lot seeking
either of the women.  He ignored also the derisive giggles in the hope
he would be soon out of here.
  Two of the oldest boys and one of the girls detached themselves from
the group and walked over to where he was standing.  they eyed him a
moment, then one of the boys spoke.

"Say there, Tiger, we been having a discussion.  Are you a boy or a
girl?"

Michael winced and felt the now all too familiar sense of panic take
control of him.  He looked furtively at the exit to the store for Beth,
then surveyed the parking lot again for Jane's blue sedan.  Seeing
neither, he cast a quick glance at the questioner.  His delay in
responding and his elusiveness prompted the next comment.

"I think its a boy, but it is the most sissy boy I have ever seen.
What do you think, Mark?"

The girl spoke now.  "What kind of boy wears crepe shirts and ...hey,
did you see those sox!"

Michael remembered that while he was trying to scratch his leg he had
pulled the cuff up enough to allow someone to see the anklets.  The
girl was pushy and pulled at the leg of the slacks, revealing the
dainty edging.  He brushed her hand aside, another mistake for she now
saw the gleam of polish on his nails.

The boy named Mark picked up the taunting dialogue.  " I think he's a
boy, but he looks like a sweet thing.  Maybe he's a fairy." Shit he's
wearing nail polish."

Michael felt real panic now.  The distasteful term rankled him and he
was nearly doubling his fists to react when he realized he was
outnumbered.

"Bet he's wearing cute little panties under all that too," the first
boy said, fingering the thin crepe material of Michael's shirt.  "Maybe
we should kick the shit out of him."

The girl again, inspecting his face.  "It looks like he wears makeup
and he has pretty little curls....  Hey you guys," she shouted to the
others, "come see this cute little thing."

Michael prayed this ordeal would end or that either Beth or Jane would
come and extricate him from this.  He realized now that all of his
earlier justifications about how he looked were self-deception, and
that what he presented to these people was what they saw.  He recalled
the facility with which he had been accepted in far more feminine
attire by Hal and Tom earlier that day.  Clearly, as he now appeared,
he could pass as a girl, but he was preposterous posing as a boy.  He
felt again like this had been set up, he thought, but in the same
thought he longed for being attired in a way that would not have
prompted this confrontation, whether in true boy's clothes or girl's.

He was about to succumb to some physical act from them when,
miraculously, Jane's car drove up and he could dive for the safety of
its interior.  As they drove away, he could hear the derision of the
group ringing in his ear.  He felt paralyzed with fear as the adrenalin
pumped through him.

Jane either ignored what she might have seen or did not see it.  Beth
was waiting a dozen yards away, and climbed in as Jane stopped for her.
He sat sullenly and quietly in the back seat waiting for his pulse to
stop racing as they headed back to the farm.

Michael was still brooding over the incident as he sat on the veranda
fifteen minutes later.  Jane came out and spoke to him.

"Michael, Mrs.  White will be here in half an hour.  I want you to be
polite to her for she is one of my oldest friends.  Edith is quite fond
of Beth.  We will have cocktails alone, but you and Beth should see to
helping Marie."

Michael shot a glance at Jane, remembering now that there was to be a
guest for dinner.  His mind weighed a real dilemma:  a strange woman
was coming to dinner.  The furtive and fleeting glances of this
afternoon would become more studied and intense in the closeness of the
dining room.  The prospect was a nightmare!

"Couldn't I just skip dinner, Jane.  I'm not very hungry."

"Well, of course not.  If you're not hungry you can just take smaller
portions.  But Edith knows you're staying here and I will not make
excuses for your absence.  Dinner is at seven and I expect you there!"

What was he to do.  He could not afford to be seen as he now was.  He
felt that chronic sense of paradox again, this time in the context of
this very bewildering afternoon.  Much as he was mortified by meeting
the two gardeners in a frilly dress this afternoon, they had accepted
him as they saw him.  Contrast that, he thought, with what happened at
the mall.

Jane had gone back into the house and Michael followed, hoping to plead
his case again.  He caught his gaze in the hall mirror and carefully
examined it.  The curls and the delicate arch of the brow...the traces
of color that no scrubbing seemed to remove.  These were signals of
incongruity that were all to easy to be intercepted.  He was
panicky...what to do, what to do.

He followed Jane into the dining room where she was assessing the table
setting.

"Jane can I please stay in my room.  I can't meet your friend like
this."

"Whatever do you mean, Michael?  you look fine."

"You know what I mean.  Do you know what happened downtown?  Everybody
was staring at me.  A bunch of kids teased me and made fun of me.  I
can't go through that again."

"What are you suggesting.  Michael?  You certainly weren't mocked by
Tom and Hal when they met you.  Why Hal just told me a while ago he
thought you were a very pretty girl."

The dilemma again.  He could pass as a girl in the hated skirts, but
not as a boy in this altered attire and appearance.

"I frankly don't care what you wear to supper tonight.  Mind you,
tomorrow will be back to where we were.  But it is of no consequence to
me whatever what you do tonight.  It was your idea to change into those
clothes, not mine.  I simply made available what we had."

Michael did not know what to do.  He knew that there was immediate
safety for him to go back to being dressed as a girl, but that
loathsome prospect nauseated him.  But it was equally certain that he
could not carry on as he was now dressed.

As he mused, he knew that regardless of what respite these boyish togs
offered him now, he would be back in petticoats in the morning.  He
bowed to the inevitable.

Before he could say anything more to Jane, she had left the room.
After a minute of reflection, he walked into the kitchen and meekly
asked Marie if she could help him with something.  He went back up to
the misery of the bedroom.

It was just after seven, and Jane was in the parlor mixing drinks.  She
handed the icy Manhattan to Edith White and sat down in the overstuffed
chair near the fireplace.

Jane had known Edith for nearly 15 years.  Edith was the widow of
Jonathan White, the banker and financier whose family's tenure in this
valley went back to Colonial days.  Edith was a charming, eccentric
woman who lived well and lavished almost indecent amounts of money to
various organizations and community projects in a veritable
eleemosynary crusade.  The silver-haired dowager (now in her early
sixties, Jane guessed) saw herself as a model of breeding and
refinement.  Jane had, after all these years, distilled Edith's
passions down to three:  an obsession with the historical traditions of
the area, an abiding obsession with fine arts, and a phobia that modern
young people were being reduced to crass philistines by the seduction
of cheap rock music and inferior drama on the screen and television.

Underpinning this tripod of zealous endeavor was Edith's abiding
infatuation with a faded past, a past of beauty and gentility that
spanned the halcyon traditions from ante-bellum through Victorian to
the debutante days of her own youth.  Edith was a bit of an
anachronism, crusading with her time and money to provide young people
with opportunities to experience values she deemed eminently preferable
to current fads.  The woman abhorred the jeans-clad boys and girls she
saw daily in Hampton and Kingston and the other townships, and in her
longing for these lost qualities, she persisted in funding pageants,
theatrical groups and elaborate cotillions.  To all of ventures she
persistently appropriated funds and recruited her friends.  Though the
results were mixed, Jane humored Edith and lent her support, for Jane
had occasionally found in them opportunities to further her own aims.

Edith was prattling on about her latest activity:  A celebration parade
and pageant for the upcoming bi-centennial of Kingston County.  She
waxed eloquently over the Manhattan about the last minute details for
the event, and complained about details that still needed attention.
Her main grievance, it seemed, was the lack of sufficient participants
to round out what was to be a panorama commemorating various periods in
local history.

Jane was smiling and nodding politely at this soliloquy, fitting it in
with thoughts that were taking shape in her own mind.  The conversation
was interrupted by a faint knock at the door, and Beth entered at
Jane's response.

"Beth, dear girl, how nice to see you again," Edith gushed as Beth came
in.

"Good evening, Mrs.  White.  How are you."

"Well as I was just telling Jane, these galas I get myself into will be
the death of me.  Anyway, dear, you look lovely tonight as usual."

Beth had, over these last months, become accustomed to these
effervescent adulations from Edith White.  Jane had always insisted
that when the woman was a guest here, the choice of clothing was to be
both elegant and dainty, a gesture of deference to the elder woman's
taste.  Of course, Jane knew well, these very beautiful feminine
dresses were equally pivotal to the management of her charges.

Beth looked elegant, in a rose-colored taffeta dress whose full skirt
was buoyed on the crinolines beneath; an appropriate coupling of modern
and traditional.  Most significantly, Beth's whole look radiated
innocent girlishness.  Jane was pleased, for the events of tonight
played a role in her near-term plans, and she had engineered what she
hoped would culminate in Edith's own proposal.

She wondered if Michael would present a problem.  Beth had told her
that Michael had asked Marie for some assistance.  Jane hoped this
request portended his decision to comply a little more.  THe Hobson
choice he found himself in, trying to resolve the conflict of his
appearance amid this coercive dominance in which he found himself.
Jane was taking a gamble that after today's events, and her insistence
that he be in attendance at dinner; that he would opt for returning to
the governance of the women of the house, and act accordingly would
provoke the expected response.  She glanced at her watch and hoped
Marie's skills were both brisk in their execution and fetching in their
results.

She heard movement on the upstairs landing and excused herself, leaving
Beth and Edith in polite conversation.  She went to the door and saw
Michael mincingly descending the staircase.  She was pleased with what
she saw.  As he descended, looking somewhat dejected and crestfallen,
Jane motioned for him to follow her into the study.  He entered and
closed the door, a woeful expression on his face.

Marie had done well in the short time she had had.  Michael was once
again in the blue middy blouse and taffeta shirt, with white knee sox
and patent shoes.  Marie had done an exquisite job with the hair,
piling the cascading pony tail high at the crown, tied with a
shimmering ribbon, and twining the composite of his own hair and the
wiglet into pirouettes of tendrils at the neck.  A dainty wisp of hair
brushed each cheek at the hairline near his ear.  Just the right,
demure touch of color enhanced his angelic face.

"Michael, you look darling!  But what prompted this?  I thought you had
decided to wear your boy's clothes to supper."

"You know I couldn't do that," he replied, his eyes modestly downcast,
"not after what happened today.  Especially not in front of a
stranger."

"Well, I think that was a wise choice.  You make a very pretty girl,
and not a very convincing boy...at least not these days.  Now, I am
going to introduce you to an old friend of mine.  She is very fond of
sweet young girls, and I know you will make a good impression.  She
does not know you are a boy, you see, and so we must introduce you as
something other than Michael.  Do you understand me?"

"Yes", he reluctantly mumbled, his thoughts straying to the stables
earlier in the day.

"Well, then.  On your best behavior...  a curtsy I think when you meet
her.  And impeccable manners at table.  You look very convincing.  If
you don't want her to wonder about you, I'd suggest some attention to
manners as well.  Come along, Michelle."

Edith was quite captivated with the new girl, and proffered a bevy of
the same flattery she had showered on Beth.  Michael endured the
debasement her words caused him, and he managed to even force a
passable smile and convincing thank you.  Polite conversation ensued
through the meal, though remarks directed and him and Beth were
occasional.  Mrs.  White dominated the conversation, railing on about
some parade.

"Jane," the older woman said finally.  "I have a wonderful idea.  I
need some more girls for the pageant.  Why not let Beth and Michelle
take part.  It would be so good for them and would certainly please me.

"Well, Edith," Jane replied, "We will have to see.  I am sure that Beth
will be available, but we are not sure how long Michelle is to be here.
Her mother is in Europe and I have to confer with her and with the
people at Michelle's school about her stay.  I shall call you this week
about it."

Michael sensed the implied threat in that statement and he remembered
again the reason he was here.  He dared not look up at either Jane or
Beth, fearful his concern would show.

It was nine-thirty when Edith bid them all goodnight, with more cloying
sweet talk directed at Michael that burned his ears.  A sidelong glance
at Jane and the imperceptible blaze of her eyes prompted him to manage
a dainty curtsy as they said good night to the woman at the foyer
entrance.

Jane took Michael back into the parlor and modestly commended him on
his behavior.  She sipped at a cordial as she sat expansively on the
love seat opposite him.

"I have come to a decision, Michael, and I felt it important you hear
it tonight.  You recall I told you yesterday that I would wait until
Friday to see if I wished to continue with your training.  I confess
the way that you have behaved and especially that outburst today had
led me to a decision to decline this task."

He squirmed a little, anticipating something that was likely to be both
auspicious and dreadful at once.

"You were very nearly exemplary this evening, and you redeemed
yourself.  I have decided to give it a try."

"Does this mean I will have to wear these clothes?"

"If you wish to stay here, yes.  It is part of the course."

He grew depressed again, realizing that his hopes of freedom on Friday
were dashed.  He was equally chagrined that this so-called petticoating
was to continue.  He did not have great reservations about staying
here, but it could be done without this sissy bullshit that he
detested.

"You know, Aunt Jane," he ventured, "I don't know if my mother would
approve of any of this.  Nor the school, I'd bet."

"And you'd tell them, is that it Michael?  You'd tell them about this
wicked woman who made you dress like a little girl and primp and preen
and curtsy and all that?"

He nodded, and this gesture drew a wry smile to her lips.  She stared
at him a moment, sipped at the cordial and walked to the desk.

"I think not," he heard her say, as he watched her pick up an envelop
and return to the settee, placing the envelope on the coffee table
between them.

"You see your mother already knows.  That is precisely why she sent
you.  I'll admit it was a last resort, but your mother is perfectly
aware that her sweet little boy is sitting here in skirts.  She and I
spoke of it before you ever arrived."

He gulped, astonished that his mother would allow this.

"As for the school, I would suggest that that is not an admission you'd
make to them or to anyone else.  How embarrassing it would be to even
admit that you had been in dresses.  On the other hand, it night be a
revelation I'D make if I don't get your continued cooperation.  Take a
look at that," indicating the envelope.

He picked up its bulk and opened the flap.  His hand drew out a sheaf
of photographs and it began to tremble as he saw the first one.  In
vivid color was Michael in various costumes, being made up and wielding
cosmetic applicators on himself.  There were shots of him in curlers
and with Marie affixing ribbons in the finished mass of curls.  All in
all, there were over two dozen pictures which appalled him.

"Give some thought tonight, Michael, of the effect those darling photos
would have on the other boys you go to school with.  If you don't want
to be totally humiliated, I'd suggest you keep your threats to
yourself.  I doubt that even if I CAN get you reinstated at St.
Andrews you'd want to return under the cloud of being the campus sissy.
Think well on that."

Jane dismissed him at that point, sending him back to his room.
Michael later lay in the dark room and stared at the canopy.  He had
undressed and taken a bath.  When he hung the dress in the closet, he
was somewhat surprised to see that the blouse and slacks were still
there.  What did that mean?

He had opted for tailored pajamas rather than a feminine gown, but the
smooth silkiness of the peach colored coat and trousers, with the
little bows and appliques, were a burlesque parody of his intention to
wear something more masculine.  He was still a sissy in a girl's room.
And now, with photographic proof of his dalliance in these girlish
pursuits, Jane had yet another lever to wrest his submission.  He
turned off the light and sank into deeper despondency as he fell
asleep.



7.  Chapter



In the frenzied days that followed through the weekend and into Monday,
Michael was exposed to more femininity and girlish activity than he had
ever imagined possible.  The curiosities, sights and smells of living a
girl's life were thrust on him at a dizzying pace.  There were
mannerisms and postures to assimilate.  He practiced for hours with
rollers and makeup, his arms tiring from the unfamiliar reach required
to roll the wands into his hair.  He learned about colors and
combinations in clothes, shoes and accessories.  He practiced curtseys,
polite phraseology and locutions that sounded effete to his male ear.
Adjectives that he would have shunned at all costs as a boy began to
seep into his speech.

Indeed, speech and mannerisms seemed the hallmarks.  Inflection
conveyed more than anything, Jane tutored, and he chafed as he mimicked
the exaggerated intonations she prompted.  He practiced gestures and
walking and light hints of poise like tidying his hair and the right
way to examine his face and dresses in a mirror.

He was ceaselessly being fussed over and busying himself with dainty
little detail.  He spent what seemed hours perfecting the application
of a myriad of colors to his face, his nails.  He submerged himself in
bubbly baths, shaved practically invisible hairs from his legs and
arms.  It was a seemingly perpetual routine that started early in the
day and ran till late at night.

Not only learning a facile walk in pumps, but becoming nimble at
daintily swaying an ankle while balanced on the other foot.  The
girlish positioning of the hands on hips as opposed to the "arms
akimbo" stance of a man.  Crossing the legs just right when sitting,
exposing just the right amount of leg beneath the hem of the skirt.
Care in both sitting and rising from a chair so that the movement
flowed gracefully and smoothly.

The subtle and vain fluff of the hair that primped it in place.  A
winsome manner of correcting makeup when others were watching so that
the actions seemed less pragmatic than attractive.  All of these
subtleties had eluded him when, as a boy, he watched girls.  There was
so much to learn and master.

He submitted to this drill grudgingly, maintaining an outward facade of
equanimity about it, but inwardly astir with emotions.  He detested the
role he had to play, especially when something he did or the way he
looked prompted a comment from Marie or Beth or Jane which emphasized
his growing grasp of girlish ways.  Some of it, to be sure, had become
tolerable because of its familiarity.  He confessed to himself an
enjoyment derived from the touch of the smooth fabrics on the most
sensitive parts of his body.  He had to admit that when he viewed the
girl in the mirror as some detached persona which coexisted with him,
it was a very pretty girl.  The fact was, he had to admit to himself,
he did present the image of a pretty girl.  This realization caused him
great consternation.

He began to think of himself as a sissy.  If he did these things, and
evinced an occasional pleasure in doing it and what he saw
accomplished, what did that make him?  The thoughts troubled him and he
wondered if there were not some subtle internal change taking place.
He hoped not, for he knew this must all come to an end and he had no
desire for these events to seep into his return to a male world.

Ironically, it was this dualism that preserved his equanimity and kept
his panic in check.  He could partially detach his boyhood from the
repulsive things being done to him and simply go along.  That submerged
self still felt the distress of every sissy thing he was made to
experience and he was demeaned by the results these women forced upon
him.  Yet another part of him puzzlingly identified with the "girl" in
the mirror, and strived to perfect the right characteristics to project
her femininity.

This constant see-saw and the alternative and conflicting emotions made
him queasy and often disgusted with himself.  A more profound torture
seemed unimaginable.

Fear motivated him most, even fear of the reaction of Beth, Marie or
Jane to what he did or failed to do.  When he did his make-up just so,
appeared before them with curls in place and dainty girlish garb
accurate in every detail, he felt abject embarrassment.  If he were
chastised for a mistake, or called a sissy for doing it well, that
chagrin heightened.  He comprehended that even when he made a passable
girlish gesture or speech, his competence led to the inevitable
conclusion that he was being feminized as a boy, being constrained to
act as a girl.

He was most grateful that, at least, these feminizing activities took
place within the sanctuary of the house.  He dreaded going outdoors
like this, but Beth had warned him that such trips were to take place
in the near future.  He panicked each time he thought about it, and
hoped nothing would go awry as it had on his last outing.  The
realization that he could conceivably deceive outsiders if he handled
himself appropriately was the singular motivation in absorbing all the
elements of this effeminate pantomime.  On the one hand, he worried
about discovery, and yet he strongly sensed that if he acted the
perfect girl, he would pass.  Yet in so doing, he did injury to his
male persona.  It was a cycling paradox.

And so the prospect of being made to go out again constantly distressed
him with its devastating possibilities of shame and embarrassment.  Did
the trapped animal feel like this, he wondered.

