Too much Minecraft (circumlunar.space), 12/04/2019
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So, user xiled  over at sdf mentioned "playing  way too much
Minecraft  on  the SDF  server."[1]  Also,  a possible  link
between wasting time and depression, and a few other things.

For  some  reason, I  think  I've  already confessed  my  MC
problem here on gopher. To be  honest, I feel like I've said
a whole lot  of things too many times here  in gopher space,
but that's a  topic for another post (or did  I already post
that?). Ah well,  xiled's post is too close to  home, I have
to talk it out, even if I already have.

Xiled  mentioned low-grade  depression. This  year has  been
tough, for a  variety of reasons. I definitely  have it too.
I'm stressed. And I definitely  am an escapist. I'm human, I
suppose,  and not  very good  at being  human sometimes.  My
go-to in  recent months has  been the SDF  minecraft server.
It's  perfect  for  an  introvert, with  hardly  any  users.
There's  enough  going on  to  make  exploring fun.  There's
enough interaction  to make building  fun. But, it  makes me
sick to think about the waste of real time, real life.

Couple all that  with the reality of working  for myself, at
home,  and you  get serious  problems. I  can play  for 8hrs
straight, and no one will stop  me. It's not good, at all. I
wish I  could say  that I  would always  stop myself,  but I
*have* played that way before. It's just not good.

But,  with   depression,  the   problem  is   cyclical.  I'm
depressed, so  I play, and  then I'm more depressed.  I play
again.

I wish I had solutions, but  all I really have are wishes. I
have made some progress with a few important projects, so my
life hasn't  been a total  waste. I  need to *do*  more; not
because more needs to be done, but for my own sanity. That's
my wish. I'll keep at it.  Maybe it's time to cut myself off
of MC for a while though...

[1] gopher://sdf.org:70/1/users/xiled/phlog/2019/20191203_xiledos