Sometimes, I'm brutally unaware of the inability I have to change things. Like, I'm not sure whether or not I can change everything that I don't like about myself - my therapist says this is something, at some point, that we all learn to live with, to a degree - the Buddhist philosophy of learning to live with suffering, and understanding that in an age of constant "fixes" we can do well to learn about sitting still and attempting to...not find an answer every single time. It's lucid, but it's my driving philosophy right now.