He was made to do things that transcended mere clothing or adornment.
Jane had sat him down and suggested that some exposure to dance might
improve his grace and movement.  Beth was to be his preliminary
instructor in this area, though it was conceded by both Jane and Beth
that she was merely passing on the lessons she had learned at her own
dancing class and that the practice would be very elementary.  Beth led
him to a chamber that had once been a medium-size ballroom.  Here she
taught him the elements of dance.  He submitted to donning leotards,
tights and a short dance skirt, and tap shoes that were like the Mary
Janes except that they tied at his ankles with a black satin bow.
After several hours of repetitive drill, he had begun to master the
heel, toe and shuffle that were the elements of tap dancing.  Beth was
as diligent in imparting tips on the proper carriage of the arms in a
graceful style as she was in teaching the syncopating cadence of the
metal taps on the wooden floor.  At one point he saw Jane surveying the
duo from the doorway and felt a moment of self-consciousness.  He was
less disconcerted doing these foolish little steps and skips with Beth
alone, but the adult presence rankled him.

Ballet steps, too, were practiced, and Jane insisted that a
tulle-skirted costume was a necessary ingredient of this routine.  He
felt really silly assuming the flamboyant poses of that style,
especially perfecting the graceful stance that Beth seemed to have
mastered.

He frequently felt a dreamlike detachment from his true self.  As
though he were dreaming and all of this would go away when he awoke.
But, in truth, he woke each morning in that same fragile room,
reorienting himself to its strange but ever-more-familiar atmosphere.
And each morning when he woke, the turgidness of his erection grazed
the sheer material of his gown and he savored the sensations it sent
through him.  One morning he succumbed to the urgency and, with very
little effort found, release.  In retrospect, that event was unlike any
other solitary adolescent autoeroticism he had engaged in.  It was as
if the sensuous surroundings and titillating feel of the garments
themselves conveyed a certain erotica.  To the extent that he
fantasized about a suggestive figure during the act, he kept seeing the
petite reflection of himself he had seen in the mirror.

Jane watched the events unfold with satisfaction, seeing the
transformation develop superbly.  Michael was assimilating a truly
feminine air.  Jane knew instinctively that the boy's repugnance of
this business was undiminished, but he had begun to display somewhat
less resistance to it.  Indeed, she had caught him more than once
preening in the mirror or fingering the ruffled edge of the dress.  She
knew that this abandon was, in part, due to the sanctuary that the
house itself afforded, a security she would shatter later this week.
But each day brought him closer to total submission to the control of
flounces and frills.

Perhaps if Michael knew the exhaustive plans that Jane had been making
that were sure to affect him, he would have been less hopeful and
sanguine about what might happen to him this week.

On Monday morning, as she sat alone drinking her coffee on the veranda,
she was musing and making notes while scanning the local paper.  She
had been mildly pleased by the change in attitude she had witnessed in
Michael these last three days, and felt another two days of the same
exercises would be in order.  But he was growing altogether too
comfortable in these surroundings.  Not that he was accepting any of
it, but the resignation he evinced needed some additional challenge.
He needed to be jarred out the complacency and security that the house
gave him.  The creation of new tensions was indispensable principle of
his development.

To this end, she was making a list.  She had planned hair appointments
for them both, and she had to call Carolyn or Sandra to set the stage
for that.  She picked up the phone and reached Carolyn, who expressed
eager expectation at the arrival of a new neophyte for them to work on.
In her excitement, it was she who suggested Wednesday, for that morning
she had a charm class scheduled.  Carolyn conducted classes for young
girls in hair care and makeup.  A group was coming in on Wednesday
morning, and Carolyn suggested that Michael could be made to act as the
model for her lecture.  Jane thought this a capital idea, and the date
was set.

Checking that item off her list, Jane scanned the paper for the weekly
advertisements.  Several sales at shops she liked caught her eye, and a
note was made of these as well.

Jane next dialed Edith White and caught her at home.  Michelle, Jane
told her friend, would, in fact, be staying a while after all, and both
girls would be available to participate in Edith's festivities.  Edith
was thrilled.  She told Jane that the costumes for the girls were
available at Milady's Closet in town, and since the only requirement
was that the girls sit poised and pretty on the float in the parade,
she left it to Jane to select the appropriate costume.  Jane added
another item to Wednesday's agenda.  In less than half an hour she had
scheduled the Wednesday activities, including lunch at the Heritage
Inn.  Michael would encounter the full range of a girl's day on the
town.

Her next call was to Margaret Warden, who ran the dance studio that
Beth attended.  Jane told her she had another young girl staying with
her for the summer, and thought that a few lessons in tap and ballet
would be worthwhile.  Margaret, of course, sensing the tuition income,
agreed.  Jane allowed as how this young lady was inexperienced and
slightly awkward, but with a dance instructors overstatement, Jane was
assured that even a total neophyte could be graceful in just weeks.
Jane penciled in Thursday for the first lesson.

Another item in the paper caught her eye.  It was a call for auditions
at a local children's theater.  Jane knew the people who ran the
program and decided to call them as well.  Another element of fine arts
would both do Michael good and expose him to yet another regretful
situation.  It was a full schedule, fraught with numerous exposures of
her young be-ruffled boy to people and places that would prove
disquieting to him.  The list provided ample appointments for her to
demand his involvement in these distressing locales.  Jane was sure
that she could think of one or two items to add to the list that might
even escalate that uneasiness.

The day whose arrival Michael had been dreading most turned out to be
Wednesday.  Jane had announced the night before that he and Beth would
be going into town with her for some shopping and errands.  Beth had
forewarned him of the upcoming trip to Kingston.  But she was reticent
and sketchy about the details, and when Michael had expressed anxiety
about another trip to town, Beth had offered the reassurance that when
he was completely dressed as a girl, and meticulously done up, he was
very convincing.  It was simply a matter of remembering all that he had
been taught and not betraying a single sign of being a boy.  Despite
that encouragement, the memory of his last appalling trip into town
plagued him and he expected the worst on this next venture.

They were all up early on Wednesday morning and had finished breakfast
before 8:30.  Jane instructed Michael to shower and get dressed.  He
was to put on the panties and bra that she had shown him the preceding
evening, garters and hose, and a full slip with a single net layer
between two of taffeta.  She had selected a short, slightly puffed
sleeved, mauve polyester/rayon dress, it's skirt modestly billowing out
over the petticoat, and adorned with a gray ribbon sash.  The dress
suggested maturity, but at the same time the fullness of the skirt, its
narrow lace trim, and the cut of the sleeves suggested a design more
suited to a child.  He was to simply brush his hair and apply a minimal
touch of makeup.

Michael went to his room solemnly.  The cold feeling of dread he felt
was not even dissipated by the warm jets of the shower.  He dried off
and returned to the hushed blue shadows of his room, and selected in
turn each item of lingerie.  The superfluous bra produced satiny busts
over his own male nipples.  It closed easily in front, although he had
by now nearly mastered the technique to fasten nearly every type of
lingerie without Marie's help.  He tugged on the panties, sensing again
their tight smoothness on his buttocks and groin and slipped the hose
up snugly and affixed their tops to the four garter straps that dangled
from the belt around his waist.  As he donned the lacy underwear, he
felt the familiar butterflies in his stomach.

The tingling stricture of the nylons brought a different coolness to
his smooth legs.  He slid the slip down over himself and it encased his
body with a soft caress.  The dress was the usual problem, its zipper
in the back out of reach.  With some contortion he was able to slide
the zipper to its top, and finally managed to clasp the tiny hook at
the top.  He stepped into the two inch pumps and sat at the vanity to
brush his hair, and inserted the barrettes as he had been taught at
each temple.  He brushed a light blush over his cheeks and along his
chin line and across the brow.  A light touch of mascara was followed
with a touch of pale lipstick.  He did not look nearly as eye-catching
as he had on other occasions, but it seemed to suffice.  Ironically, as
he scrutinized his appearance further, he thought of last week when he
was searching for traces of makeup to diminish all traces.  Now the
situation was reversed, and after some consideration, Michael frowned
at what he saw as not projecting enough femininity.  He decided that a
little more color would be prudent today, dressed as he was in these
girlish trappings.  Selecting a brighter shade of cosmetics, he
reapplied color to cheeks and lips.  As an afterthought, he added a
small strand of pearls and a bracelet.  Michael picked up his small
purse and draped its handle over his left wrist as Jane had instructed.
He paused in front of the full length mirror to view his image and was
torn between his admiration for the pretty reflection, and the
revulsion he felt at the acknowledgement that she, was he.

Michael got the usual laurels about his prettiness when he arrived
downstairs.  Abashedly brushing them aside with a muted "thank you," he
steeled himself to departing the security of the house and got into the
car.

As the trio approached their first stop, Michael recoiled in shock.
His hesitation was momentary, however, as Jane quickly realized his
reluctance, and firmly grasped his hand.  She brooked no unwillingness
on his part as they neared the door.  "Let's not have any boyish
nonsense now Michelle", she instructed.  "Remember, if you act
completely and entirely as the charming young lady you appear to be, no
one need be the wiser.  On the other hand, if you do not, you will
either be found out or I may simply trumpet the fact you are boy who
loves dressing up like a sissy."

Michael winced at her use of the feminine "Michelle", and the
forewarning of misery if he was exposed, but he realized the sense in
her advice, even if it was worded in her usual, gratuitous manner.  He
was so preoccupied with his own concerns that he failed to realize that
Beth too seemed subdued with the thought of spending several hours in
this environ.

They walked into the Marisha Chalet and Michael's mind reeled with
disquiet as he looked about the chic beauty salon.  The success of the
establishment was evident by the large number of patrons that were
there even at this early hour.  Michael saw both women and men having
their hair done.  This setting, especially when he contemplated what
well might be coming, made him inwardly shudder.

They were greeted by someone to whom he was introduced as Carolyn, one
of the owners.  She indicated that she would be doing Beth and that
Sandra would take care of Michelle.  When she looked at him, Michael
could have sworn there was a wry, knowing smirk on her face.  She led
him to the shampoo basins.

The shampoo girl was the second person he met, a pretty lass of 17 or
18 named Shelly.  She worked silently, placing a shiny cape around him,
fastening it at the neck and draping its broad folds around him.  She
turned the chair around and gently lowered his nape to the edge of the
basin, mixing the water to proper temperature, wetting and then
lathering his hair.  After a repeat of this, she wrapped a towel around
his head, returned the chair to its upright position and led him over
to the place where the operator's booth's were located.

The booths were slight indentations into the wall.  They were not fully
separated from either the adjacent stations, nor were they invisible
from the rest of the shop.  He saw that Beth was being worked on in the
adjacent booth and on his other side the cubicle was vacant.  He hoped
it stayed that way.

Sandra came over, told him her name halfheartedly, and started to work
without other comment.  Michael was content to bear this burden without
conversation, and so invited none.  She removed the towel and began
combing through the wet strands of hair, aligning them and separating
them into sectors around his scalp with pins that left her field of
work free.  She drew wide strands through her fingers and, with
scissors, she clipped only a small snip from the end of each strand.
Again and again she repeated this, scrutinizing the progress in the
mirror, cutting more or less here and there, styling as she went.  This
aspect was not remarkably unlike any haircut he had ever received in a
store such as this.  Perhaps he was most surprised by the small amount
of hair her snips removed, and the fact that her next act was to use a
razor to shave parts of his hairline that had never felt a razor
before.  She worked silently and briskly.

When she was finished, she shook out the clipped hair from the cape,
and replaced the shawl-like garment over him.  She next wheeled a
circular tiered tray alongside his chair.  Each tier held a myriad of
pastel-colored rollers of varying diameters.  She had just begun to
select the implements necessary to give Michael his first permanent
wave, when she leaned over and whispered in his ear.

"So you are Jane's latest sissy-in-residence." Her words electrified
him and he turned ashen in the mirror.  Involuntarily, he started to
turn in her direction, but she pressed his shoulders down as she
continued.  "Calm down, sweetness, or you'll mess up my work, and I
just hate that!  The last time that happened I told everyone in the
place I had a sweet, little femmy boy here getting his hair nice and
curled up." It did not take much, at this point, to make him
speechless.  He glanced around the room with his peripheral vision
through the images in the glass searching for someone who might have
heard what she said.  No one seemed to have noticed.  Sandra watched
his eyes darting fearfully about the room and smiled.

"I'm glad you learn quickly hon.  Now cutie, you just act as sweet as
you look, and maybe you and I won't have any problems," she teased.
Her words had jolted him and he settled back into the chair paralyzed
with fear and a new found submission to this frightening woman.
Michael tried to slow his breathing while Sandra asked Caroline over to
his chair.  She joined them shortly with a large magazine, like a
catalogue.  Caroline leaned over the motionless boy and spread the book
out on his lap.  "Here, Michael....", she said in a low voice, which
she immediately corrected with a gleam in her eye, "I mean MICHELLE.
Why don't you look through here and tell us which style you'd like for
your permanent."

Michael mutely gazed at the first page, horrified at both the word
"permanent" and the picture confronting him.  The girl in the photo had
a glorious head of full, luscious blonde curls, cascading beyond her
shoulders, the bangs styled and fluffed with mousse.  He realized that
his hair was thankfully too short for such a style, but was petrified
at what the next page might hold.  His silent stare continued for
several moments, until Sandra leaned over as if to work on his hair
near the right ear.  But instead, she grasped the lobe of the ear and
pinched it fiercely, whispering, "Real girls LIKE to do this, Michelle!
So unless you want the people here to know you're a boy in a DRESS,"
she hissed, "You'd better start to show some girlish enthusiasm!  I
know you have a girl hiding inside you", she added, her voice now full
of teasing enthusiasm, "So let's see her enjoying her trip to the
beauty parlor."

Michael winced at the pressure she applied to his ear, no less than at
her comments, but realized he was at a make or break moment in his time
in skirts, and capitulated.  He flipped the page, and without even
thinking, turned his head towards Sandra and said, "Oh!  Isn't this one
simply wonderful?  Do you think I could wear it?" Caroline grinned at
the forced, yet to the public's eye and ear, apparantly genuine,
feminine query from him.  Michael blushed and turned his eyes down, and
for the first time saw the style he had referred to.  It was worse than
the first, if for no other reason, because his hair was short enough
for the style.  The girl's hair was nearly shoulder length, fashioned
in tighter curls, yet still with a very full shape.  The bangs were
again left uncurled, to allow for their arrangement into a variety of
shapes, as the upswept style on the model clearly demonstrated.  The
final touch was a lace ribbon, wrapped from the back of the neck, up
behind the ears, and tied in a large bow towards the right side of the
head.  The ribbon caused the hair to fluff out even further than it
might have fallen naturally.  Michael was ready to turn the page,
hoping to find something less stylized, when Caroline took the book off
his lap.

"A perfect choice, Michelle," she said as she closed the book, and
turned to walk away.  Looking over her shoulder at him, she loudly
added, "I'm sure everyone here will want to see how it turns out!"

He cringed inwardly at her words, but managed to smile, afraid that to
do otherwise would risk exposure.  Sandra then began her work.  She
stroked her comb again through his hair, once more isolating sectors
and clipping them aside.  Her actions now were slower and more
deliberate.  She wetted his hair with a solution whose pungent aroma
matched that which permeated the shop and which he had noticed when he
came in.  The liquid ran away from his hairline in places and she
sopped it with the towel.  For a moment, the parts of his face that it
touched burned slightly, but this passed.

As he watched her in the mirror, he saw that she isolated a strand of
hair, held it with one hand as she took a tissue and smoothed it down
the end of the strand.  Holding this wrapped tress tautly in her
fingers, she selected one of the colored rollers and spooled the lock
of hair around it, drawing it up tight to his scalp and fastening the
elastic device that held it in place.  Though she was meticulous and
fastidious with each curl she fashioned, it seemed only a short time
before she had completed the top of his head and was working down the
back.

He was sitting in the chair silently when she softly spoke again.
"You're not the first little boy we've prettied up in this place, and I
suspect you'll be sent back for more.  So just keep calm.  Piss me off
though and I'll let that guy down on the end know that I have a little
boy here who plays like he is a girl.  Or maybe that little girl over
there.  I'll bet she'd want to take you home to play dress up.  How'd
you like that, pretty little Michelle?"

A renewed alarm surged through him and he fought to retain composure.
He was cornered.  He could not bolt and yet he had to suffer the abuse
this woman seemed to enjoy heaping on him.

He sat stunned as she relentlessly continued.  "You have such nice
hair, Michelle", rolling another strand into the tangle of curlers that
adorned his head.  "Nice, golden hair.  After I'm finished, you'll be
amazed at what I have done.  And these curls won't go away.  They are
permanent and will stay and stay."

Her voice was subdued, and almost husky.  Under other circumstances and
with different dialogue, it might have been seductive.  Her taunting
whisper continued as she worked.

"After I'm done, Carolyn has something especially wonderful for you.
You'll be a perfect little doll when we're through with you." He
trembled with a mix of expectation and dread.  "We are going to do a
real job on you today.  Jane said give him the works, we're going to
give you the works." Another wand, another strand affixed itself to his
scalp.  "So far, I think, the amateurs have had you.  Wait and see what
the pros can do to you."

He had often sat in a hair stylists chair and listened to the idle
banter they made; small talk that seldom evoked anything more than a
perfunctory reply.  This dialogue was like getting an obscene phone
call, a tete-a-tete which communicated flutters of anxiety through his
every fiber.  He longed to be out of this place.  The pointed, teasing
barbs continued as he was forced to watch in the mirror as she
performed these most feminine procedures on him.  He prayed fervently
that no one else could hear her murmuring derision.  He prayed even
harder that she would not suddenly blurt out some revelation to this
whole crowd.

She finished rolling up his hair and he saw a profusion of pastel pink
and blue curlers doing their work on his hair.  Some new solution was
applied, its pungent odor a stronger version of what he had smelled on
first coming in here.  She set the clock for 45 minutes, then moved a
table beside the chair and sat down.  She seized his hand and with a
saturated cotton ball, removed all trace of polish from each nail.
Shaping each in turn with an emery board, she applied nearly five
layers of clear polish to each finger.

Beth was visible in the mirror, seated beneath the hood of a hair
dryer, looking a little melancholy, he thought, as she idly turned the
pages of a magazine.  Regardless of what Sandra said about "feminine
enthusiasm", Beth wasn't showing much more than boredom...and something
else he couldn't quite put his finer on.

Carolyn wandered over, her own customer now between procedures.  She
was carrying a handful of various cosmetics, and she began to
experiment idly with lipstick shades and eyeshadow colors, daubing a
spot on, scrutinizing it, then wiping it and trying another.  She and
Sandra discoursed about color.  He felt very exposed, knowing
instinctively that this experimentation was somewhat unusual and
feeling every eye in the place was scrutinizing the discussion.

Amid this seemingly nonessential exercise, Carolyn and Sandra continued
small taunts, mocking queries about his petticoats, derisive comments
about his sleek legs encased in the sheer nylons.  Through it all was
the abiding forecast of the detailed feminization that they planned to
wreak on him this morning.

Michael felt gloomy and distressed.

The clock showed nearly "time" when Sandra had done with the manicure,
and he could see the high gloss her efforts had imparted, appearing
much thicker because of the successive layers.  Sandra held up one of
his hands and examined the nails.

"It's too bad that it's just a neutral shade, but that's what Jane
ordered.  Maybe someday I'll get to paint those little boy nails a
pretty bright red." She spun the chair around and leaned him backwards
again, washing away the chemical which she had applied and methodically
removing each roller and dropping it into the sink.  When she had done,
she gently towelled the hair and turn him back around to see the
springy curls that lingered in place of the rollers.  She played with
the little curlicues of hair, drying and styling it into the hairdo he
had viewed in the picture.  The curls were sprayed and the bangs teased
until she was satisfied.  Last, she took a lace ribbon, matching his
dress, and twined it into the hairstyle, tieing it into

a bow.  When she was through, Michael's glance in the mirror confirmed
his deepest fears.  His hair looked exactly like that of the model in
the photo, and would stay that way for months to come.  Finally, she
pulled away the cape and let him free.

