I'm pretty confused lately. Can't really understand what is going on, what i feel, what i want. I have always been so rational but lately it doesn't seem to work. Back on dating apps again, no real reason, just felt bored and it's ok, i've been talking to a couple interesting people. I'm not even in the mood or place to date sincerely, but it's fun. I'm not working nor studying. Just rotting on the floor as usual. I should start working, i need a routine. To be forced to do things. sometimes i feel i'm too lucky, i dont deserve it. Kanye dropped a new album, it's amazing, probably i'll go to his concert too next week. Tonight i might go to The stadium, san siro the biggest in italy and watch a football match. yesterday i had a good time with friends eating pizza and playing trivia games. Look, all of these good things in my life but i feel like this. why. it's unfair. what changed i can't understand it.