i have some hope that i may be able to work less from now on. sometimes something happens that gives me that hope and sometimes it even works for a while. it worked last week and it seems to work this week. i feel optimistic again and am enjoying my extra time after work so much! an hour or two more a day is already a huge improvement. but especially so for me since it felt like i had pretty much 0 time left for myself in recent weeks after work, basic chores, calming down nervously and consuming liquids, solids and TV shows for two days each week. even half an hour a week in which i don't feel overloaded, in which my mind is free to do something because i want to do it, in which i can have fun and enjoy living, is worth so much. Today I had several half hours like that in a row.

Overall health status estimation: ~=(-)

Alcohol recently: weekends

Nicotine: none since i… don't even remember when