She leaned over and spoke again in her stage whisper.  "See you in two
weeks, Michael.  Always fun to make a boy pretty.  Now go let Carolyn
get to work on you and make sure you say goodbye and let me see you
before you go.  Wait till you see what she does!  A pretty little fella
in lace and curls.  And remember, there are still a few guys left in
here, like those two near the door that can't keep their eyes off you.
So don't forget," and she leaned closer and murmured with a broad smile
on her face, "Your a girl now!  Now smile, dammit.  Make me think that
you love this!"

Michael turned to glance towards the door, but Carolyn was there in a
flash, leading him toward yet another chair.  A group of teenaged girls
was assembled in a semi-circle around it.  Something was going to
happen, he thought, that will make me the center of attention of that
group.  Despite everything that had happened thus far, he again felt
panic.  As she propelled him across the salon floor, Carolyn continued
the taunts that Sandra had imparted.

"I noticed you had long eyelashes, Michael.  Did anyone ever tell you
that?  We are going to do a real number on those eyelashes and every
other feature of your face.  God.  Those girls you are about to meet
would die to have lashes like those!" Michael cringed at her use of a
masculine name while she talked and the abhorrent reference to his
naturally long eyelashes.  His fears were already running rampant
without her intentional taunts, and his heart raced as they approached
the group.  He noted that the girls were dressed comfortably, most of
them in jeans or casual skirts.  The swishing of skirts and pettis
about his knees reminded him that he was dressed more like a girl than
they.

Carolyn directed him towards the chair after introducing him with the
hated name of Michelle.  Michael seated himself with a graceful swish
of skirts and was grateful for Jane and Beth's training of such
feminine mannerisms.  He sat neatly before the girls with hands folded
in his lap, and knees and ankles pressed tightly together.  "Michelle
is going to be our model today and I am going to show you how to make
up for something more than regular day wear.  Some of you may be in the
pageant and parade this week, and there is a different technique for
that.  Now as I told you last week, make-up is about the most dramatic
way that a woman has to project herself.

"We could almost imagine that Michelle, for example, is a boy, given
how little makeup she is wearing .  .  .  except for all those cute
curls." The girls giggled their disbelief, and Michael trembled that
Carolyn was taunting him by suggesting the truth to these girls.  He
flashed a wan smile at the girls.

As she talked, she had smeared cream over his face and removed all
trace of makeup with tissue.  Without the faint hue of cosmetic, his
face had taken on a more boyish look.

"Well of course she couldn't be a boy.  Look at those lashes." Her
words drew the girls' attention to his eyes and they obviously approved
of this naturally girlish trait.

"Now we want to start with a foundation that highlights that lovely
complexion without looking pasty." She daubed dots of the flesh-colored
compound over his face and smoothed it into his skin.  After setting it
with translucent powder, she moved on.  "Now we start with the eyes .
.  .  the window of the soul," she said.  The girls giggled
gratuitously in their excitement at this frolic.  He felt like the
personification of one of those silly articles in the magazines back at
the house.

Caroline pulled a pallet of eye shadows from its case and spread them
before the girls for all to see.  Then she turned to Michael, and
asked, "Michelle, honey, your eyes were really very underdone for such
a pretty outfit and your new hairstyle.  Tell the girls which colors
you think are best to compliment your look."

Michael shot Caroline a quick, imploring look, but her response
indicated no mercy would be granted.  He turned back to the makeup
pallet, now sitting on his lap, and began to consider the
possibilities.  "What about these blue ones?", he meekly inquired.
Several of the girls surrounding him must have thought this girl to be
awfully shy.  Anyone of them would have gladly traded places, yet they
couldn't know that he would just as willingly have agreed.  Caroline
chided him for his choices, sinking him even lower.

"Girls....  Michelle has just made an all too common mistake....  blue
eyeshadows are very overused by you young ladies.  You ought to spend
more time reading Glamour or Seventeen, Michelle.  You'd learn quite a
bit.  I'll suggest that to your Auntie."

With that one of the girls chimed in about a recent issue, and within
moments all the girls were chattering over eye colors, each coming up
with new combinations for Michelle to wear.  Their gushing enthusiasm
had a strange effect on him.  His thoughts drifted to the reality known
only to Sandra, Caroline, Beth, Jane, and himself.....  that here was a
boy, sitting neatly, indeed primly, before a group of teenaged girls in
his pretty dress and new permanent wave, while they openly discussed
his feminization.  He felt a renewed sense of the enormous degree to
which he had been changed, and seemed acutely aware of the sensations
imparted by each item of his feminine clothing...  the tingle of his
petticoat on his knees, the constriction of the bra and garters, the
tension in his calves from the modest heels.  These thoughts flashed
one after the other in a matter of seconds, and when he finally broke
their spell, he realized he was becoming hard inside his panties.
Michael squirmed at this unwanted development, acknowledging that at
least the full slip would probably conceal his erection from the girls.
His fidgeting didn't escape Caroline, however, and she pushed the
makeup case down into his lap with a leer as she took it back.....
causing him to nearly moan out loud.

Caroline proceeded to apply the eyeshadows, followed by mascara and
liner, blush, and finally, lipliner and lipstick.  She chose a rose
colored lipstick, and made a big show of its proper application, using
a fine camel hair brush coated with the lipstick to outline the lips,
then telling Michelle to apply the first coat.  His erection had, if
anything, grown stronger, and it pulsed as he took the tube from her
and leaned towards a mirror held by one of the girls.  As it had
before, and nearly every time since, the act of gliding the fragrant
shaft over his lips brought home his plight with force.  Caroline
touched up his artistry, and stepped back to view the finished product.

She directed Michael to stand and face a mirror so that he could gain
the full effect.  He was by now used to a feminine visage when he
looked in the glass, but, even so, was taken aback by what he now saw.
The makeup, in conjunction with his new permanent, formed
synergistically to create an astonishingly pretty girl.  A "covergirl"
was the word that crossed his mind.

Caroline wouldn't let matters rest.  "Michelle....  why don't you walk
to the end of the salon.....  over near that boy near the door, and
then turn and walk nicely back so we can see the effects from a
distance." By now the other customers had become interested in the
group at the end of the salon, and all turned their heads to see the
results of Caroline's class.  Michael took an imperceptibly large
breath, and trying not to appear too self- conscious, slowly walked
past the staring customers, mincing with the classicly short strides
Jane and Beth had taught.  The flutter and bounce of his skirts
reenforced his never ending self-consciousness, but he was able to
nevertheless exude a sense of some confidence as he approached the
obviously pleased lad near the doorway.  Michael caught his eye for a
moment, and then evaded the gaze, utterly appalled at the thought that
a boy would find him attractive.  He turned in a swirl of petti's, and
retraced his steps to the group, hoping that the swelling in his
panties would remain hidden from his audience.

After a few additional moments of effusive praise from the girls,
Caroline directed Michael over to where Jane was standing near the
front desk.  Beth was herself finished, and stood next to Jane with her
own crown full of curls.

Michael's renewed journey across the salon was interrupted by Sandra.
She was standing near a store room door and called for him.  "Oh
Michelle!  Don't forget....  you're supposed to show me how pretty you
turned out." He reluctantly changed directions, and followed her into
the store room, where she closed the door.  He didn't look forward to
any time alone with Sandra, but felt the room would at least provide a
modicum of security from the clients' stares in the salon.

Sandra stood back and surveyed the lovely boy.  She grinned from ear to
ear as he stood demurely before her, hands clasped neatly and properly
behind his back at the bow neatly tied in his sash.  But his telltale
shifting of weight, as well as the knowing glances she had seen on
Caroline's face, clued her into his secret.  "Michelle, honey, you look
absolutely darling!  Didn't I tell you how much of a DOLL we'd make
you?  And that dress is just so sweet.  I'll bet that's a petticoat
you're wearing underneath it", she coyly inquired.  Michael nodded his
head, but was unprepared for what she said next.  "Let me see it
dear.....  lift you're skirt up nice and high for me."

Michael hesitated, but knew he had no choice in the matter.  He
fingered the skirt for a moment, his nails gleaming brightly, and
slowly began to raise the skirt, exposing inch by inch the lovely
frills of his petticoat.  The skirts rustled as he did so, creating a
new urgency in the erection which continued to haunt him.  Sandra urged
his hands higher and higher, until the skirt's hem rested near his
waist.  Feelings of boyish shame, and arousal, swirled about his head
as he stood before her.

"My goodness, but they are pretty," she exclaimed with glee.  Michael
didn't move as she came closer and stood over him, the skirts staying
high, and his penis pulsating with each heartbeat.  "I'll bet you
really like this, don't you Michelle?", Sandra inquired, her twinkling
eyes holding his in a gaze.  "You know, being such a pretty girl," she
said, thrusting the knife of her words in my deeply, and twisting it.
Michael's silence was met by Sandra's outright laugher.  "Of course you
do, silly!  LOOK!", and she swiftly scooped up his petticoats to expose
the swelling at the front of his panties.  A darker wet spot shone
clearly through the thin material of the delicate garment.

"Well, our little sissy is excited!  You must get a bang out of being
the effeminate little wimp that you are, Michael."

Michael jerked away and dropped his skirts, trying uselessly to find a
remote spot in the room to hide.  Sandra quickly grabbed his arm,
preventing his escape, and he collapsed against her, emotionally
traumatized by her discovery of his condition.  He was unable to
comprehend what or why he felt this arousal, and Sandra stood back to
leave him briefly with his thoughts.  She took a high stool and sat on
it before him.  "Perhaps, Michelle, you are beginning to realize the
significance of this treatment your Aunt has prescribed?" He finally
mustered some words, and spoke more sharply than he had in seemingly
weeks.  "But I'm NOT a sissy!....  I'M NOT!", he exclaimed in defense
of his masculinity.  He limply threw his wrist at her as he said it,
and instinctively reached next for his head to retrieve a stray curl
that had bounced in front of his eyes.  His performance was remarkably
feminine, and Sandra wouldn't let it pass.

Her words cut to his core.  "You can say that all you want, dearie....
but the fact remains that you are the swishiest little "sissy" I've
ever worked on." She gestured towards the door, and laughed.  "Now go
run to your Auntie....  she want's to buy you some cute dresses, doll
face!" Michael paused briefly, trying his best to regain some
composure, and left the false security of the room for the full salon.

"Oh, and Michael, I'll be waiting to do you all over again in a week or
so.  Ta-ta, you sweet little pixie."



8.  Chapter



Michael followed Beth and Jane out of the beauty salon and into the
passageway of the mall.

We'll do our shopping and try on the gowns first and then have a nice
lunch.  Come along girls," Jane announced as she swept up the arcade.
She and Beth made a beeline toward the far end of the arcade, a
determined woman with two young "debs" in tow.

Michael, trying studiously to look and move gracefully in the
demi-heels, lagged slightly behind the pair.  His separation heightened
his anxiety and he struggled to catch up, but he knew that he dare not
lapse into a more boyish dash or commit some gaffe that would betray
him.  As it was, his paranoia interpreted every lingering glance or
admiring smile from passersby as a sign of their suspicion that he was
not really a girl at all.

It is, of course, not uncommon for a young girl to blush and feel
awkward when her appearance attracts attention, but Michael did not
know this, and he interpreted his feelings as the sheer embarrassment
of being judged by these strangers as a boy masquerading as a girl.  He
hoped that the store they were heading to would be sparsely occupied
and without the throngs that strolled in the concourse.

Jane finally stopped outside a boutique whose marquee identified it as
"The Style Shoppe" and in smaller lettering, "Elegant Fashions for the
Young Miss." It stood adjacent to a stored named "Milady's Closet", and
the open archway that he could see between the two stores behind the
display windows suggested common ownership.

In the display windows, several mannequins stared vacantly into space,
their manufactured limbs motionless in graceful yet stilted ladylike
positions.  This immobile tableau stood modelling various lingerie,
blouses, and skirts.  One was elegantly resplendent in a formal gown
which bared the shoulders and then fell from a burgundy satin empire
bodice to cascading tiers of organdy and chiffon.  Michael could not
help but notice that the shiny brilliance of the mannequins' curled
coiffures and the exaggerated vividness of their painted features
mimicked his own face as he recalled the image which stared back at him
back in the beauty salon when Carolyn had finished her ministrations on
him.  In a bizarre way he felt like one of these fashion dummies:  a
counterfeit girl, painted and draped in finery.

He caught up to Jane and Beth to find Jane engaged in a conspiratorial
conversation with another, older woman.  He fretted at the glances that
the other woman cast in his direction, and he tried to avert his glance
and appear detached.  Finally he was summoned over by Jane and
introduced (with the loathsome feminine soubriquet "Michelle") to a
woman named Miss Brenda Franson.  She was near Jane's age, an
attractive woman wearing a tailored tan suit but with and elaborate
frilled jabot blouse which added much femininity to her working attire.
Her hair was carefully styled and she imparted the look of a woman with
taste and style who took great pains with appearance.  She was, Michael
learned, the co-owner and manager of this department.  He took in the
somewhat wry grin she graced him with, and the tone of her voice and
suspected strongly that she, like the girls back in the salon, was one
of Jane's intimates in this game of feminization.  That suspicion was
validated as they waled through the store, and Miss Franson spoke
softly in his direction.

"I hope you have learned well from Jane, young man.  You wouldn't
wasn't to broadcast your real self to my salesgirls or all these
customers.  Michael blanched, eyeing the half-dozen young women clerks
waiting on an equal number of shoppers.

They proceeded through the shop toward its rearmost area.  Michael saw
a couple of unaccompanied women, probably mothers or aunts shopping for
a niece or daughter.  Three other women had girls in tow.  Some of them
were examining the dresses and skirts that hung on the racks and
display stands throughout the store.  At one brightly lit alcove of
mirrors, a girl his own age was holding up a pale rose dress to herself
in that way that women have of doing as they visualize how a garment
looks before trying it on.  This place was, he sensed, a most feminine
domain and one that, scarcely two weeks before, he would have been
loathe to even be seen in.

The quartet marched toward an arch which separated the main store from
a smaller area.  There were fewer racks here, but many more mirrors.
Two small settees, covered in off-white watered silk thrust their
curved feet into the plush gold carpet.  To one side stood a circular
pouf upholstered in velvet of the same off-white shade.  The valances
were draped with diaphanous fabric, lending an elegant air to the room.
A panel of switches and knobs suggested that the lighting was
adjustable.  To one side was a small raised platform like a tiny stage,
and beneath the shallow proscenium arch were other lights, these with
colored lenses.  Michael guessed that fashion shows were held here.
The room itself was probably a semi- private viewing and selection room
where wealthy mothers could have their debutante daughters model
prospective purchases.  Michael grew a little weak as he realized he
was the likely exhibition today.

Jane and Miss Franson were examining the dresses and other garments
that were hung in the room, including both casual and formal outfits.
There was a large display of diaphanous, dainty gowns.  Michael would
be made to try them all on, Jane thought.  It would be a most absorbing
time for her, and an instructional and humiliating one for her young
charge.

Jane spent a lot of money in this store, as she would today, and that
fact afforded her the near undivided attention of one or two of the
salesgirls, or, as today, the manager herself.  Not that money was any
object or obstacle, for in addition to Jane's own, she had virtually
unlimited carte blanche from Michael's own Mother.  Michael was about
to star in his first fashion show, and Jane would manage to ensure him
an excruciatingly uncomfortable time of it.

Michael, resplendent in his elegant curls and professionally made up,
sat despondently on the velvet pouf and gazed at his image in the
mirror.  He noticed to one side that there was a long walnut table on
which were arranged an array of lingerie and other intimate attire.  He
surmised that all the items here had been pre- selected by Miss Franson
at Jane's behest.  Not that exhausting these items would necessarily
limit the length of his ordeal.  From front to back of the store were
racks of more of the despised female paraphernalia.  For the next sixty
minutes or more, he was going to be subjected to true abasement.  He
saw a small zippered case on the table and assumed they had even
prepared for the possibility that a touch-up of his makeup might be
needed.  It would be an agonizing prospect, here in public.

He glanced out through the archway to survey the prospect of intruding
glances.  Though the shop was off the path of the mall corridors, he
was aware that passing patrons could observe what happened in most of
the interior.  His relief, therefore, at the semi-seclusion of this
room, was tempered by that fact.  Once or twice he caught the passing
voyeur unobtrusively eyeing the women shopping in the store.  In
addition, several more women and girls were shopping, two with their
husbands or boyfriends in tow.  As patrons passed the fitting area
where he would be trying on gowns and dresses and petticoats, these
strangers would easily be able to view him resplendent in feminine
finery.  The prospect made him wonder if they would notice anything
amiss.  Would anything about him, he wondered, convey to them that he
was not, in fact a girl, but a male masquerading as one:  an
unfortunate boy condemned to parade as a sissy in organdy and satin at
Jane's demand?

The women ended their conversation and Jane beckoned him to come over.
As he approached, Miss Franson reached into an alcove and parted the
draped curtain which hid the doorway to a small alcove of a fitting
room.

"Go in and slip out of your dress and slip, Michael, dear.

Someone will be along in a minute to help you."

Michael prayed that the "someone" would not be some stranger who would
further add to his anxiety about all this.  To his consternation,
however, a girl of about twenty came into the room just as he was
removing the slip.  He had nothing on but a bra and panties.

"Hi, hon," she said with a smile.  "I'm Sally and Miss Franson wants me
to help you."

Her words did not clue Michael in as to whether or not she thought of
him as a girl or was in on the conspiracy.  He decided to play it safe,
threw back a wan smile and busied himself hanging the dress and slip he
had just removed.

Sally carried a pair of tap pants of brilliant satin and a matching
camisole.  These she laid down on the bench along with a camisole and
petticoat.  She exited the room, and Michael presumed that he was to
get into these new items.  Taking advantage of the solitude of the
room, he slipped out of the panties he wore and into the tap pants and
cami.  The petticoat was just being pulled into place when the curtain
parted and Miss Franson came in to observe that he had donned new
lingerie and then summoned him back out into the larger room.

Though this area of the shop where dresses and lingerie were shown and
modeled was separate from and hidden from the rest of the store, it was
brightly lit and adorned with mirrors.  Standing there in his petite
camisole and petticoats, his shoulders bare except for the spaghetti
straps, as Jane and the salesgirl chattered about the dresses on
display, he felt exposed and insecure.  He was an object on display in
these shimmering skirts, and the occasional patron who glanced his way,
though they found nothing untoward in seeing a girl in her underwear,
made him feel imperiled nonetheless.  He remained as motionless and
unnoticed as he could, a feat not uncomplicated in this apparel.

One by one dresses and gowns of many variations were brought and he was
put in them.  Each time, Jane bade him to either stroll around the room
or to mount the stage so that the trio of women could observe the
clothing on him and chatter about each.  From time to time Jane
indicated her choice of the garments he modeled, and he knew that that
item was being purchased for his future use.

Beth remained peculiarly aloof from all of this and her silence was a
bit bewildering to Michael.  He reminded himself to ask her about this
when they got home.

