was literally too depressed to go to class today. i'm not sure why my brain is beginning to
rationalize credits and grades as if they were equivalent to the spoons i have to deal with
classes, but by and large my brain is at the very least cognizant that this beavhiour isn't
okay. i need to call a therapist but unfortunately yet again i'm stuck in the cycle of being
too lazy and sad to talk to anyone. i feel so horribly stuck and yet i just wallow in it.