## my first feel

I've had a org journal around that I would visit from time to time to write
some of my (mostly depressing) thoughts about myself or my actions, sometimes
It helps me think rationally and reflect back on myself, anyway It always
makes me feel better when I'm writing what I feel so why not share it here
with the town's awesome community!

Really loving this community so far and want to explore it more, I don't have
much time though these days due to my college and my personal life being
extremely fast paced and busy this semster, I'll mostly be posting feels here
and hanging out on IRC from time to time though!

## oversleeping is a bitch

I hate napping in the evening since cuz I usually oversleep, I would then wake
up feeling grumpy and feel like my day is ruined, I can't sleep in my usual
time for I just woke up so I gotta deal with it and just stay up, I will have
a much less quality of sleep for the night as I already have to wake up early
for my college.

tl;dr, evening naps are the worst.

## do suckless tools suck less?

I'm currently trying to drive dwm with dmenu and st, always wanted to get deep
into the suckless eco system, I like the concept of minimal tools and bottom
up approaches (yes i3 I'm looking at you), I've been very absorbed into
tooling lately and I think I should care less about tools and more about what
I should be doing, but It's easier said than done for me, I sometimes think I
take being a nerd too personally (but who doesn't anyway right?, we are all
based in some way or another).

reminds me of that internship I applied for recently, which I added a little
note about myself and I had a huge urge to mention my tiling wm for some
reason :')

Will I regret it? only time will tell.

## mood and music

Whenever I'm sad I always love to listen to sad music, not sure why but It
should be the opposite for the greater good but that's how it works with me,
It's a "positive feedback vs negative feedback loop" kind of thing, where
listening to sad music will make me feel sadder (undamped  oscillation?).

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