It then came time to find the costume that he was to wear in some
parade they had babbled about.  The first gown Jane selected was
ante-bellum, like something out of Gone With the Wind.  It was a
tightly bodiced dress with sleeves that exposed the shoulders.  The
skirt overflowed in a plethora of layers comprised of sheer organdy
over a satin underskirt.  In order to wear this dress properly, he was
made to don still more petticoats which billowed the skirt outward.  In
the interest of time, he was not required to don the other
undergarments that went with this ensemble:  ruffled pantalettes and a
chemise that laced with thin ribbons of velvet.

But Sally, the salesgirl, gushed to Jane about the historical
authenticity of these wispy undergarments.  Instead, she had him
temporarily don a strapless bra in the fitting room.  This requirement,
needless to say, discomfited him greatly, for he feared she would
notice some manliness about him that would negate his girlish pretense.
He made sure that he fastened the initial clasp, holding the foam pads
of his bogus breasts in place, and only sought her assistance in
fastening the other hooks he could not reach.  he was sure she either
did not notice or was too polite to make mention.

He next was put into a satin princess gown of white and silver whose
ruffled hem brushed the floor.  For this outfit, his feet were thrust
into silvery slippers.  It was regal and very exquisite.  As with each
item he modeled, he was made to cavort about the area, prompted by Jane
to pirouette the skirts and to strike poses that she found to be most
becoming.

After two hours of trying on gowns and dresses and skirts, and array of
articles had been chosen and consigned for delivery.

Michael was glad to be back in the less flamboyant dress he had donned
that morning and even more relieved when the car finally pulled up at
the house.

They carried a profusion of gaily wrapped packages into the house, and
more were to be delivered by messenger.  In addition to the array of
feminine attire that hung in Michael's closets and teemed in the
drawers, these new items were to be added.



9.  Chapter



It had been nearly ten weeks since Michael's arrival.  Jane found
herself up early one morning, having her coffee on the terrace.  She
mused about the events of the last ten weeks and wondered to herself if
she were making progress.

In the frenzied days that followed through the weekend and into Monday,
Michael had been exposed to more femininity and girlish activity than
he had probably ever imagined possible.  The curiosities, sights and
smells of living a girl's life were thrust on him at a dizzying pace.
There were mannerisms and postures to assimilate.  He was made to
practice for hours with rollers and makeup, his arms tiring from the
unfamiliar reach required to roll the wands into his hair.  He learned
about colors and combinations in clothes, shoes and accessories.  He
practiced curtseys, polite phraseology and locutions that sounded
effete to his male ear.  Adjectives that he would have shunned at all
costs as a boy began to seep into his speech.

Indeed, speech and mannerisms were the hallmarks.  Inflection conveyed
more than anything, Jane tutored, and Michael chafed as he mimicked the
exaggerated intonations she prompted.  He practiced gestures and
walking and light hints of poise like tidying his hair and the right
way to examine his face and dresses in a mirror.

He was ceaselessly being fussed over by all three of them, and was
taught to busy himself with dainty little details.  He spent hours
perfecting the application of a myriad of colors to his face, his
nails.  He was required to submerge himself in bubbly baths, shaving
practically invisible hairs from his legs and arms.  It was a seemingly
perpetual routine that started early in the day and ran till late at
night.

He was not only taught to adopt a facile walk in pumps, but to become
nimble at daintily swaying an ankle while balanced on the other foot.
She taught him the girlish positioning of the hands on hips as opposed
to the "arms akimbo" stance of a man; crossing the legs just right when
sitting, exposing just the right amount of leg beneath the hem of the
skirt; care in both sitting and rising from a chair so that the
movement flowed gracefully and smoothly.

He mimicked the subtle and vain fluff of the hair that primped it in
place, and though he seemed self-conscious with these and other
mannerisms, managed a passable impersonation of a girl doing these
things.  Jane especially liked to demand that he manage that genuinely
winsome manner of correcting makeup while others were watching so that
the actions seemed less pragmatic than attractive.  She delighted in
the fact that his self-consciousness was intensified when she made him
do this.

All of these subtleties had eluded Michael when, as a boy, he watched
girls.  There was so much to learn and master and Jane was determined
that he would do so.

Without question, she thought, Michael had reached that point where he
acquiesced to the demands she placed on him as to clothing and manner.
But there lurked beneath his resignation an element of defiance which
undermined her aspirations to subdue his will.  Something had to be
devised that would prompt his absolute subservience to her will and
submission to her desire to correct his attitude.

Jane knew that Michael had not totally given in to his fate, and she
also knew she needed to find some stratagem that would finally break
his rebelliousness.  It was this thought that occupied her thoughts
that morning.

She thought over the highlights of the weeks since that first visit to
Marisha Chalet.  To be sure, there had been others, but it was the day
of the pageant that provoked both the most marvelously distressing
reaction and the major turnabout in the boy.

Michael had been quite sullen at breakfast that morning, his demeanor
no doubt a direct result of his profound dread over the events that
awaited him that day.  The day began early, both Michael and Beth were
at the breakfast table by 6:45, dressed only on jeans and tank tops.
They were both due at Marisha Chalet by 7:30 to be dressed, coiffed and
made-up.  The pageant parade began at 10:30, and they had to be at the
marshalling area half an hour before.  That gave Carol and Sandy just
over two hours to do their magic and turn the two boys into ravishing
young debs.

Marie had seen to the delivery of their gowns to the salon the evening
before and was now packing an overnight case with the shoes and other
essentials that would complete the ensembles.  After a quick cup of
coffee and danish, the two were summoned by Jane to join her in the car
for the trip to town.

Michael's dread of ordeal of the beauty salon were even stronger today
than they had ever been before, for he knew that this visit would be
decidedly different than the previous sessions.  For one thing, Carolyn
and Sandra had always seen him fully dressed as a girl before.  Today
he had been told to wear only panties, jeans and a tank top.  Today, he
knew, the two salon owners were going to be more actively involved in
his transformation -- a chore that they not only suggested to Jane but
which they avidly implored her to allow them.  It would be even worse
than the first time that Marie had forced him to submit to her
feminizing endeavors that first day.

Secondly, he knew that the two women who owned the shop relished their
upcoming assignment and would not only outdo their previous techniques
on him, but would likely surpass them, and there would also be more of
the derisive, teasing prattle that so debased him.

And finally, he knew that when they were done he would have to step out
into the summer day and take his place on the Cotillion Float, adorned
as a sweet, delicate debutante in a ball gown, to be seen by the
hundreds of onlookers that would line the parade route.  For several
hours, during the parade and after, he would be obliged to appear
adorable and feminine, convincingly masquerading with girlish manners
and poise.

It would be most humiliating.

They arrived at the salon at 7:10.  The shop was not open to general
patrons that morning, Carolyn and Sandra having re- scheduled their
customers to ensure no one except the pageant participants would
consume their time and attention.

Inside, two of the assistant beauticians were busy fashioning curls on
two of the other "girls" that Michael recognized from the one brief
rehearsal he had attended with Beth.  They nodded and smiled casually
at him and Beth when they came in.  Another girl sat idly reading a
magazine, her head enclosed in the clear bonnet of a hair dryer.

Carolyn saw them first and she and Sandra came over to them not hiding
their gleeful anticipation.  Both of them cast a mischievous smile at
Michael.  Carolyn turned Beth over to one of the assistants who was
idle and then both women led Michael into a small anteroom at the rear
of the main salon.

"Michelle can getting fitted and dressed while Beth gets worked on,"
Carolyn said rather loudly to Jane, perhaps seeking to explain to the
other three patrons the atypical practice of using the back room when
so many of the regular stations were free.  Jane responded that she
would be back in about an hour.

Once inside the small private alcove, Sandra drew the curtain that
separated the room from the rest of the salon.  Michael saw that the
gowns that he and Beth were to wear hung from pegs against one wall,
their tiered ruffled skirts and satiny bodices a bright pastel contrast
against the ivory wallpaper.

Sandra turned to him.

"Well, little man, I have been really looking forward to this," she
said with a devilish grin.  "We'll allow you a little privacy in here
as long as you behave.  We don't want those 'real' girls in the next
room to see what you have underneath those pants unless we have to.
Start getting undressed."

He hesitated at this command as Sandra turned and busied herself
opening the overnight bag they had brought with them, and as Carolyn
entered the room and re-drew the curtain behind her.  Carolyn noted his
indecision and added her own warning.

"Come on, Michael, get stripped", she murmured seductively, "unless you
want to do this striptease out there," gesturing over her shoulder.
"Sandy and I want to watch you change from the skin out.  We don't get
to do this all the time like Jane does, and you're not going to deprive
us of our fun....before i go out and make a very embarrassing
announcement."

Michael blushed deeply.  Even Jane, Beth and Marie had allowed him a
modicum of modesty when they dressed him, but it was clear that he was
not going to receive that consideration at the hands of these two.  He
diffidently pulled the tank top over his head while he considered his
predicament.

"Off with the jeans," Sandra insisted, and he loosened the buttons and
slid the denim down his legs and over his shoes.  The fabric stuck,
requiring him to slip out of the sneakers as well.  When he was done
with this, he stood there clad only in the white briefs.

Carolyn was eyeing him during all this and tapped her foot at his
hesitance at removing the underpants.  Finally she came over to him and
brushed her hand against their fabric.

"Cotton!  well cotton is no fabric for a pretty little sissy to have
against his butt.  Take them off.  We've got some darling undies for
you to put on."

There was no way out, and as timorously as he could, he took off the
pants and stood there, shy and flustered.

"Well look there, Sandy, he really is a boy," Carolyn said tauntingly.
"It's hard to believe it, the way he looks when he comes in here."

"Or how he's going to look when we get done with him," Sandy put in.

It was at moments like this that Michael's thoughts strayed back to
school and he wished he could relive those errors that brought him to
this.  That feeling was even more acute as he stood butt-naked in front
of these two women who displayed more enthusiasm for what they were
about to do than even Jane did.

Sandra walked over to him and rubbed the palm of her hand over his
legs, causing a stir of excitement.  Obviously not pleased with the
faint trace of stubble she found there, she picked up an appliance with
a coil like a door spring at one end, turned it on and applied its
buzzing, twisting spiral to his legs.  Her proximity and his condition
had an initial effect on him as he felt the stirrings of turgidity and
prayed that his involuntary reaction would not blossom into fullness in
front of them.

The needle-sharp stings of the tool she was using as it plucked the
soft hairs from his legs had a placating effect on his reflexive
reaction and it abated momentarily.  Sandra quickly finished her task
and his legs stung from the treatment.  It did not seem that what she
did was that significant, and Michael began to think that it was more a
symbolic than a practical exercise.  Sandra obviously wanted to go
through the motions of subjecting a boy to depilation.

Carolyn came forward with a lacy satin garter belt

"I presume you know what this is for and how to get it on," she said as
she handed it to him.

He slipped the belt up over his hips and adjusted the garter straps to
their proper locations.  He wished she would hand him a pair of panties
next so that he could cover the growing mass of his manhood which was
becoming visible now.  As if they read his thoughts, Sandra came over
with a pair of nylons and pushed him gently but firmly into a straight
backed chair, rolling one stocking down and inserting the toe of his
foot into it, temptingly drawing it up over his calf and thigh.  She
fastened the front of the stocking, repeated the process with his other
leg, then had him stand and bend forward slightly as she drew each up
tightly, adjusted the seams and fastened the rear garter.  By the time
she had finished, he was fully erect.

"Well, Michael!  Look at you.  Why you must enjoy this immensely to get
so big and hard."

He blushed scarlet.  He hoped her voice did not carry into the salon.
He felt immensely foolish standing there clad in garter and hose with a
prominent erection jutting out under the lace of the garter belt.  He
knew from experience that lately he had been more prone to become
stimulated when he put on these kinds of clothes, but it was also due
to their presence and the provocative way in which they were both
manipulating him.

"If we had more time," Sandra continued, "I might put that doohickey to
good use -- but that will have to wait to another time.  I hate to
cover it up, but it's time to get our little sissy pretty."

She handed him a pair of ruffled blue nylon panties, trimmed in lace
and small satin blue bows.

"Carolyn picked these out just for you.  If this were a wedding it
would be the 'something borrowed and something blue', Michael.  But for
today they are just the cutest thing for our little boy."

He felt a mixture of relief at being able to cover his nakedness and
irritation at their teasing.  He pulled the panties snugly onto his
hips and swooned for a moment as the soft fabric nuzzled his glans.

"Very dainty," Carolyn said approvingly.  They're tight enough to pull
in that swelling of yours, but I suggest you try to keep it under
control today or you're going to give yourself away.  Like Sandy says,
maybe we can do this again sometime when we can all have some fun.
Now, little sweetheart, we need a little bosom to make you beguiling."

Carolyn took a brush from a bottle she held and applied a liquid
adhesive in circles around his own nipples.  He felt the chill as the
solvent evaporated and when it had become tacky, she carefully fastened
a pair of flesh-colored breast forms whose texture and coloration were
remarkably lifelike.  She molded the breasts in place and then, when
the adhesive had set, applied a flesh-toned foundation and blended it
to his skin, concealing the point at which the latex met his own skin.
The weight of the ersatz breasts pulled against his pectorals and he
decided this was what real breasts must feel like to a girl.

Sandy was ready with a midriff-length lace-trimmed brassiere which she
wrapped around him and began fastening in the rear.  It was strapless
and low-cut, and somewhat tight, causing her to ask him to suck in his
stomach to facilitate the fastening.  The cups of the bra pushed the
false breasts upwards slightly, and the slight constriction of the
brassiere ensured it would not shift during the course of the day.

"Now this costume of yours is very, very authentic, so we need to get
you into the other undies we have for you.  Then we can start on your
hair,' Sandra said.  The two girls fitted him into a corselet decked
with ruffles and eyelet, and a pair of pantalettes that matched.  The
corselet had a laced bodice with velvet ribbons as laces and the legs
of the other garment ended just at his knee.  In all, it was a somewhat
ridiculous garment, but was, he suspected, very authentic to the
ante-bellum time that it related.  Probably just like Scarlett O'Hara
wore, he thought to himself.  He hoped the other girls were to be as
historically correct in their ensembles, for it seemed that this was
what he would wear out into the salon while they did his hair and
make-up.  Carolyn flung the curtain back and he meekly followed them.

His appearance evoked only the most fleeting of glances from the other
girls.  Beth's gaze lingered on him for a moment in the mirror in front
of her.  Beth, too, would be wearing such attire when her hair was
done.

Sandy seated him unceremoniously seated in the adjustable chair at the
work station and wet his hair.  Large and small rollers were coiled
into his hair, to shape it into the style that the women felt
befitting.  She began her usual taunts, whispered into his ears as she
worked, as both girls were wont to do as they applied their wiles on
him.

"We're going to make you very pretty today, love.  Like nothing we're
ever done before.  You are going to be a knockout!"

She gathered new strands of hair and deftly wrapped them on the
rollers.

"Such a pretty little lad," she went on with it.  "You are going to be
a knockout when we get done with you." Another roller in place, she
went on "Gorgeous Michael, all curled and dressed in a lovely gown.  Up
there in front of the whole town and none of them but a few of us
knowing that that captivating young girl is really a sissy boy in
skirts."

He tolerated this invective, having no choice.  He never doubted that
either Sandy or Carolyn would reveal his secret if he gave them
sufficient provocation.

"Are you beginning to like all of this Michael?  Isn't it fun to have
someone work to make you look so pretty and sweet?"

As always, he viewed these taunts as merely rhetorical and he stayed
glum and taciturn.  But today, Carolyn wanted some reaction, so she
persisted.

"We were not just making conversation a while ago about our future
plans for you.  We have already talked to Jane about 'borrowing' you
for the weekend for a trip to New york.  Jane thought it was a
wonderful idea.  We can go shopping, get you some pretty new things,
have lunch, and then see what else comes to pass."

Michael shuddered at what these two might have in mind.

"What exactly do you mean, Sandy?"

"Well, honey, someone as pretty as you deserves a chance to show off a
bit in the big city.  And Sandy and i are just dying to be your guides
for a weekend."

The word guides hid some ulterior and more ominous meaning than it
implied.

"We though next weekend would be fun.  We'll talk to Jane some more and
let you know.  We'll chat some more after your hair is dry."

Fully arrayed in the pastel rollers, he was directed to the chair
beneath to dryer to allow the heated stream of air to dry the curls.
He noted the now-familiar smell of moist hair that flowed into his
nostrils during this procedure.

As his hair dried, he surveyed the room.  Other girls were in varying
stages of preparation, some being made-up, some having their hair
combed out, others entering and emerging from the back room in costume.
All these things awaited him he knew, and he sat docile at his
resignation to the ordeals that would befall him in this next hour.

He let her finish in silence and sat demurely beneath the hair dryer
for the twenty minutes it took to dry the curls.  Beth, by this time,
was in the room he had been in before, and when she emerged, she was
clad as he was, except that she also wore billowing layers of
underslips tiered in sheer ruffles.  Carolyn had already made up Beth's
face and she wore more makeup than Michael had seen her wear at home.
It was as though she was going onstage, which indeed she was, as was
he.  He fought a flutter of queasiness in his stomach that was both
stage fright and outright dread of being in public dressed as he was
going to be.  Beth disappeared into the small alcove at the rear of the
shop with Carolyn.

Sandy came over and slipped her hand under the metal bonnet, and
satisfied that the curls were now dried and set, she switched the
machine off and led him back to her work station.  Seated again, he
endured the removal of the rollers and the familiar sight of his hair
springing back into ringlets as the plastic forms were removed.

She finished extracting the last of the rollers, and gently fluffed the
curls in preparation of the next step.

"I have a lovely fall we're going to try with you today.  What do you
think of this?"

She held up a lifeless mass of a modelled wiglet that had a braided cap
and sausage curls dangling from it.  It appeared to be nothing more
than that, until Carolyn, not waiting for any answer from him, fastened
the comb of the fall into the back of his scalp and busied herself with
arranging his own curls into place.  The color of the fall was a
perfect match to his own hair, probably the result of treatment with
the same hair color they had taken to using on him.  It all matched,
and the effect was most fascinating.  In minutes his medium length
locks had sprouted into a coiffure of elegance that astounded even him.

"Very fetching, darling.  See, I told you we were going to make you
glorious!"

She absorbed herself in the finishing touches for another ten minutes,
each stage of the process making him more uncomfortable as a new and
more feminine visage stared back from the mirror.  When she had done,
he was amazed at the effect she had wrought.

"Sit still her, now, sweetness.  Now I'm going to make you real
spectacular!  God, you are gorgeous!'

He sat still, abashed in his elaborate lingerie and dangling tresses
awaiting the artfulness of this woman who had designs on effecting his
total transfiguration.

"Time for some real glamour, Michael.  A little color for that drab
face of yours.  Then into that gorgeous gown and petticoats.  God you
are going to be a hit.  If these other girls knew just how a boy like
you can outshine their own natural femininity, they would be jealous to
a fair-thee-well."

She began by removing all traces of the meager make-up he had put on
that morning.  His face clean, she spent a meticulous twenty minutes
attaching additional individual false lashes to his own, each glued
inextricably in place.

"You have to hold very still while I do this Michael," Sandy ordered.
"In a way, your own lashes are lavish enough, but Jane insisted I add
some more.  These are very hard to get off, though."

The increased abundance was visible even without the addition of
mascara.  But the mascara came, in three light layers, adding even more
fullness and color.  Then the faint line of sable below and above his
lids, blended and smeared to simply highlight the eyes.  Next a
burgundy shadow, more intense in color than he usually used.

"Your getting pretty good at this, Michael," she whispered softly.
"Isn't it fun having yourself made so stunning and gorgeous?  You
really do make a lovely girl, you know."

As always, Michael let this pass, though the image in the mirror
attested again that she was right.  With the right hair style and
make-up, he was an attractive girl.

