i'm laying in bed watching my partner play a game, trying to slow my mind down.
so often it feels like i'm always trying to think my way out of problems, and i never end up acting.

i am so urgently looking forward to therapy. there are a lot of issues i would like to work through.
for instance, it is very difficult for me to be in a crowd. this limits my ability to go out with people.
i also have a very hard time with emotions, it's something i'm learning to handle.
i've had a lot of growing to do recently.