I feel like. A lot of people feel closer to me than I do to them. And I really
would like to feel that closeness. But I feel very lonely despite this. And I
really hate the fucking double bind shit I'm in rn wrt housing. I just want this
all to end.

In other news, blood test on tuesday and maybe I need to get a higher dose of my
medication based on like. What else is going on with me physically and so on.