"Now some rosy glow to those flawless cheeks of yours.  A bit more than
you are used to, but we want you to look just divine in that parade."

She added a scarlet glow to each cheek, again, as she had warned, more
brilliant than every-day wear, a crescent of vermillion that covered
the cheekbone which blended into a faint ruby shadow at the edges.

"Michael," she said as she worked, "you should let go and enjoy this.
Frankly I think you do, but you take some of the fun out of it for
yourself and the rest of us when you resist it so much."

Without even expecting a response from subdued recipient or her art,
Sandy carefully sketched the outline of his lips in crimson pencil,
then filling in the outline with lipstick, blotting it carefully,
repeating it and then dusting it with translucent powder.

"This will keep those luscious lips rosy all day, lover," she said by
way of explaining this unfamiliar application of cosmetics."

Next a dusting of vermilion blusher capped off his features, and again,
the reflection from the mirror was merely a vaguely familiar and very
feminine replica of himself.

When Sandy was done, she swept the cape away from him and led him back
to the small alcove where he would be put in three layers of
petticoats, swathed in the rich crepe of the gown and his feet encased
in satin pumps.

When he entered the room, he saw another girl there.  It took a moment
for him to recognize that it was Beth.  He was astonished!  Her hair
swirled up in a dazzling styles, with interlacing braids and stiff
curls, garnished with tiny Steffanoti's, she was resplendent.  A lilac
gown of chantilly lace over organdy and satin billowed out over buoyant
petticoats.  She wore long gloves on her arms which matched the gown.
As Beth turned and smiled faintly at him, he saw that the colors of her
makeup set off the ensemble perfectly.  She was truly a beautiful girl!

"You're all done, Beth," Carolyn said.  "You can wait for your friend
in the reception." Beth swept from the room seeming to float on the
skirt which just brushed the floor, giving mere hint to the darker
purple pumps she wore.  Michael was entranced.

The girls now began on him.

Just short of 9:50 they had finished with him, and the reflection he
was invited to view in the full-length mirror bespoke not a boy, but a
lovely, graceful girl bedecked in ante-bellum costume.  Though Michael
felt abused and victimized, yet he was resigned to carry off this
charade to the full, and he had to confess to himself that he inwardly
delighted in the transformation and the perceptions of stimulation that
these clothes and this appearance gave to him.

The dress was a full skirted satin and lace, buoyed out by the layers
of petticoats they had secured to his waist.  The shoulders were bare,
and mere vestiges of sleeves, full and puffed encircled his upper arms.
Satin slippers that accented the gown encased his stocking feet.
Carolyn positioned a broad-brimmed straw hat whose yellow satin ribbon
band dangled fastening strands through the brim, and which she caught
up to anchor the flat bonnet beneath his chin in an enormous golden bow
near his left cheek.  He was, in a word, fetching.  Carolyn and Sandra
were obviously thrilled with their efforts, and cooing and chattering,
propelled him out to the reception area where he and Beth would await
Jane to drive to the parade.

He found Beth standing there, somewhat aloof, looking every bit as
lovely as she had when he had seen her moments before.  Beth took in
his full countenance.  Michael spoke first.

"Beth, you look wonderful!  You truly are a very pretty girl."

Beth smiled, then, glancing out at the parking lot, delivered a
soliloquy which Michael would remember for a long time after.

"That's nice of you to say, Michael, but you should be aware that you
make a far prettier girl than I could ever be.  As I look at you right
now, you may be the prettiest girl I have ever seen.  Oh, I know, you
are Michael, just dressed and done up that way.  But you *do* look
beautiful.  You always do.  You need to understand that.  What Jane
wants, and what you seem to be too dumb to understand, is some delight
and acceptance of all this.  Until you do, it will not only continue to
be an uncomfortable situation for you, but it will have a significant
effect on my future, as well.  If you can't accept all of this,
gracefully, because Jane demands it, then at least think about
embracing it for mine."

Michael was totally perplexed by this last, but before he could probe
deeper into her meaning, Jane's lincoln drew up to the door and the
horn signalled her impatience.  The two "girls" hurried as best they
might out the door and into the spacious car.

Driving to the parade, Michael reflected on what his friend had just
said, for he truly did deem Beth a friend.  She said he was beautiful
as a girl, a thought that caused him some grief but which bolstered his
confidence in the upcoming onus of carrying off this masquerade of the
parade.  But there lingered a big question as to what Beth meant that
his behavior had some influence on Beth's life.  Michael made a mental
note to pursue this with her as the car sped toward the marshalling
area.  Michael confessed to himself that clad in these soft garments
and knowing that he personified the lovely girl he appeared to be, that
he felt a warm, contented feeling.  In a way, this was fun!

Michael and Beth were seated on their respective seats on the float.  A
couple of fussy ladies flounced the skirts of the various girls' gowns
into decorous position, and another busied herself with powder puff and
brushes rectifying flaws in makeup and hair.  Michael fought the sense
of his quandary seated on this satin bench dressed as a young damsel
with the knowledge that he could "pull it off" and avoid disclosure.
The ponderous carriage pulled into its place in the line of floats, and
he busied himself with the pantomime and manner to appear the perfect
young debutante, smiling and waving to the crowd assembled to view the
cavalcade.



10.  Chapter



As Jane sat and pondered further, her underlying problem with Michael,
and reflected on the plan which had begun to form in her mind nearly
two weeks before took shape she had realized that it was complicated in
its inception and diabolical in its consequences.  She leafed again
through the circulars that she received the preceding two weeks and
found the announcement of try- outs for the children's play at the
Hampton Theater.  The flier indicated that the producer/director of the
play was Dierdre Bradley, a woman that Jane not only knew but who was
already in Jane's debt because of an incident that Jane had interceded
in the previous Autumn.  Jane had known that that debt, alone, would be
insufficient to carry out the scheme she had in mind, but she knew also
that other factors would play a part.

When she first read the flier a couple of weeks before, she had called
Dierdre and volunteered her two young charges as potential performers
in the production, identifying them as Beth and Michael, two of her
sister's children.  Beth, she told Dierdre, was a natural for the lead
role, and Jane was certain that Dierdre had picked up on the veiled
insistence that Beth be given special consideration for the role.
Michael, she allowed, was a novice and needed only the broadening
experience of the theater.  Dierdre was sufficiently compliant to
assuage any doubt that she would give Jane's request serious
consideration.  Jane took that pledge as a near surety that if Beth
gave an acceptable audition.

Jane was familiar with Beth's acting ability (she had, after all, had a
leading role in a play just the previous Spring).  That fact made it at
least likely that Beth could get the lead in the auditions, especially
with a word from Jane influencing Dierdre.


   The play was Alice in Wonderland and the try-outs call had indicated
all parts would be open to audition.  To aid in Beth's getting the
part, Jane had bought a copy of the script and commanded Beth to spend
at least an hour a day reading it, memorizing the part.  This
familiarity with the role would help in insuring Dierdre's choice.


   But, of course, Beth's getting the lead role was only a minor factor
in the grand stratagem.  Michael, too, would be involved in the
production, but not in a prominent role at first and not as Michael
would basically have liked it.

Jane recalled that the most terrifying and humbling experience of young
Michael since he had been here had not been when he was dressed as a
girl, but, curiously, when he had been clad in boy's clothing.  He
could and would carry off to near perfection all of her mandates that
required him to be properly attired and behaving as a girl both within
and outside the house.  However much those experiences might have
jarred his equanimity, the had not sufficiently quelled his
recalcitrance.  Jane recalled vividly that the most appalling
experience Michael had endured during his stay was that day he had been
allowed to have his own way and go to town dressed in male rather than
female attire.

Of course, she thought to herself, he was not really afforded an
opportunity that day to totally shed the effeminate trappings that he
had assumed; that was why he had had the encounter with the town
bullies that so unnerved him.  But facts were facts, and Jane knew that
as he now was, Michael would look, at best, an effeminate boy if he
shed the dresses and skirts which comprised his wardrobe.  His arched
eyebrows and medium-long curls evoked a Botticellian cherub which, for
a teen-ager, bespoke a sissy.

Thus it would be.  Michael would join Beth in the theatrical
presentation, but he would be involved as a boy.  She smiled wickedly
to herself as she pondered both the developments and the outcome.

Jane now recognized that she had to have a talk with Michael to apprise
him of this new wrinkle in the game plan.  She was sure that he would
be truly obdurate about the plan to send him out for daily play
rehearsals clad as a boy.  The memory of the scene at the shopping mall
still burned deep within him.  But that was the decision Jane had
arrived at, and he would do it or else.

She advised Beth of her plans in the early afternoon and told Marie to
have Michael join her in her study when Beth had gone.  Beth found the
whole thing rather vicious, feeling that Michael was being subjected to
unusually severe tortures.  But Beth had to also admit that Michael
seemed to fail to grasp what he had to do to escape this anguish that
he found himself in.  Beth had been quick to learn the lesson and, in
part, had found enjoyment in the elements of feminine life to which
Jane subjected her charges.  It was a pity that Michael could not learn
this lesson.

Michael came into Jane's study in mid-afternoon, knowing that these
summonses frequently boded ill for him.  He sat demurely in the chair
before her desk and waited for her to begin.

Jane chewed deliberately on the stem of her reading glasses as she
stared relentlessly at the young man before her.

"Michael, I am disappointed," she began.  "You have, to be sure,
faithfully performed almost every little demand I have placed on you,
but I sense that you have not truly corrected your attitude and that
you see this all as something that will all go away in time.  That is
not what I had in mind.  Though your demeanor has changed and you carry
off the part rather well, I have come to the conclusion that we need to
make a breakthrough here, and I have decided on a way to do it."

Michael felt unnerved at this, wondering what new abuse this woman had
in mind.

"You did well in the dance review," she went on, "even though you had
little time to get proficient.  Nevertheless, as I told you then, you
looked delightful in that little wispy satin costume you had to wear.
And I am sure that you absolutely detested being up there in front of
all those parents pretending that you, too, were one of the winsome
lasses in tap shoes trying hard to be a graceful little girl.  But I
detected a note of resignation mixed with haughtiness about the whole
thing.  I want a stop to that.  You WILL submit to this, in time, you
know, if it takes months."

She noted his wince at this and continued.

"Yes, I mean months.  I am capable and willing to keep you here
indefinitely until I detect from you a surrender of acceptance to this
role I have imposed on you.  When you can say with some degree of
conviction that you enjoy those skirts and petticoats, I will know that
I have done my job.  When you can accept the better half of yourself -
the feminine part -- I will know that I have discharged my duty to
effect your reconstruction as a responsible young adult.  Until then, I
will be relentless in these efforts."

She let this sink in as she hovered over him.

"I spoke to your Mother yesterday and told her of my difficulties.  She
has allowed me to keep you here a bit longer until I convince her I am
satisfied with how you are progressing."

Michael remained speechless, rolling over in his mind both the fact
that his ordeal was to continue longer and by Jane's puzzling
conclusion that more was expected of him.  He thought that he had fully
complied with all of her dictates, and he wondered what more she
wanted.

"So we have a new program for you.  You and Beth are going to be in a
delightful little children's play next month and I have enrolled you
both in the cast."

Another excursion into the community, Michael groaned to himself.  He
dreaded these extended forays out of the house.  Still, he knew, that
he had managed to fool the world thus far, both in the silly Cotillion
Pageant and the even more ridiculous dance review that Jane alluded to.
He had got fairly used to all the affectations that he was compelled to
execute in order to carry off the impersonation.

Indeed, Michael had to admit to himself, he had sort of begun to enjoy
the charade a little.  He had ceased to wonder if there was something
wrong with him in that he had grown fond of the soft touch of silk and
satin on his body and the make-believe aspects of these costumes and
makeup.  Perhaps in part because Sandra and Carolyn, despite their
constant taunting, equated a certain sensuality with his condition, his
sensual response to this masquerade had increased.  The erotic
sensations of it all seemed to heighten as each daily repetition of the
feminine rituals were performed.

It was a conflict of emotions within him:  hating the humiliation,
fearing discovery and disclosure, yet oddly thrilled and stimulated
when he looked into a mirror and saw himself.  Movements and
articulations that appalled him a few weeks ago had become almost
second nature.

"There is a slight twist to this particular exercise, however, Michael.
Beth, of course, will be attending the auditions as she is.  But you,
my dear, will be going not as Michelle, but as Michael, my nephew."

This cryptic remark took more than a moment to fully register with him.
And even then he was not fully cognizant of what she meant.

"I don't understand, Jane.  What exactly do you mean?"

"I mean simply this, my young priss.  You will be attending the
try-outs, and, if you get some part in the play, the rehearsals as
well, dressed as a boy.  It will be your responsibility to be dressed
and as presentable as a boy as you yourself feel necessary each day
that I take you there."

Michael's mind inevitably raced back to that scene at the mall -- the
last time he had ventured out in male attire.  He felt a flush of panic
at a repetition of that unfortunate and terrifying incident.

"Have no fear, I will avoid to the degree that I can the problems of
that last outing.  That time it was your wilfulness that prompted my
setting you up for that occurrence.  I will get you some less
distinctive and more masculine things to wear.  It will be up to you to
do something with your hair and the like to look as presentable as you
can as a boy.  Nevertheless, that is my decision and we begin this
afternoon."

Michael suddenly wished he were miles away.  Bad as it was to sally out
in skirts, he was fearful of appearing publicly as a boy, with these
curls and plucked brows.  He wondered if he could erase every single
trace of cosmetics to ensure that no suspicions were aroused among
those who saw him.  And what if someone recognized him -- someone who
had seen him dressed as a girl?

"Secondly, your "disguise" as a boy is only for those limited times you
are at play practice.  At all other times, and as soon as you return
each day, you will promptly and carefully revert to the winsome lass we
have worked so hard to cultivate.  Is that clear.?"

Michael realized that he had no choice in the matter, as he had no
choice about anything she wished to impose on him.  Resigned to the
inevitable, he told her he understood, and turned his thoughts to the
challenge of mastering this duality she had thrust on him.

"Fine, she said.  Now, if you like, you may go change.  Mind you there
is only about an hour before we go.  I want you down here in exactly
sixty minutes ready to leave.  Marie has taken some new clothes up to
your room.  And another thing:  you are forbidden to ask either Marie
or Beth for assistance in this endeavor.  What you accomplish in this
reverse make-over is strictly up to you.  Now run along."

Jane watched the troubled boy curtsy, as he had been ordered to do,
then mince out of the study.  She smiled at the prospect of Michael
anxiously restyling his hair and searching zealously for the slightest
hint of makeup or nail enamel.  Jane suspected he would achieve a
passable look, but she was fully aware that even in trousers, the curls
and delicate arch of his brows he would achieve, at best, less than the
all-american boy look.

Michael returned to his room disconsolate.  His first reaction was to
check on the clothes that Jane had promised would be there, and he
found them in one section of the large closet in the room.  They were,
indeed, more masculine than the clothing she had foisted him the time
before.  Corduroys, boy's gabardines and real shirts and pull-overs.
The shoes were there too, not the ambiguous penny loafers, but real
laced oxfords.  There were dark blue sox on top of the chest of
drawers, but he saw no male underwear anywhere, and a thorough search
of the drawers disclosed none.  The "male facade" was to be just that,
and he resigned himself to having to wear panties beneath it all,
wishing that he had at least one pair of cotton underpants.  Such was
not the case.

He doffed his skirt and blouse and slipped out of the hose, slip and
bra.  He decided to take another shower, after he had carefully removed
the makeup he had painstakingly applied just hours before.  He began by
rubbing each nail with a cotton ball heavily saturated with polish
remover.  He wished he had not selected the pink shade, for remnants of
clear nail polish would be less noticeable.  He could do noting about
the length of the nails.  Though they were not overly long, he
suspected they were longer than a boy could reasonably get by with.  He
debated filing them shorter, but remembered the other part of Jane's
directive that he had to resume his guise as Michelle when he came
home.  She would most likely remonstrate him for trying this.
Nevertheless, he took an emery board and filed them down slightly.

He applied cream and make-up remover three times before he was
satisfied no trace remained.  He jumped into the shower and scrubbed
thoroughly, removing any trace of scent that would alert a passerby.
When he was done, he picked out a pair of the least frilly panties he
could find and put on a white shirt and the cords.  As he laced the
oxfords, he felt an odd sense of deja vu being back in these clothes
again.

He sat at the vanity with brush and hair dryer trying diligently to
tone down the ringlets, achieving, finally, what he felt was a passable
male hairstyle.  It was far too curly, and the hot steam of the shower
seemed to have intensified that.  It would have to do.

With only moments to spare, he arrived downstairs in the foyer.
Neither Beth nor Jane said a word to him, but Jane seemed to smile a
little ruefully as they marched out the door to the car.  He was not
particularly reassured.  He began to effect a more boyish air, and
prayed fervently to himself that he would not forget and lapse into a
turn of speech or gesture that would be misinterpreted.

They arrived at the community hall which served as the home of the
little theater groups that thrived in the area.  Inside, an assembly of
over forty boys and girls were seated in the auditorium seats and two
adults were conversing near the apron of the stage.  Jane told the pair
to seat themselves and she strode to the front to speak with one of the
women.

Michael and Beth took seats slightly removed from the rest of the
group.  Michael could see that many of the other teenagers were friends
or acquaintances, engaged as they were in affable banter.  In age they
ranged from 10 through 15, younger in age that either Beth or Michael,
but then both of Jane's charges appeared more youthful than their
actual years and so they did not stand out in age from this group.

Michael was aware of some stares that were directed his way and could
not be sure if they were the mere curiosity toward a new boy or if, as
he always feared, some inadvertent sign was communicating something odd
about him.  He avoided the stares and waited patiently to see what was
to unfold.

After a few minutes time, one of the women walked onto the stage in
front of the curtain and began to call the group to order.  A roster of
names was read off, and each youngster responded.  When Michael's name
was called, he replied "Here" and once again noticed the inquisitive
stares now that a name had been placed with the strange new boy in the
group.


   The woman identified herself as Miss Bishop and then went on to
outline the rules of conduct for those who wanted to participate in the
play.  Today, she said, they would all be given a chance to read parts
if they wished.  She listed the various roles that were available and
assured the gathering that everyone would have a chance to participate
in the production.

Miss Bishop called for volunteers who wished to read parts, and Beth,
as she had been instructed, raised her hand.  Michael was unsure what
to do, and since he had not received instructions from Jane on this
point, elected not to raise his hand.  Those who had volunteered were
directed to come down to the front rows, and Michael now found himself
alone and apart from the group as Beth walked down the aisle.

The curtains opened to a relatively bare stage where some signs of set
construction were evident.  Miss Bishop passed out copies of small
script books and selected several boys and girls to read assigned
roles.  In small groups of 3 or three, she had each mount the stage and
read the lines of their designated characters.

During the auditions, there were the usual gaffes and stilted
deliveries that always accompany first readings.  But Beth, who was
called on to read the part of Alice twice, delivered her lines as
though she had studied them in advance, which of course, unbeknownst to
anyone but Jane she had.  As a result of Beth's more polished delivery,
she stood out from the other girls who read the part, and, to Michael,
she seemed a shoo-in for the role.

After all the reading trials had been completed, And after consultation
between Miss Bishop and Andrea, the other woman who was assisting her,
she announced that the assignment of parts would be announced the
following afternoon.  Now she had all those who had not opted for
speaking parts to walk across the stage.  She separated them into
various groups, took notes and again deliberated with her associate.
Gradually the groups were whittled down to categories ranging from 3 to
8.  Then this group, too, was told that the parts they would perform
would be announced the following day.

