Just got my Secret Santa gift, i absolutely love it! The idea that somebody that i dont know at all, from somewhere around the world took sometime to to read about me and created something for me is amazing. It makes my hearth so warm :) <3 I'm doing kind of better! Something snapped inside of me i think, finaly came to the realization that i need to be better, even if it requires some compromises. I'm taking some time to relax and be kind to myself. i deserve it. we all deserve it. Happy holidays guys! love you all. P.s. I feel sorry for who red through all of my rants of the last months. I'll be doing better i swear