Goddamn adhd and meds.

It ain't all fun and games. For some people, ADHD makes them obsess on their
interests. Not mine, apparently. I wish I did. I wish I obsessed on creative
pursuits.

Obviously few people with ADHD have it easy. But I honestly wish mine could be
the kind I see around me.  Sure, being productive would be hard. It already is
for me. But at least I could do the things I love.

I took a concerta and basically two shots of espresso today. Spent the day in a
rushed whimsy, ended up wasting the entire day. It's too intense tbh. Maybe one
shot of espresso would work better?

There's a lot of energy there, and if I can "aim" it at something I want to do,
it'd be great. Problem is, this really isn't solving any of the usual ADHD
problems. It's just giving me mental energy. Planning and following through is
still a huge problem. Fundamentally, the concerta isn't doing enough on its own.
It sucks.

Oh, I just realized that I didn't eat when I took it. That could've made it
affect me way more. Ah..