After an hour and a half of this, the assembly was dismissed with
instructions to return at 1:30 the following day.

On the way home, Jane bubbled with praise for Beth's presentation and
expressed her certainty that the role of Alice would go to Beth.  In
anticipation of this, and to guarantee that Beth would do a stellar
job, Michael was told that he would have to work with Beth at home to
assist her in getting her lines and movements down pat.

"Beth," she said, "I think you did splendidly.  Now we have to be sure
that you carefully learn the part and outshine all the other actors in
the performance.  I think I will have Michael help you.  You'll help
Beth, won't you, Michael," she said, looking into the rear-view mirror.
Feeling more than a small amount of comradeship with Beth, Michael said
"Of course."

"There," Jane said.  "It's settled.  You will spend some extra time
together getting Beth into the role.  Besides, Michael, it will be good
for you too.  Let me tell you, as a teacher, there is much to be said
for memorization of things.  And despite the apparent nonsense, Lewis
Carroll has much substance in his writing."

Michael did not respond.  He stared out the window as he thought to
himself that he had always excelled at rote memory while at school,
quickly and effortlessly learning obscure passages of poems and
orations assigned by the school masters to his class.  He could
probably learn Beth's lines faster than she could, and likely would.
At any rate, this new task that Jane suggested would alleviate the
boredom that had lately been creeping into the life at the house.

They arrived home and, as he was bidden, Michael bustled to his room to
change.  He hung the male togs in the closet with a hint of remorse,
and changed into the skirt and blouse that were on the day's agenda.
With a touch of make-up and some remedial measures to his hair, he
returned to the library to find Beth already studying from the little
yellow playbook.

"Hi," she said.  "Wanna help?"

"Sure," he allowed, and she produced a duplicate copy of the script for
him.  "Let's start at the beginning, just learning lines for a while."

Within an hour they had finished three pages of the book and Michael
knew that by the morning, if he spent another hour alone at it, he
would be able to commit all of Alice's lines and cues within those
three pages to memory.  By the end of the session, Michael was
correcting Beth's miscues virtually from memory.

Jane got the call from Dierdre just before dinner.

"Jane, I was quite impressed with your niece today.  Andrea and I have
decided to give Beth the part.  I thought I'd let you know.

"Well," Jane replied, "that's splendid.  I told you that you wouldn't
be disappointed, Dierdre."

"I will be making the announcements at tomorrow's rehearsal.  I'd
prefer you have Beth keep this a secret for the time being and act a
little surprised.  No sense in appearing to play favorites."

"Of course, Dierdre," Jane said as she smiled to herself.

"Are you sure that Michael shouldn't be considered for a part?  He
really is a darling boy." Dierdre proffered.

"No, Dierdre.  I think it would be good for him just to get his feet
wet in theater and keep Beth company.  There will be time in future.
Actually, I think in time he might do well.  But it may be asking a bit
much of him right now."

"Well, as you see fit.  Anyway, I will talk to you later.  And thank
you, Jane."

"My pleasure, Dierdre," Jane said, realizing that it was, in fact, more
her blessing than Dierdre's.

After dinner, and the announcement that Beth had, indeed, got the part,
Michael sat in his room setting his hair and preparing for bed.  As he
twisted his hair on the rods, the seeds of a little game began forming
in his mind.  He remembered Jane's outspoken praise of Beth's efforts
in the car that morning, and her beaming approval at dinner when she
announced that Beth had the lead in the play.  Michael knew that his
ability to master the lines exceeded that of his female friend.  What
if, he thought, I mastered the lines before Beth and even better than
she?  It would undoubtedly stick in Jane's craw that Michael, her
annoyance, would outshine Beth, the pet, in this rote memory exercise.
The old witch would be furious about that, but would be able to say
little about it.  After all, the suggestion that he assist Beth had
come from Jane and Michael could not help it if he had this facility
with memorization.  The prospect of this little turnabout made him
smile to himself.

In fact, Michael thought, I will go one step further.  He remembered
Beth's admonition to him a few days earlier in the beauty shop.  She
had called it "giving in to Jane's demands," as a means to evading her
continued displeasure with him.  That advice had been on his mind
constantly since it had been spoken, especially the part that Beth had
added that the termination of his exile here would end more swiftly if
he exhibited some resignation to Jane's corrective measures.

If he were honest with himself, Michael thought, he had actually grown
to fancy the feel of satins and laces on his skin and the rustle of
slips in these last few weeks.  The sensuality of those fabrics,
especially in sensitive areas, was unmistakable.  Moreover, the
pretense of dressing as a girl and carrying out the masquerade
successfully was, in itself, a small drama in which he was the star
player.  Now that he knew that he could credibly portray a girl, he
realized some small delight in the practice.

He still rebelled outwardly, sometimes, in a vain attempt to project
his sublimated masculinity.  Bit that rebellion, he realized, got him
nowhere, and, as Beth had cautioned, only exacerbated his situation.
As long as he accommodated the few women who subjected him to all this,
he seemed less likely to incur the taunts and new plots hatched by Jane
and her confederates.

In fact, he knew that if he displayed more acceptance with Carolyn and
Sandra, they would relent in their mocking.  He would try that on his
next visit.

He wanted this to end, and soon, and to return to his normal life.  He
knew now that that prospect was his choice to make.  He wished that he
had realized this earlier.  Perhaps then he would not be attending play
practice dressed as an unconvincing and delicate-looking boy, and
would, instead, be clad in the more convincing girl's attire.  For as
much as he tried to mask the fragileness he manifested when in boys
clothes, the length and curl of his hair, and the plucked arch of his
brow and fullness of the false lashes defied camouflage.  He knew he
was in for a lot of problems with some of the other boys; that day he
had seen the mocking glances and heard the muted derisive laughter from
some of them today.  He dreaded the possible discovery of even the
faintest trace of cosmetics or nail enamel, and was diligent in his
checking for them.  He prayed no one would ever see the panties he was
made to wear beneath the trousers.

He resolved to change his attitude.

The next day the award of parts was announced to the assembly and play
books distributed.  Beth did a credible job of seeming surprised, and
accepted the script she was given as though she had never seen it
before.

Michael was assigned with a group of other boys to a small part that
would require a short song and a dance, and the group was further
designated to work on scenery.  As the newly assigned speakers mounted
the stage to begin practicing, Michael and the other boys were led by
Andrea to the workshop backstage and put to work with paintbrushes
decorating the scenery flats.

It was here, when Andrea left the room, that the teasing began.

"Does your mommy curl your hair for you, Mikey?" As the other boys
giggled at this, Michael saw that it had come from A boy of 14 named
Matt Page.  He was a leader of the group, though not all the boys
deferred to his arrogance.  Michael elected to let the slur pass and
continued painting.

"You sure are a pretty little thing, Mikey," the taunts went on.  "Bet
you have more dolls than baseball gloves to play with at home."

Michael suffered these indignities in silence as the chorus was picked
up by some of the others.

"He's prettier than half the girls in this show." one said.  "C'mon,
sissy.  Kitty-cat got your tongue?" Not going to cry now are you?"

Michael's lack of reaction to all of this did not quell the taunts, but
they changed from direct confrontation to jokes made about him in the
abstract, third person.  He felt growing embarrassment, but he
instinctively reasoned that any retort would prove fruitless and, most
likely, provocative.  He had no desire to get into a confrontation with
any of these boys.  He kept working, feigning a sense of obliviousness.
Fortunately Andrea came back in the room and her presence muzzled the
aspersions.  Though the vocal abuse stopped, he could still hear the
whispers and stifled titters.  He was an outsider who presented a
convenient foil to the cruelties of a group of bonded teen-age boys.

Andrea stayed the rest of the session, working on costumes with three
of the girls.  At 3:30 the group was dismissed, and Michael hurried to
find Beth in the theater, avoiding the small gang.  Marie was waiting
to take them home.

"Why so glum, Michael?" Beth said, as she stood by the vanity in his
room and watched him re-apply his makeup.

"I got a little teasing today, Beth.  I'm sure it's just the beginning,
Jane has really pulled a rotten trick on me, making me go there as a
boy.  I'm going to have a bunch of trouble with some of those guys, I'm
afraid."

"Try to forget it, Michael," she counseled.  "You wouldn't find
yourself in this mess if you had just gone along with her before.  I
worry about you sometimes.  She's just punishing you because you won't
get the message and give in.  You have to go along and get along --
both here at home and at rehearsal.  I'll help you, but you are the one
who has to change before the situation is going to change."

He thought about this and found it reinforced his thoughts of the
previous evening.

"I'll try Beth.  I really will.  But I felt like punching that asshole
this afternoon."

"For gods sake!  Don't do anything stupid like that.  If you get kicked
out of this play group she will really come down on you.  This play
will be over in another 5 or 6 weeks and then you won't have to worry
about it.  It's only a couple of hours a day.  Maybe I can speak to
Miss Bishop."

"Let's not just yet.  I'll try to work it out.  Thanks, Beth.  You
really are a good friend."

By the end of the third week of rehearsals, the direct confrontation
with Matt Page and the more vocal of his cronies had diminished.
Michael was still an outsider and subject to occasional verbal abuse,
but status had been set, And now that they had bored of continuing to
demean him, he had simply been relegated to the permanent role of
"Sissy Mickey", the belittling appellation they had hung on him.

In part they had laid off him because he endured the mockery with no
response.  In no small degree, he also thought, it became increasingly
difficult for the group to treat him with derision given the fact that
they, themselves, had to don darling little costumes and learn and
practice a fetching little song and dance routine that was their part
in the play.  Moreover, Michael detected a note of sympathy from some
of the boys --they were not all as bullying as Page.  Once one of
Page's flunkies had challenged Michael to a fight, and before things
got out of hand, Ted Wyatt had stepped in and told the tormentor to lay
off.  Michael was more than grateful to Ted.

There was a girl in the cast that Michael was attracted to.  Her name
was Karen Austin, and Michael thought her to be one of the prettiest
girls he had ever seen.  Karen was over seventeen.  a little older than
the other cast members.  He went out of his way to talk to her when she
was alone and not amid the gaggle of girls, for he knew that if he
spent too much time with groups of the girls he would open the door to
more torment from the Page bunch.

Nevertheless, Karen was very special.  She had warm blue eyes and
gorgeous blond curls.  She was kind to him and more than once censured
the teasing that she knew he received from the others.

"Michael," she had said to him one day.  "Don't let them get to you.
We are all made the way we are, and I, for one, think you are cute.  I
don't think you are a sissy like the others.  As a matter of fact, I
like curly-headed boys." She smiled as she said this, making him feel
at ease, as she had intended.

Karen, as it turned out, lived a life not unlike his own, in the sense
that she was alone.  Her mother was deceased and her Father worked for
a large oil company that required him to travel a lot.  She lived with
a grandmother, had made very few friends since she came to Hampton
three months before, and seemed rather lonely.  She had tried out for
this play in hopes of meeting some new friends, yet Michael, she had
said, was the closest friend she had made.  The girls in the class were
cliquish, and, besides, none lived near her.  She was desperately
lonely for Bethesda, Maryland where the family had lived before her
father's last promotion.

Michael was very sympathetic and solicitous of the loneliness she
expressed, for he, too, felt that loneliness that accompanies an
uprooting and new surroundings.  He felt sad that after the play was
over the likelihood of seeing Karen again would fade and they would
both be diminished by that.

As the play practice went on, he found himself finding more and more
opportunities to spend time with Karen.  She was spirited and fun, and
she less than subtly conveyed a growing fondness and attraction for
Michael which was more than just friendly.

One afternoon she had invited him to go with her for a soda after
practice, and Jane had consented.  Karen had her own car and had
assured Jane she would drive Michael home in time for dinner.  Jane,
knowing Michael had nowhere to run, had allowed it.  Karen and Michael
had strolled around town and had sat for an hour in the cafe sipping a
Coke.  As they had strolled, Karen had taken the initiative to slide
her hand into Michael's.  They chemistry between them was perceptible,
and Michael wished he could see more of her...and for a longer time and
in a more personal way.

Karen had a lot of wisdom for a girl her age.  For one thing, she
professed boredom with the macho attitude of the "babies" as she called
the Page bunch.  Michael felt almost uncomfortable as Karen went on at
length about the unfairness of society's demands on both men and women,
stereotyping them into pigeonholes and deriding any deviation from
those set standards.

On one occasion, Michael felt a pang of misgiving mixed with curiosity
when Karen lamented the fact that boys and men were deprived of the
nice things girls got to do.  It was an innocent comment, made in no
particular context; but considering the double life that Michael was
then living, the remark had special significance.  Nevertheless, his
curiosity was a product of his wondering why she would bring this up,
and he had gingerly pursued it.

"Why do you say that, Karen?'

"I don't know," she said.  "It just came to mind.  Maybe it's just me.
I get great enjoyment out of a new dress or a trip to the beauty shop.
I don't think a man gets that same degree of satisfaction by a suit or
a haircut.  Maybe girls are just that way.  Still, I think it a little
unfair."

He had not pursued it further, afraid his interest might be
misinterpreted.  But the thought and her words lingered with him.
Perhaps this attitude was more widespread among women and girls than he
had thought.

The weeks went by, and he and Beth worked diligently at home on her
lines and movements, staying well-ahead of the schedule that Miss
Bishop had imposed on the cast.  Less than three weeks before the dress
rehearsal, Beth was fully conversant with the role, and Michael knew it
even better than she.

Meanwhile he was the model of supple acquiescence at home,anticipating
nearly every one of Jane's whims and keeping himself winsome and sweet
at all times.  He gradually fell into a totally automatic and
unpretentious deportment as a girl, such that his concentration on
boyish mannerisms while at rehearsal became the part of him that
required careful attention.  Having abandoned the obstinacy that had
marked the first part of his stay, he found he was more comfortable in
this imposed role.  He became more fastidious about his clothes,
eliminating the need for daily counselling on what he was to wear, a
point that Jane noted with approval.  His hair and makeup were flawless
in execution.  Indeed, free of his hostility, he began to derive some
satisfaction and even heightened eroticism from the feminine
accouterments that comprised his existence.  He thought of Karen's
remark one morning as he lay in bed, luxuriating in the soft touch of
his gown and agreed that there were appealing aspects to this life.

Jane was exceedingly pleased.  In fact, she had agreed to let him spend
more afternoons and even one Saturday with Karen as a reward for his
conformity.  He grew to enjoy these liaisons more and more.  He was
growing exceedingly fond of Karen.



11.  Chapter



It was in late August -- just a week before the play performance --
that everything seemed to come unravelled.  Jane had summoned him to
her study one Monday morning.  "Sit down Michael.  I have something
rather important to discuss with you."

He seated himself on the settee, careful to smooth his skirts beneath
him.

"Beth will be leaving us today.  You can say your goodbyes in a minute.
Your friend is waiting for you in the garden.  Beth's time to stay is
at an end.  For public consumption outside this house it will be said
that there has been a family crisis that caused this to happen.  At any
rate, the train for New York leaves in just over two hours.  I'm sorry
I wasn't able to tell you about this sooner."

Michael was speechless.  Beth had become an ally, a confidant.  Michael
was mystified as to how life would go on in this house without her.  He
felt more than saddened; he felt a sense of loneliness creep over him.

"This event was inevitable, Michael.  Or, as I shall consistently call
you from this point forward, Michelle.  Life goes on, transitions
happen.  This is a transition, Michelle.  You will understand more of
this in a little while.  This next hour is going to be filled with its
share of surprises, even shocks, for you.  I suggest we get on with it.
Go meet your friend."

Michael left the study and headed to the garden.  There was no
immediate sign of Beth, but Michael was surprised to see the figure of
a young man seated on the wrought iron bench, his back to Michael.
Perhaps this young man had come to take Beth to the airport.

Feeling somewhat perplexed, he looked around for the girl he had come
to know as his friend, then called, tentatively "Beth?"

The youth turned at the call and Michael saw his face.  The resemblance
was virtually unmistakable.  Michael was sure this must be a brother.

"Hello, Michael," the young man said.  Michael was taken aback at
hearing his true name.  Not only did the youth know his name, but had
said it to someone dressed as a girl.  Beth must have told him, Michael
thought!

"Michael," the youth said, " it's me....Beth."

Surprise gave way to shock.  Michael reeled, his legs turning to jelly.

"Wh...what?!" was all that came out.

"It's Beth, Michael, or David, which is my real name."

"I...I....I don't...."

"You don't understand.  Of course.  Sit down...please." The voice was
friendly, calm.

"I know it's a shock, Michael," the youth said quietly, "it always is.
But believe me, I am Beth -- or I was until early this morning.  Let me
explain."

Michael sat down, relieved to ease the shaking in his legs.  Even
though he gained a measure of composure, he was shaken and baffled by
these words.

"I just came from Sandy.  She is almost as good at reversing her work
as she is in doing it.  You see me now as I am.  Just be quiet a minute
and I'll try to explain all of this to you."

"My real name is David Brost.  I came here eight months ago.  Like you,
I had been in some trouble, but I'm sure my problems were worse than
yours.  You see, I got into some trouble which could have involved the
police.  Fortunately for me, the officer who questioned me was a friend
-- no, actually a graduate of Jane's school.  I got the choice of here
or a potential trip to reform school so I chose here.  I was as naive
as you were when I came here, but looking back at the options, I'm
better off having picked here.  And once I was here, there was no going
back"

Michael's mind reeled over these revelations.  David had more
information to impart, so Michael remained silent.

"I was like you are just half a year ago.  You might want to chastise
me for not telling you all about myself sooner, but that is the rule
here.  Nothing can be revealed without Jane's permission.  A part of
that is security and part is an element of the process.  You would not
have come as far as you have if you had known about me."

"And I stress the security!  If it were to be discovered what Jane is
doing here, it would have a very bad effect on me and everyone who has
come through here.  You must always keep silent about these matters.  I
have more to say about that in a minute, but promise me that you will
abide by that rule!  It could devastate me if it were discovered how I
have lived these last eight months."

Michael assured David the secret was safe and waited for him to
continue.

"Believe me, Michael, there is something to be learned here.  When I
look back on what I was when I arrived, I am amazed.  I have a new
appreciation for things I barely understood then.  I have felt a sense
of release by letting go of things that were a weight on me.  TO be
frank, I have enjoyed secret moments of enjoyment being dressed in
girls' clothing.  I suspect I may do it again from time to time because
of that I get a kick out of being dolled up -- something I would have
found repulsive a year ago."

"There is something of a revolving door in this place.  Perhaps in a
few weeks you will find a new "Michael" or "David" here and you will
become that person's mentor.  One never knows.  I heard Jane on the
phone last Friday talking to someone, so it is at least possible.  For
your sake, and mine and the new boy's, you must be Michelle and not
Michael.  Do you understand?"

Michael did not understand, completely.  Yet in deference to his friend
he nodded assent.

"Good.  Now, as to you.  You have made it harder on yourself here than
you needed to.  I tried to warn you, but you seemed hell-bent on not
listening.  These last few weeks you have changed, but it came too
late, so you find yourself forced to live a double identity, as
Michelle here and as Michael at the theater."

"Jane's technique works.  You have been one of her most difficult...so
she told me.  My warnings to you fell on deaf ears, you blockhead.  I
was a lot quicker than you to pick up the vibes on what it takes to get
out of here." This last was delivered with such good-will that Michael
did not take it as an insult, but smiled wanly in response.

The play!  It suddenly occurred to Michael that with Beth...David gone,
what was to become of the play.  Michael voiced this concern.

