getting on a plane tomorrow. gonna visit some family that I haven't
seen in a long, long time. All of whom I used to be very close to
back when. Back when my grandmother was a live, I guess. She really
was the glue that held this family together.

Also reached out to an old dear friend yesterday that I haven't
talked to in a couple years. Probably felt inspired by this family
trip and the pending reconnection with family.

I don't relate to people who can maintain lifelong relationships. I
don't have any. Not even with my family.

Well that's untrue. The relationships are there. I can text or call
my brother any time. The connection just isn't actively maintained.
It might be a couple months or even almost a year between talks. But
the line is still open.