Lately i've been thinking about all the relationships i had in my life,
both the friendly ones and the romantic ones.

Till the age of 19 i always thought that the relationships i had we're
unique, absolutely not replaceable.
 
At the time i had only one group of "real" friends, the same one i had
from the age of 6, we had, and still have, such a good connection that
i thought i could never find other friends like them.
Then i got to university and i met a bunch of new people and we really
got along and shared so many experiences that i started to think that
i could develope a similar bond with them. Of course it wasn't the same
thing, we didnt know each other for 15 years, but we shared so many
interests and they we're such a source of new ideas and point of views
that i really could imagine the possibility to form a really good
relation with them.
And that hit hard kinda, my first group of friend wasn't so unique in
the end, they weren't the only group of persons with whom i could have
so much fun with. I liked the idea of uniqueness we had.

then at 21 i broke up with my first and girlfriend, we have been
together for 5ish years. it was hard, if i could accept the idea that
my friends group wasn't unique, accepting that i could love another
girl like i loved her was harder.
Before being my first girlfriend we were also really close friends
for two years, se we can say we had a really close relation for more
than 7 years. i always thought she was the one, she knew everything
about me and viceversa. Probably i was too naive, but that's how i
felt.

fast-forward 8 months after the broke up and i'm living in another
country, got new friends from all over the world with whom i developed
a really really really strong connection, i met a girl who broke my
heart and met another one who made me believe that i can love her as 
much as i loved my first girlfriend.

It's a weird feeling. i fell like im growing, maybe this is something
already obvious for some of you, maybe some of you share my story.

I just fid interesting how much experiences can change us.


P.s. love you all, expecially who is feeling bad, shit is gonna get
easier i promise and you will be happy i swear. just dont give up.