"Michelle, that's part of the plot, don't you see?  She planned it this
way before we ever went to tryouts.  What did she tell you 'death in
the family?'  'Family crisis?'  She's totally covered as to my
departure.  She had your school record; I read it.  'Very facile in
memorization.'  She knew you would have the lines down better than I.
She will call Dierdre and volunteer you to take my place.  You see,
have to reap the consequences of your imprudence."

A new flood of awareness engulfed Michael.  Did they seriously believe
that he was going to step into the role of Alice?  He couldn't.  An
image of Matt Page's jeering face popped into his mind.

While Michael and David were in the garden, Jane undertook a pressing
task.  She dialed Dierdre Bishop at home.

"Dierdre, dear," Jane said, when the woman answered the phone, "this is
Jane.  Dierdre, I'm afraid I have some rather disturbing news to tell
you.  Beth has been called home on a family emergency and must leave
today."

It did not take long for the significance of Jane's words to sink in.
Dierdre's concern was clearly over her production, and not the gravity
of the 'family emergency' that Jane had alluded to.

"My God Jane, that's terrible.  I mean...what are we going to do.  That
is....well, I hope it's nothing serious?"

"I'm afraid that it is quite serious, Dierdre; I'm afraid that there is
simply no choice.  Beth will be leaving on the noon flight to
Richmond." "I realize that this signifies a blow to the play, and I am
most put out about that.  I hope that you have someone who can fill
in." "No we don't, Dierdre said.  There was a short silence as the
gravity of this news sunk in at the other end of the phone.  With
resignation, Dierdre said, "I guess we'll just have to scrub the show.
It is going to be a terrible disappointment to the cast."

"I can appreciate that," Jane said with mock sincerity.  "It's a real
pity that none of the other girls can fill in.  I guess these things
happen, and always at the worst of times."

Dierdre had felt a sinking feeling that was quickly merging into
depression.  She dreaded calling all the students and their parents,
and, most of all, Mr.  Finch, the chairman of the sponsoring committee
of the community theater.  Royalty expenses and production costs would
be totally lost now.

"No, we'll just have to cancel," Dierdre said despondently.  "No one
else knows the part."

"Surprisingly, Dierdre, Michael knows it thoroughly.  He and Beth have
been working together since the rehearsals began.  I think he knows it
better than she did.  he surprised me with how quickly he mastered the
lines....just helping Beth.  But, of course, it would be unthinkable
for a boy to take that role."

"Oh, my God, yes," Dierdre agreed.  "Why, not even thinking about the
devastating impact that would have on the boy, I think many of the
parents and certainly the committee would put the kibosh on that."

Jane thought that maybe she had been too clever by half.  Dierdre was
not picking up on the offer as had been hoped.  Well, nevertheless, she
thought to herself, the exercise had not all been in vain, for Michael
improved dramatically during these last few weeks.  The mere subjection
to going out as a boy had worked its intended end.

"Again, Dierdre, I am truly sorry about this.  I hope that you can work
something out."

She rang off.  Time will tell, she thought.  She saw the two boys
engaged in deep conversation through the garden windows, glanced at her
watch and made mental note of the time it would take to transport David
to the station.  They had about an hour and a half.

It was less than an hour later when the phone rang.  It was dierdre,
sounding more spirited than when she had last spoken to Jane, albeit a
little tentative.

"Jane," she began, "are you certain that Michael knows the part?"

"Quite sure, Dierdre," Jane replied.  He has coached Beth through the
last seven weeks.  Why do you ask."

"Jane, would you agree to let Michael take the part in the
performance....I know that is a totally preposterous suggestion, but we
are really left with no other choice."

Jane paused the necessary amount to feign deep consideration of this,
and managed to exude just the right degree of uncertainty when she
responded.

"Dierdre, I'm not sure.  I mean perhaps it is asking too much of a boy
to make him get up on the stage in a dress and act a girl's part.  I
just don't know."

Dierdre's response sounded a little disappointed, as though she had
expected Jane would not be warm to the idea.  To avoid a complete
flagging of Dierdre's interest, Jane spoke again.

"I mean I could ask him...I don't know what he would say.  But you also
mentioned that there might be some opposition from some parents and
your committee."

"Well, that's the surprising part.  I did call some of the mothers and
they were not totally adverse to the idea, I mean with all the time
that's been put in.  Mr.  Finch, of course, is most concerned about
recouping some of the cost that this performance has incurred.  At
first he was cool and a little hostile, but then he seemed to
rationalize it by saying that it was mere play acting and making
allusions to Elizabethan Theater and saying that if the boy did not
feel overly antagonistic to the idea he would not object."

"Well, Dierdre, all I can do is ask him.  You don't have a rehearsal
today, do you?

"No.  Today was set aside for costume fittings and lighting tests.  But
I could spend some time with Michael if he accepted that is, to see
how...or if it might work."

Well, as I said, I will ask and get back to you.  I have to take Beth
to the station.  Would...say...12:30 be soon enough to call you?"

"Yes, fine," Dierdre replied.  "Call me at the theater."

"Fine," said Jane.  "In fact, if Michael agrees, we could just stop by
on the way back from the station."

A few pleasantries followed and Jane detected true relief and hope in
Dierdre's voice as she hung up.

"Michael, I speak to you as a dear friend.  My predecessor her, a guy
named Terry, was such a friend.  He is a graduate student now in
Chicago.  I call him from time to time...Jane allows that.  You can
call me, too.  I'll leave the number.  But you have to learn that there
is no way out of here until you totally give in.  When you do, and if
you are willing to play by the rules, there is a prospect of going back
to where you came from.  But in the bigger scheme of things, you will
do far better if you relish the experience, taking from it the fun and
going along with the requirements.  I speak to you as someone who
cares."

Michael remained downcast, cognizant of the fact that David spoke the
truth, yet worried about what would become of him when his friend left.
He especially worried about being made to play Alice in the play.  But
it was the sense of loss and betrayal that bothered him most.


  "Michael, I have to go soon.  I hope you will come to understand this
and understand your part in it all.  I like you a lot and I wish you
nothing but good things.  Make them good.  It's your choice."

David gave him a brotherly hug, and Michael returned it to him, sad to
say goodbye to a friend, uneasy about his own future.  David left him
alone in the garden.  That was to be the last time he saw his confidant
for a long time.

Michael returned to the study to re-confront his nemesis.

"Michelle," Jane began, " I presume that David has told you about the
possibility -- or rather the certainty that you are going to take his
place in the play?"

"Yes, ma'am," he replied.  "I guess that is what you had in mind all
the time."

"Indeed.  I have broached the prospect with Miss Bishop and I only just
received word that it is an acceptable alternative to canceling the
play.  You will take the part and you will do it in the manner that I
am confident you are capable of.  It will, of course, be demeaning and
difficult, but then that is the hardship you have brought upon
yourself.  I am confident that when this is over, you will have
graduated to be a suitable replacement for our David now that he is
leaving.  You understand all this, I take it."

"Yes ma'am:, Michael replied, understanding now that he had truly given
in to the woman's scheme and had been recast in the mold she had sought
from the outset.

"Good," she answered.  "Then after we have said our goodbyes to David
at the station, I will take you over to the theater where Dierdre wants
to test your mastery of the part.  I trust you will do well?"

"Yes, ma'am" came the response.

"Very well, then let us bid adieu to our young friend, Beth, and get on
with it."



12.  Chapter



They arrived at the theater the day of the final practice before dress
rehearsal just nearing one o'clock.  Dierdre asked him solicitously if
he was, in fact, willing to do this.  he said that he was, and she
indicated that she must test his knowledge of the part.

Dierdre assembled the cast in the theater seats and announced that Beth
had been called home due to a family emergency.  A wave of concern
about the prospects for the play spread through the group before
Dierdre could interpose her remarks that they had a substitute for the
part.  Dierdre was careful to lay some groundwork by saying that the
prospective replacement had a chance to study the part with Beth, and
was able to quickly pick up the lines.  Then, at last, she announced
that Michael was going to take the part.

A bustle of whispers flooded through the audience, a mixture of
astonishment and puzzlement at this announcement.  As expected, all
heads turned and eyes stared at him.  The titters from the boy's
section were about as he expected, and Page made a loud guffaw,
followed by a loud "Mikey gets to be a girl!"

"Enough!" Dierdre said firmly.  "We have but two choices here:  either
let Michael play the part or cancel this show.  Now I let you decide.
Do you want all the work you have done these last seven weeks to go for
nothing or do you want to give this a try?  I know it will not be easy
for Michael to do this, but it will be a lot harder if you all give him
a hard time about it."

The murmurs continued, but the content of the hushed discussions was
now bent toward responding to that choice Dierdre had posed.  In a
ridiculous bid to seek some democratic resolution of the issue, Dierdre
asked for a show of hands, and, as was expected, they all agreed to
give it a try.  The boys even voted in favor of the proposition, though
Michael suspected their motives were less than forthright.  Given the
choice, they would probably have opted totally out of this ordeal that
their mothers had insisted they engage in; they were more interested in
witnessing his humiliation.

He caught Karen's eye and saw that she had a warm smile for him.  He
derived more than mere comfort from this comradely support.  He smiled
back.

The decision made, and a final run-through was done.  Michael mounted
the stage and took his cue from her reading of the counter-parts from
the script.  He executed the lines and movements faultlessly and, he
felt, delivered an even better presentation of the role than Beth.
Michael endured the occasional snickers as he did his best to deliver a
good presentation of the part.  Some were impressed by his rendition;
those that found humor in it were ignored.

They were all told to be at the theater the following day by noon for
the dress rehearsal.  Michael reflected that that meant he would be at
Marisha Chalet by nine, for Jane had told him that was a necessary
prerequisite.  He felt the usual uneasiness at what the unholy duo
there would have in store for him.  God he would be glad when Saturday
had come and gone.

Dierdre had seemed pleased with the performance, for she and Jane
entered into a spirited conversation with Dierdre clearly thrilled with
what she had seen.

He stood like a superfluous witness to this tete-a-tete until Dierdre
announced that they needed to check the costume for proper fit.  This
was the essence of his discomfort, the start of the inexorable ordeal
that was to be.  He followed the two women to the green room where
Dierdre took down Beth's costume and told him to try it on, thankful
that, for the moment, the rest of the cast was gone.

He feigned some unfamiliarity with the pinafore and apron, and Dierdre
encouragingly helped him fasten it.  He donned the stockings and Mary
Janes and stood before them chagrined as any boy would be in such
attire.

"He'll need petticoats, Jane.  Should I get some?"

"Not necessary, Dierdre.  We have some of Beth's at home and I can get
everything he needs."

'Beth's indeed, 'he thought.  He would wear his own petticoats under
this costume, unbeknownst to Dierdre.

""I don't know what to do about the hair.  We could get a wig, I
suppose," Dierdre posited.

"Dierdre," Jane said, "I have an idea.  I know some people who run a
beauty shop in Kingston.  Perhaps they can do something about the hair.
I take it you wanted shoulder length, with some curl."

"Yes," Dierdre replied.  "Like this," showing Jane a costume plate of a
costumed 'Alice'.

"We'll take care of that," Jane said, and Michael resigned himself to
further ministrations of Carolyn and Sandy at the salon.

"Well, I think he will do fine.  I just hope he feels ok about this.  I
will make it a point to talk to the other boys, but I am sure that
there is bound to be some boyish teasing.  I hope it is not too
severe."

'Boyish teasing', Michael thought.  'That is an understatement.

With that, they finished and he had only the dress rehearsal and two
performances of the play to get through.  The minimal number of
appearances did not diminish the cold feeling he had about this.


   Friday morning he was up and dressed as 'Michael' by eight and down
to breakfast.  Marie was delegated to take him to the salon, Jane
advising she would pick him up afterward.  He felt a new sense of
trepidation going to the salon dressed as a boy rather than in his
usual skirts, and hoped that this particular visit would not contribute
to any disclosure of his true self.  It would be a new experience, and
he hoped that Carolyn and Sandy would understand his predicament and
use a private booth to work on him.

Arriving at the salon, Michael felt ill-at-ease, being clad as Michael
and not 'Michelle'.  He was grateful that he was shown to a private
cubicle, away from the stares of the other patrons.  Sandy was the
operator selected to do him over.

"So, dear heart, you're going to be in a play.  Jane said I was to be
extra particular about your hair today.  God, you really have done a
muddle with my work last week.  We're going to have to start from
scratch."

"I'm sorry, Sandy.  But it's tough trying to be Michael when you and
Carolyn devise such intricate hair styles for Michelle." "You know,
luv, that's just about the first compliment I think I have ever heard
from you about what we do.  You may be coming along.  So lets get with
it."

She washed his hair and reset it.  The latent curls from the permanents
were embellished and a cascading wiglet intermeshed into his own hair.
As expected, with a ribbon band at the crown, the style portrayed an
enchanting girl's hairdo.  That image was somewhat inane given the male
trousers and shirt he wore.  He was grateful that when he was done,
apparently by prior agreement with Jane, he was escorted out the back
door of the salon and into the waiting Lincoln.

Arriving at the theater, he felt acutely uncomfortable, positively
obsessed with getting into his costume to diminish the dissimilarity
between the way he looked and the way he was dressed.  He swiftly made
his way to the dressing room and found the costume and its accessories
hung on racks.  His appearance in male clothes and the curly hairdo
produced loud guffaws from the boys already there.  Taunts of "sissy
Michael" and "Isn't he cute?" punctuated the air.  His ears reddened.
He grabbed the costume and headed to one of the nearby lavatories.


   With a dexterity he had learned over the last few months, he quickly
got into the underclothes, hose, dress and apron.  As each garment was
put on, more of the male facade was shed and he began to project a more
acceptable feminine pretext.  He began to feel more comfortable,
notwithstanding the razzing he was sure to get when the other boys saw
him.


   The boys in the changing room were also dressing in costume.  A lot
of the burly machismo diminished as they put on these dainty little
outfits.  As if to abate their discomfort with this activity, they cast
the occasional aspersion at Michael bedecked in the petite dress that
was his costume.

"Pretty little girl," Page had said.  "Very precious.  How does it feel
to be flitting around in that little skirt, Mikey?" He dropped his
wrist in a mincing mimic of scorn.  Michael found it easy to overlook
this jibe, for attired it leotards and tights, page did not present an
image of masculinity, himself.

Michael finished dressing and withdrew to a chair in the green room
while the cast was being made-up.  He sat watching the line of boys
submitting one by one to Andrea's applications from her palette of
paints.  He found some satisfaction in watching page and his
compatriots being subjected to paints and powders.  They seemed far
less macho with eyeshadow, rouge and lipstick applied to their
adolescent faces.  Michael felt a mixture of sympathy for them and a
sense of reciprocation.  Cosmetics had a way of humiliating the most
lofty ego.  As each boy was subjected to Andrea's brushes and colors,
their pluck seemed to mellow, and they became more docile.

He was especially gladdened as he watched Page in his little satin
elf's costume submitted to eyeliner, rouge and lipstick and a most
colorful shade of eyeshadow.  The boy's arrogance gave way quickly to
pliable obedience as the rosiness spread on his cheeks.

Of course, Michael was the star attraction, and when his name was
called, he stood up and submitted to Andrea as well, the now more
subdued sneering still evident.  He could visualize the colors and
their effect on his face, having done himself it so many times before.
He knew that between Andrea and Sandy he would appear very girlish and
petite when all was done.


   When the dress rehearsal was over, Michael started back to the green
room to remove his makeup and change from his costume.  Karen stopped
him in the corridor.

"You were great, Michael!" she said.  "You were a very convincing
'Alice'.

"Thanks, Karen.  I was afraid I wouldn't be able to get through it.  I
feel so damned silly in this dress.  I guess you heard Page and his
cronies and their comments."

"Oh, just forget them," she replied.  "Their opinion isn't worth beans.
Frankly I think you make a very pretty girl.  It's a shame you can't
wear clothes like that all the time.  Just kidding."

Karen did not know how ironic that comment really was, of course, and
Michael was not about to dwell on it.  But he could not resist a
comment.

"Between you and me, Karen, they are kind of fun," he whispered.  "I
remember you once saying how unfortunate it was that boys never get to
wear things like this."

"Well, you look great.  Of course makeup makes everyone look great."

"Well, I better get changed," he said, as he resumed his walk to the
changing room.

"Michael, let me ask you something.  Do you think you could get
permission to go out with me after the show tomorrow night?  There was
supposed to be a cast party, but a lot of us aren't going.  There's a
rock concert in town that a lot of them are going to, so Dierdre may
reschedule the party.  But you and I could go out and maybe do
something."

"I can see.  I'll have to ask my aunt."

"Ok, well....persuade her.  It may be the last time I get to see you
for a while now that the play is over.  Maybe she'd even let you stay
over at my house tomorrow night."

Michael promised her he would ask, and went into the boys changing room
and removed and hung the dress and underthings.  He heard the few
snickers from the boys remaining there, but Page and his bunch had
cleared out of the theater immediately after the show, and Michael was
grateful for this.  God, he would be glad when this thing was all over
tomorrow.

He was leaving the changing room when he confronted Miss Bishop.

"Michael, you did splendidly!" she said.  "You don't know how you saved
us.  I hope it wasn't too embarrassing to play Beth's part.  You are a
very brave boy to have done this."

"Thank you, Dierdre, I'm glad I could help.  Yes, I did get some
teasing, but I guess it will be all over by tomorrow, so I'm not going
to worry about it."

"Well, dear, I am so very indebted to you." She gave him a tentative
hug, and he was glad that somebody took this in the spirit of
thankfulness, without mockery or the dubious motives that Jane had had
in getting him into this.  The chat with Karen and with Dierdre
alleviated a lot of his discomfort.

He actually welcomed the sight of Jane, and accompanied her out of the
theater.  Like Dierdre, though clearly with baser motives, Jane was
effusive in her praise.  Nevertheless, she could not resist putting in
some self-gratifying comments about how her efforts had been the
cornerstone of his convincing performance.  As was his recent wont,
Michael smiled and agreed, and they started the drive home.  After some
silence, he spoke.

"Jane," he said, "do you remember Karen, the girl in the play I told
you about?"

"Yes, Michelle, I do", Jane replied.  "A very lovely girl."

"Well, Karen wanted me to go out with her tomorrow night after the
show.  Would it be OK?"

"Hmmm," Jane murmured as she thought about this.  "Go where?"

"I don't know.  There was supposed to be a cast party, but I guess it's
going to be postponed.  It may be the last time I see Karen in a while
and I just thought....well, we wouldn't be too late.  Well, she also
asked if I could stay over at her house."

Jane thought about it a moment and wondering if there there was any
harm in agreeing.

"Hmm," she finally said.  "I suppose I would have no problem with you
going out for a while.  But staying over at her house.  That does
present some problems.  Whom does she live with?"

"Her grandmother.  She said you could call to check if you needed."

"You realize, of course, Michael," that there are some dangers in that.
Not just the proximity, but, well, I don't know how serious the two of
you are.  I leave it to your own judgmenet, but I don't want any
problems."

"No, Aunt Jane.  None at all."

"Well, alright," she finally said, "I think it will be ok.  But then,
Michelle, there is always the possibility that Karen could come over to
the house whenever you wanted her to."

"That would present problems, Jane, and you know it.  I think that is
out of the question."

Jane merely smiled at the answer.  They continued the drive in silence.

The following matinee and evening performance were, for all practical
purposes, a repeat of the dress rehearsal, except that the audience was
present.  The presence of audience prompted Michael to be especially
convincing in the role, a fact that, while persuading the audience,
made his effeminacy all the more pronounced in the eyes of his peers.

He had told Karen that afternoon that he had received permission to
stay overnight at her house.  She had been gleeful at the prospect, and
said they would chat about it after the evening show.

