Personal rant

I hate to take pills to sleep, to stop thinking and feel like a normal human being. I also hate to get them illegally because I'm too scared to get help or tell my family that I feel wrong. I hate giving fake smiles and trowing up the next second. Shit. I don't even know why I wrote this here. Maybe just because I feel kinda safe here among people I will never know. 
Well, If you read all of this I wish you goodnight and thank you. 
Love you.

tags: personal