I'm pretty sure I have ADHD.

Or ADD, but that term has been deprecated I hear.

I didn't work for a single minute yesterday.
The idea of it felt like I would be overwhelmed by stress if I did.
I'm procrastinating now, actually. Gotta do some work.
I'll be taking an ADHD inventory on Saturday. Not being able to work is quite the symptom.
My friend suggested doing freelance work. I hate my job anyway, so that doesn't help,
and freelance work would mean being able to focus on one task and be done with it.
It wouldn't require a certain number of hours a day, which is hell. 8 hours a day??
Are you crazy?? Bruh. If I do good work in 4 hours, you should pay me for that work.
I shouldn't need to waste my life away like that to earn a living wage if I can do it
in a shorter period of time. And plus if I'm paying hourly, why do you care anyway?
Just let me work like 5 hours a day. You're paying LESS. That's how it works.

Work culture is weird as shit. I don't think I wanna be salaried. Almost everyone who
works salary works OVER 40 hours a week. I have a friend who works 80+ hours a week.
He's crazy and loves his job, but still. I can't even do 40.

Freelance would mean I could be working on a web dev job, see that I'm close to finishing,
and could go looking for my next client while I'm working. I could switch between
Python, web dev/designer, 3D modeler/texturer/animator, and video editor as I wish.
Given I get good enough at each, of course. Doesn't that sound like heaven? Being able
to switch between your whims of passion? I like that idea a lot. The only question is if
it would pay enough, right? If I learn to work fast, I can charge a reasonable price for
the job and work a fraction of the hours I would at a normal hourly job, and potentially
make the same amount of money. I'm into that.

Also, long-term plan is to get into passive income sources, like real estate and automatic
stock trading. That is the hope. I wish I did at the start of COVID. :( Gains would've
been crazy.

I HATE working. So much. Hourly pay is just an abymsal way to motivate me. Though I think
getting a job I don't despise with a passion would help. I'm not only working on Windows
(eugh), I'm working through TWO LAYERS OF REMOTE DESKTOP on a SHITTY GRAPHICAL PROGRAMMING
APPLICATION. It is a linux lover's personal hell. I think I've been there for two months.
But as soon as I can find a job (preferably Linux based) I'm out. I can't stand it.

Alright whoever you are reading this, I hope you have a wonderful day and can do something
nice for yourself. Take care, you beautiful soul.

~ Soda