When the evening program was over, he looked for Karen but did not
immediately find her.  He started back to the green room to finally rid
himself of this costume.  Karen was at the end of the corridor and
waved, beckoning him to meet her in a small room off that corridor.

"Once again, an outstanding job." she said as he entered the small
room."

"Thanks, Karen.  I'm just glad it's over.  I'm tired of all this
teasing."

"Well I never teased you.  In fact I even complimented you.  I think
you look great.  I don't see anything wrong with a boy wearing those
things for a play.  Did you see how cute Pagie and his crowd looked."
She laughed.  Her laugh was infectious, and in a sense of relief, he
joined in her giggles.

"All set to go out?'  she asked.

"Sure, I just have to go get changed and I'm ready to go." he started
to turn when she stopped him.

"Michael, if I asked you to do me a big, big favor, would you?" At this
point, Michael was very smitten with Karen and knew that he would do
most anything she asked him.  It was that infatuation and trust that
jaded his answer.  He would do just about anything for this lovely
girl, and delivered a fairly unqualified "Sure Karen.  What?"

"Well...." she hesitated, weighing her words, "would you leave your
makeup on and leave your hair the way it is?"

The request startled Michael.  How in hell did she expect that he could
go out of the theater, out with her for the evening, even spend the
night at her house without changing and removing his makeup?

"I don't understand, Karen.  Why would you want me to do that?"

"I just thought it would be fun and I would like to play a little trick
on my grandmother.  She doesn't know that a boy is coming over
tonight...not that I lied to her, I just said a friend.  Besides, I
like you like that.  Would you, just for me?"

"But Karen, I haven't anything to wear out of here.  I have slacks and
a shirt.  I mean it would look a little silly..."

She interrupted.  "I already thought of that.  I brought an extra
outfit you can wear.  Come on, just for fun.  Just tonight."

He hesitated.  It was an odd and outrageous request, and she had
tricked him into agreeing to her favor in advance.  He feared she might
even back out of their date if he balked.

"Karen, I'd feel awfully silly going out like this.  Is it really that
important?"

"I'd really like it if you would.  Of course, if you would rather
not..." The pout in her voice was evident by the way she trailed off.
What the hell, he thought, was it any different than going back to
Jane's and getting into a skirt?

"You promise no one will see me?"

"It's dark outside.  I hid some clothes in the girl's bathroom by the
back door and my car is parked just outside.  You can change and we can
be out the back door before anyone sees us."

"Well, I'll have to take some of this makeup off.  I mean people will
be watching."

"Sure, I know.  Just leave a little bit on.  And then after you've
changed, sneak down to the bathroom and I'll meet you.  Just make sure
no one sees you."

Michael was not at all sure about this, but he mulled it over in his
mind as he went into the changing room, removed the Alice costume and
slipped into his trousers and shirt.  Were it not for the fact that he
desparately wanted to spend time with Karen, this exorbitant request of
hers would go begging.  But in his infatuation, he saw no harm in
playing along with her.  The underwear and petticoats were to go home,
so he left on the panties, camisole and hose and slipped the petticoat
into the bag.  He took the dress, apron and shoes and checked them in
with Andrea, returning to the bathroom on to remove some of his makeup.
There were jars of cold creme and tissues, and he delicately removed
all but a trace of the color from his face.  He peeked into the green
room.

Andrea was still was busy checking costumes in, and he noticed that
many of the cast had already left.  It was not much problem to slip out
into the corridor and he hurried to meet Karen.

The hallway was bare, and no one saw him make his way down the corridor
and slip into the lavatory.  Karen was already there.

"Here," she said, go in here, opening the door to one of the stalls.  I
hung everything up in there and there are shoes on the top of the john.
Hurry up."

It was all there.  Skirt, blouse, even a half-slip.  He slipped into
them quickly and replaced his oxfords with the flats, surprised that
everything fit.  Karen was about an inch or more taller than he was,
but their measurements were the same.  He stuffed his own things into
the bag with the petticoats and, bracing himself, he opened the stall
door and stepped tentatively into the bathroom.  Karen was
surreptitiously checking the hallway through a slightly open door and,
when she was sure it was safe, gave him the signal.  The pair slipped
out the bathroom and through the fire doors to the outside.  A quick
dash and they were both seated in Karen's car.  Michael's heart was
racing.

The car pulled away and Michael breathed a slight sigh of relief,
disconcerted, nevertheless, to be out with this girl he fancied,
dressed like this.  He could not really fathom why Karen had made this
request, but since she had never teased him and must have her own
reasons, which he trusted implicitly, he decided to view it as a lark
and go along with it.

"You kind of messed up your hair when you were changing," she said,
"and you took off too much makeup.  We may have to fix that."

She turned onto Tow Bridge Road and started toward Knightsbridge.
Michael was thankful they were leaving town, it being less likely they
would encounter someone he knew in the neighboring town.

"We'll fix that up down the road." They sped on until she saw an Exxon
station and turned in.  She told the attendant inside to fill the tank
and borrowed the key to the ladies room.  As she walked toward it, she
gestured to Michael to follow her.  He was able to get out of the car
and follow her before he was even noticed by the attendant.

Once inside the drab cubicle she produced a small brush from her bag
and had him turn so she could fuss with his hair.  She removed the
large satin ribbon and replaced it with a less childish version.
Seemingly unsatisfied with his look, she produced a blush and lipstick
and added a little of the color he had removed.  His eyes, apparently,
were alright.  He felt a little strange being done up by a girl he had
a crush on.

"Golly, Michael, this lipstick color looks a lot better on you than it
does to me.  Here, put it in your pocket in case you need it later."

He slipped it into the small pocket of the skirt, not knowing when or
why he might need it.

"Here," she said, "I brought these, too.  Just a little added touch."
She placed a strand of faux pearls around his neck and fastened the
clasp at the back.

"There," she announced.  "You look adorable.  And I'm not teasing you,
believe me."

He smiled wanly, blanching a little at the embarrassing remark, but
certain she meant no insult by it.

"Let's go." He followed her out of the wash room and returned to the
car as she paid for the minimal amount of gas that the station owner
had managed to get in the tank.

"I'm hungry," she said, as they left the station.  "How about a
burger."

He was hungry too, but the thought of going into a restaurant did not
appeal to him and he hoped that what she had in mind was a drive in
where he could enjoy the security of the car.  As she drove toward one
down the street, he felt secure enough to merely say "Yeah.  I am too."

It was when she parked not at the window service but in the parking lot
that he became a little concerned.

"I hate to eat in the car," she said.  "Let's go in."

Michael was not keen on that idea, but he decided to acquiesce, his
attraction to this lovely girl overcoming his trepidation.  He trusted
Karen, so the fear he usually felt in such situations was replaced by
that trust.  She would not "reveal" him, and he had no doubt that he
could "pull it off".  What had begun to concern him was that he was
doing it too well, and that she might wonder about that facility.  But
she seemed to pay no notice and, he knew by the mirthful glee she
exhibited, she viewed it all as a lark.  A joke they were both playing
on the world.

They found a booth and the waitress deposited the menus without
comment.  After their cursory glance at the fare, she returned, and
Michael heard her take Karen's order.

"And you, Miss," the waitress said, pencil poised above her order pad
as she turned to Michael.  He caught the grin on Karen's face, flushed
slightly and ordered a simple hamburger and fries.

When she left, Karen said to him "Those two boys over at that table are
taking quite an interest in us." Michael looked and saw the leering
looks.

"Oh God, Karen, please."

"Don't worry.  love, I will protect you.  Actually the blond guy is
kinda cute....not as cute as you, of course, but interesting.  Anyway,
it's getting on to 10:30 and I promised to be home by 11.  Let's eat
and go."

They finished their meal, bantering lightly about the play, about their
life and their hopes and aspirations.  Michael was becoming more and
more sure that this girl was a real find and he felt the stirrings of
sexual attraction.  He just wished that their meeting and this date
were more "normal", though he was glad simply for the opportunity to be
with her.

It was when they had finished that he realized that the pressure in his
bladder demanded that he get relief soon.

"Karen, I r-e-a-l-l-y have to go to the bathroom.  I don't know what to
do."

"Well, Michael, just go.  I'd suggest you use the ladies room, but the
plumbing is just about the same in there as you are used to."

"God, I can't do that."

"Well you certainly better not use the men's.  Go ahead, no one is even
going to notice.  Just be a little discrete.  I'll pay the check and
wait for you.  Oh, and while you're in there, you better add a little
lipstick.  It's all gone, you know."

He entered the ladies room and was a little nonplussed to find a woman
there fixing her own face at the mirror.  He hurried to one of the
stalls, did his business, then added an application of new lipstick at
the mirror.  He found Karen in the foyer waiting to go.  As they drove
away, Karen said "You know, you're going to need a name when we get
home.  I can't introduce you to Nana as 'Michael"....let's
see.....Michelle seems natural.  How does that suit you?"

Michael blanched at the irony of it.  'Play the role' he thought to
himself.  "Whatever, Karen" he replied.

"Michelle it is then.  This is fun.  Are you having fun?"

"I enjoy being with you, Karen."

"Well, that's nice.  But I mean isn't it fun to wear those nice things
and play this big joke on everyone?" As she spoke, her hand came across
the seat and rubbed his nylon clad leg, causing the inevitable stir in
his loins which only grew more swollen as it met the smooth fabric of
the panties he wore.  He prayed that he would lose this erection before
they reached her house.

They drove into the driveway of a large Colonial.  The lights were on
in the lower rooms.

"My Nana is going to wonder a bit about your not bringing your own
things, so we'll tell her you left them home.  She's never seen that
skirt and blouse on me, so you're O.K. there.  Just follow my lead and
act natural." Karen grinned at him.  "My Grandmother is a little
forgetful, sometimes, but she is a dear.  Maybe she won't even notice
that you'll be wearing my things while you are here."

The woman who met them in the foyer was about sixty, a pleasant woman
that Michael knew he could like.  Karen introduced him as Michelle and
added she had played the lead in the play.

"Oh I saw the play, Michelle.  You were wonderful," Mrs.  Grayson said.
"I am so glad you and Karen became friends.  I hope you will enjoy your
stay and that we will see more of you."

Michael muttered his appreciative response, and Mrs.  Grayson told
Karen there were Cokes in the refrigerator and some sandwiches and
brownies.

"I'm going up to bed now, girls.  I know it is futile to say this, but
I hope that you don't stay up all night talking.  Remember, Karen, you
have errands in the morning."

"We won't stay up too late, Nana.  Good night."

"Good night, Mrs.  Grayson," Michael added, as the woman climbed the
stairs to her room.

"Let's get some food and Cokes and go up to my room," Karen said.
Michael dumbly followed her to the kitchen and took his share of the
load to be carried to the upper floor.  He wondered what sleeping
arrangements were going to be available.


   Karen's room was what he expected it to be, not quite as dainty and
feminine as the room he had at Jane's.  The most noticeable difference
was the profusion of posters of male and female film and rock
personalities.  Otherwise, and perhaps as a result of the poster
selections, it was a girl's room in every way.


   Rather than a single, large bed, there were twin beds, both
delicately embellished with wispy dust ruffles.  The room tended to
pink in color.

Karen set the tray of cookies on the night table, and Michael followed
suit with the sodas he had carried up.

"This has been fun, Michael.  Nana didn't even seem the least bit
hesitant in seeing you as a girl.  You really are quite pretty and very
convincing."

Michael was unsure as to how to respond to this, though he knew it to
be true.  He just smiled diffidently.

"Strange date, though, in a way," she said as she opened a can of soda
and sat on the bed next to him.  "I like you as a boy, of course, but I
kept expecting a kiss, yet knowing it to be a little strange to be
kissed by someone so convincingly a girl.  Know what I mean?"

Michael did.  He wanted more than anything to kiss this lovely girl,
but he, too, thought it a little bizarre to be embracing her dressed as
he was.

"Still, though, I know you are a boy.  Maybe it's just that I have
never been kissed by someone wearing lipstick -- not sensually, that
is."

With that her hand began to stroke his back, and the sensation of her
hand through the thin fabric was electric.  She explored his back and
sholders in a gentle massage.  Suddenly her exploring fingers found and
examined the fringe and the spaghetti straps of the camisole he wore
beneath the blouse.

"What's that you have on underneath.  Sure doesn't feel like a
t-shirt."

"It's...  what do they call it..a camisole.  My Aunt insisted that it
might make me do a better job if everything I wore was a girl's."

"And here I thought you just had on tights and those petticoats under
your dress during the play.  Surely you have jockey shorts on?"

He hesitated, long enough, apparently, for her to draw her own
conclusions.

"Panties?"

"Yes," he said, blushing a little, "and they aren't tights, but
stockings and a garter belt."

"Well, you really did get the full treatment.  Lots of nice undies to
make you feel good.  Tell me who did your hair."

"Well, my Aunt took me to a beauty parlor.  They did it."

"The whole treatment.  So tell me, how does it feel to be subjected to
all this feminine fashion?"

He chose his words carefully, not wanting to alienate her in any way.

"I did it because I didn't want the play to go down the drain.
Actually, it's all a little humiliating."

"You mean you don't get even just a little pleasure out of it?"

"What do you mean?

"I mean don't you get the least little kick out of the feel of the
material, the fact that you can get all dressed like you are and fool
everybody into thinking you really ARE a girl?  Do you get any delight
out of playing with makeup?  Any of that?"

"Karen, I'm a boy.  What do you think.  Boys aren't supposed to get a
kick out of being made to dress like girls."

"Yeah, I know," she replied.  "I'm just asking if you feel differently.
Look, I don't think you're strange or anything.  As I've said before, I
don't care one way or another.  I like you as a boy, I like you when
you're dressed.  To me, it's sort of a gas:  a boy I like who I can
have fun with as though it were a girl I liked."

"If you're asking me if I enjoy being here with you, of course I do.
If you're asking if I feel strange being dressed this way, well, I
don't feel strange around you.  You're different than those goons at
the theater."

"Ok.  So what about the rest of it?  be honest.  I won't care."

He paused for a while.

"There are times when....yes, I like the sensation of the clothes and
all of it.  I....I wish I could tell you more....but..."

"No.  That's OK. Its new to you, I know.  We can talk about it again
sometime.  Let's play some music."

She put on a tape as he sipped his Coke.

"Shall we get more comfortable?  I mean I am just dying to get out of
this skirt."

What did she mean by that?, he wondered, until he saw her pawing
through a drawer of nightclothes, selecting two sets.

"Want to wear these?" she said, holding up a powder blue baby doll with
very full pants, like bloomers.  "I mean, you can't be all that
comfortable lounging around in that outfit."

There was little he could say to object.  He was going to spend the
night here, he had to maintain the facade of Michelle, and he was not
keen on lolling about in panties and hose.

"I guess so," was his conditional answer.

She handed him the outfit and pointed at the door to the adjoining
bathroom.  He slipped inside, removed the clothing he had on and
slipped into the pale blue garment.

He came back into the bedroom to see Karen gyrating to the sounds
coming from the tape player.  Without missing a beat or movement, she
took the blouse and skirt from him and put them in the closet.  He put
the underwear he had been wearing on one of the chairs.

"Can you dance?" she asked him, still bouncing to the beat of the
melody.

"Not too well," he replied.  "isn't that a little loud.  Won't it wake
your grandmother?"

"Nan's bedroom is four doors down the hall and after she takes out her
hearing aid an earthquake wouldn't wake her.  Go with it, Michael!"

He stood near her and made absurd imitation of her movements until the
crescendo and final drum beat of the rock tune.  She moved to turn the
sound down slightly.

"You really don't know how to dance, do you"

"No," he said, "I go to a boys school.  The opportunities are limited.

A slow ballad came on the speakers, and she said "Here, this is easier.
I'll show you."

He let her put her arms around him, taking the lead.  The proximity of
her in her flimsy gown cause the inevitable stirring.  She could not
help but notice it, and lacking more restrictive male attire, it was
more pronounced.  She pulled him closer, his penis now against her and
held him tightly, her arms now around his waist.  His, at this point,
were holding her shoulders, but with shrugs of her shoulders, she
encouraged him to slip them around her neck.  He was overcome by the
electricity of their proximity drew them involuntarily into a tighter
embrace as she led him through sways and small steps to the love song.
Reflexively, he nuzzled his head into her shoulder.

The song ended, and they held the embrace for a few seconds afterwards.
His arms still around her neck, and hers sliding over his
satin-sheathed fanny, he felt sublime.  He glanced up at her and their
eyes met and locked.  Her glance darted to his mouth and back to his
eyes, and he knew that she was about to initiate the kiss that he had
longed to happen all evening.

She was assertive, pressing her lips firmly against his own, her hands
exploring his back and buttocks.  Then, a charge rushed through him as
her tongue parted his lips and began a furtive exploration of his
compliant mouth.  Her tongue drove deeply in and out, playing
passionate tag with his own, their breaths coming in gasps.  When
breathlessness overcame them, the kiss was broken and her lips
continued to brush his neck and the lobes of his ears.  They were both
succumbing to overwhelming passion.

As for Karen, she could not fully fathom why or how this particular
kiss so overwhelmed her.  She was moving quickly into ecstacy,
overjoyed at the prospect of lovemaking in her own room.  She was even
more mysteriously fascinated by the strange feeling of being in
control.

She guided him to the bed.  "This one is yours," she said breathlessly,
letting him lower himself.  She pulled back the coverlet and blankets,
and he quickly slipped in.  Without hesitation, she slid in beside him.

"Let me show you some real fun.  Let me show you what girls really
like," she whispered breathlessly as they locked in another kiss more
frenzied than their first.

He felt that she had taken total control, dominating the whole
direction of this liaison.  Partly from inexperience and partly because
he was enjoying the vulnerability, he let her proceed, as she
masterfully escalated his arousal with her every movement.  Either
Karen had a lot of experience or she had read a lot of good books.

She guided his hand to assorted parts of her own anatomy as her own
hands found the same point on his own.  Like a teacher, she
demonstrated the technique on his body, inviting coinciding action by
him.  She fondled his nipples, stoked the inner surface of his thighs,
tracing suggestive lines toward his groin,.  She moaned as he aped her
movements.  She teased at his engorged penis as his own fingers
surveyed her vaginal lips, but aware that too much stimulation there
would bring him to too rapid a conclusion, she stopped, yet holding his
had in place to continue its stroking of her most sensitive parts.  The
lesson shifted, now, for while he continued to fondle her labia and
clitoris, she lifted the blouse and began to suck at and play with his
nascent breasts.  The sensation was odd, yet seductively erotic to him.
She continued this activity for a few minutes, as he reciprocated with
his fingers at her pubis, then, fearing her own orgasm would be
precipitous, moved his hand away and revealed her own erect nipples in
invitation to his hungry mouth.  He duplicated the actions she had
performed on him and he was amazed to see the effect of his passionate
playfullness at those breasts.  Her pelvis thrust reflexively as lusty
groans emerged from her.  Finally, she pushed him away, firmly pushed
him on his back, and straddled him in a commanding way.

"Just lay back and enjoy, Michelle.  Enjoy."

Michael was too delirious with passion at that moment to wonder about
why she had called him that.  She cast her bikinis aside, pulled down
his own briefs briskly, and settled herself on his upright penis.  As
it entered the warm wetness, they both uttered a gasp of passion.
Karen gyrated her hips, and with the movement of her pelvis, propelled
his shaft in and out of her, as if it were she invading him, rather
than the other way round.  The pressure built in them both until they
exploded in a spasm of passion.  Relieved, Karen collapsed on top of
him and they remained locked for a long time as she continued to bestow
kisses on his neck.

It had been glorious.

(c) Copyright by Joel Lawrence